I had good intentions. But I’ll always be the *******.
Even when it hurts it’s okay
Whatever you need

I missed the way you smiled when you were in the passenger seat as we crossed state lines,
Closer to home your smile brightened more and more.
We woke up to sunrises and iced coffee
Country music playing with the windows rolled down & smoking our cigarettes.
I remember falling in love with you when we took that hike up Bear Butte in South Dakota,
When we reached the top the sun was setting and the lightning from the coming storms were striking as the sky rumbled.
It was our adventure that I found myself loving you more,
When we had to come back to New Mexico us was a hard goodbye because we both knew that the adventure was over and reality would set back in.
That we would probably drift back apart unless we’d tried to remember those moments.
I remember breaking my best friends heart chasing a toxic lover who couldn’t understand my soul like she did.
One day I hope to find you again,
Hopefully someday

Gamer girl meets a gamer boy,
She mains Mirage and I main Octane.
Rather than playing Pubs we run to the firing range and laugh and joke around.
Testing skills against each other,
The best part is that we didn’t even realize that we had gamed all day and with a lot of my friends.
The day went by so fast and even now you wanted to call and talk until you fell asleep.
The phone calls still going and I love hearing your laugh.
Affirmation is mutual and frustration is almost nonexistent
I expected you to get mad and rage quit when we kept losing,
Instead you told me that “it’s okay let’s go again, or we can go to firing range and have fun. Invite your friend?”
It’s the sense of peace and you’d even asked me what my life was like, and not to be afraid to be honest because no one is perfect and it’s okay.
We’d talked about my ex partner that led me to this dark place.
You’d been quiet for a few minutes after,
“I can hear it, the pain in your voice. It makes me sad because all I see is someone who’s amazing. Funny, cute, definitely my first choice as a duo partner from now on. She didn’t deserve you, that’s why it was hard. You loved her fully and she didn’t see that. Put yourself first, and I promise I’ll be here no matter what. You will recover from it, someone who destroys your self love and they let their love destroy you, that isn’t the place to be.
Now let’s go to bed, I can’t wait to game with you tomorrow sleepyhead”
Never did I expect that someone would be so understanding and caring.
Until her.
And when I didn’t see it coming, when I accepted that I’m no longer worthy of love.
Now I finally can breathe a little more and sleep sounder.

It was a 10 hour gaming session with her that I kept asking if she was tired and she responded with,
“I love spending time with you”
That’s when I knew that it’s true,
God really sends the one when it’s the right time

You thought I was in a relationship already?
Oh if only you knew what was really going on
But okay since I’m claimed by you
Who’s the ****** ?

Honestly I didn’t plan for this to happen but I’m glad you’re here.
I met you last summer after I’d gone through the worst breakup I’ve ever had.
And here you are again,
It can’t be anything more than coincidence right?
Never thought I’d find you again. Or you find me.
Guess I gotta move to England sometime haha

Words fall short,
There’s no other way of saying that a broken souls love is meaningless to the her.
The conversation of my emotions turns into an argument
I’m never heard
And the twist is she always says it’s just me with the problem