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Green Eyed Blues Dec 2016
Can you not hear me? I swear I hear the same
Maybe just a fools echo
Playing a lonesome game
My eyes starts to swivel
My body begins to shake
Lying naked
in this feeling of crushed
I've tried running
It's become too much
I can't hide I can't resist
My heart is burnt to a solid crisp
Embers leapt
Wrapped in my bones
Dandelions crept
Waiting for home
Holding memories
Embraced tight
All I have left
In the pale moonlight
Love songs ****
None else will suffice
A blanket spread
in fools paradise
Can you not hear my call
Is it all made up?
I can't give up
I can't let go
I write in curses
And sing in woes
I can't give up
I can't let go
Green Eyed Blues Oct 2019
Just thinking about being open to someone makes my body cringe
A harsh tingle curves my spine
And that’s  just the reaction  
To my mind

In real life all traces of attention and focus
Run away from me
And the sides of my eyes tinge black
If boldness was full bodied
I’d be a paper doll
All I can do is change outfits
Maybe add a new do
A nice winter scarf
Your favorite pair of my shoes

Little hints
Of something with dimensions
But nothing more

Rip me up when you start to see
The creases, the wrinkles
Maybe donate me to someone underprivileged
Green Eyed Blues Dec 2016
******* clad
Posed asexual
Yellow nails
Chipped tooth
Nickel sign
On a kissing booth
Tip jar empty
Unbroken silence
Passing steps
Concrete violence  
Feeling absent
Mindful submission
Breathing fast
Mindless permission
Wasting away
One cosmetic at a time
Willing to please
At the drop of a dime
Modeled molded not given a choice
Brainwashed punished pushed to give in
Waterboard torture
Taken with a grin
Green Eyed Blues Jul 2016
A piece missing
A puzzle left incomplete
Observing from my tippy toes
Air beneath my feet
Everything I ever wanted
Slightly out of reach
The world is my oyster
Yet you're the only thing I seek

You stand with wide eyes and circle rims
Nipping it all in the bud
Hasty gardener who over trims
What's left of our water
Just a puddle only my finger tip can skim

I'm stuck in love with a not ever after
If you be my shining knight
And I'll be yours to batter
Bruise me, scar me deep
Treat me how you will
I'm always your to keep

Waiting on the sidelines
Nervous to jump in
Muddy shoes from walking
The mess is to my hem
With shallow waters Im soaked
I grant you permission to swim
Green Eyed Blues Mar 2017
Here you go again
With your in.
Lackluster
No creativity.
Tiresome
With no brevity.

Your remedy to your mess.
Winged,
But squawking in your nest

Down-feathers are long past.
Covered
In oversight that clearly lasts.

You're a clown with runny make up.
Comedy is your genre.

Still I visit
Like a celebrity in their home town

Still I Linger
Like sharpenal from an old battle wound
Green Eyed Blues Mar 2017
Death becomes you,
So modest and frail
Caressing Last Rites
Laid out in Braille  

Wearing a gray suit
Free hand pulling the hem taut  
Clunky black shoes
Hair tied in a knot

Distress's mistress
With barren lips
Lust glistening from her eyes
Cleverly drips

Mouth opened just enough
To notice the absence of sound
Seized words  
Left in impound

A last little twitch
Consumes an entire room
Giving away spring
Before the lilac had a chance to bloom
Green Eyed Blues Oct 2016
Cemented fossilized embedded imprint
My stride not my pride you restrict
An ache of a sore of a pain you inflict
Makes everything I'm going to do
So **** easy to predict
Cycle circled by, in a flash it went
Not a bang nor a boom but a flick
A spiral in flames turned to ash of consequence

On a spindle spun no gold but a finger I did *****
The sharpened end did fail just a tiny little bit
Half awake, sleep walking with the dullest intent
Bought so many peoples ****
That I'm flat broke
And late on rent
Green Eyed Blues Jun 2016
This is **** this is **** this is **** this is **** this is **** this is **** this is ****

Don't quit
Don't quit
Don't quit

This is **** this **** this is **** this **** this **** this is **** this is **** this is **** this is **** this is **** this is **** this is **** this **** this **** this is ******* ****

Don't quit
Don't quit

This is **** **** this **** **** this **** **** this **** this is **** this **** this is **** this is **** **** this **** **** this **** this is **** this is **** this is **** this is **** this is **** this is **** this is **** **** this ****

Don't quit
Green Eyed Blues Feb 2017
It's a sellers market
And all I've got to sell is myself
I'll start with the tip of the top
And dye my mop
Move down to the brows
Make them small
Emotions leased
I'll make my lashes long and
My lips greased
Brush red on
Glowing cheeks

It's a sellers market
And all I've got to sell is myself
I'll start with the tip of the top
Make my I.Q. drop
Thoughts and opinions
On lock
Not one to be released
Laugh when I'm told
Give a smile and wink
Whatever I do
Promise not to think

It's a sellers market and the markets low
Cheap deceit
Given in truthful blows
Tried to leave
But what's left I don't know
Green Eyed Blues Nov 2017
Lack of Pain = Lack of Poetry
And that hurts.
Green Eyed Blues Nov 2016
I'm trying hard to keep faith to hang on to push through
But everyday I reach my limit a minute earlier than the one before
How can I hold on with no grip? How can I push through with no strength
Fortitude is disappearing and grievance leads way
What am I here for?
None can be revealed?
Not even the slightest of bits
So I can resist going out of my wits
I want to claw my skin away to shed it
Even if that leaves me permanently reddened
Anything to get away
If only for a moment
Green Eyed Blues May 2017
Is the only
Thing you
Can't manipulate
Green Eyed Blues May 2017
God himself told me let him go
      Still I couldn't
Green Eyed Blues Apr 2016
My heart gently rests between the sides of both my palms
Forever staying put
Between the squelchers
And the calms

A gooey ****** mess
Drips slowly down my arm
Forever staying put
Between what I want
And all the believable charm
Green Eyed Blues Jun 2017
Letters on pigeon
Or sent in a bottle
Love is nothing like the movies
You just give it away without
Knowing if it gets received or reciprocated or reviewed
And then nothing else because love doesn't expect anything in return
It's magical torture
Green Eyed Blues Apr 2016
Theres a circle cycle of sides to the self of me

Standing in the middle surveying my surroundings

Noting each application and the consequences that apply

Maybe I'm simply a hedonist
Weighting for worn out pleasure centers to take a flame

Or an optimistic pessimist
Citing my self for the blame  

My humanistic approach has lost appeal

Defying my superego
And hierarchy of needs reel

Stuck in Erickson stages
A psychodynamic underground war rages

There's a linear graph
Self sided to me

Maybe I'm projecting all my insecurities
And taking my abnormalities
Out on maladaptive poetry
Green Eyed Blues Dec 2016
I think I'm fine until I'm crying in my kitchen
These emotions I need to let go of,
I've been trying to give them a way every chance I get
But they linger like a vagrant in the alley by the bar asking me for a cigarette
Maybe tomorrow I'll find myself at home
But today it seems I'm still traveling in unknown disaster that's merely denial dressed up divine
Green Eyed Blues Oct 2018
I tire
Of fire
My skin
In need
Of rest

Topography
An eye can see
Each moment
That I lived

Dents and such
Wrinkles much
Meaty
Glossy
Sieve
Green Eyed Blues Jun 2017
Dusty sky
Grounds taken assault
Fireworks going off
And we're all at fault

Running into locked doors
Making fists
Bite my tongue
Hold back my own wrist

Causes what is life
When it all starts to switch
It's all broke
Still see no need to fix

Windows shake
At the will of bass
Move my hips
Squish my face

What's this taste
Salted rim
Dressed in black
Speech is grim

Taking steps
Left face then about
Pull my hair
Live in the clouds

It can't rain
If your looking above it
Ignore the atmosphere  
Forget all about it

Wear some boots
Stomp around
Ain't no feeling here
It's all blocked by the sound

If just for a moment
You could forget who you are
Could live the opposite
Breathing in tar

The world would be at a stand still
Milled in movement
No space to breath
No spot for improvement
Always the teacher
Never the student
Who wants to be told what they already know
Rather freeze in weather
Breathe in the snow

Icicle eyes
Blue lips
Keeping shaking baby
Then nothing can slip
Green Eyed Blues Feb 2020
My depression is my ***** kitchen
Sink filled to the brim with ***** dishes
Old food left stuck in waiting
Much like the thoughts in my head,
I have to get water from the bathroom sink,
In theory rinsing them after sounds so easy
But just the thought reminds of the summer I spent working for my dad power washing old fences.

My depression is my unbrushed hair thrown in a bun everyday
Knots left stuck in waiting
Much like the thoughts in my head,
I tell people I do the same thing because I’m not good at doing hair but I used to love it,
In theory running a brush through it sound so easy
But just the thought reminds me of when I sprained both my wrists and my body starts to twinge

My depression is the fake teeth stuck in my mouth
Because self destruction was never an
Option
Now it’s become another excuse to avoid connection
Much like the thoughts in my head

I tell people I’m shy
I tell people I don’t have much in common with anyone else
But in my head we’ve become best friends

My depression is the outside stillness
Because the unmatched chaos in my head leaves no energy for much else
It’s being tired after I’ve slept
It’s being hopeless after my personal church
It’s being trapped after another hand touches mine
It’s being mute with a series of novels to speak
It’s anesthesia awareness
It’s not being in a dungeon but being the dungeon itself
It’s being in a glass box all filled with water but a corner left of air
I’m pressed up against to breathe but keep gulping in water
Knowing it’s just a matter of time
Green Eyed Blues Jul 2017
I'm beautiful because of what I embody
Not my body
Green Eyed Blues Sep 2019
Love me without motive
Fill me not with void
When we spoon
Grasp me when your non dominant hand
So when your knife fingers cut right through me
Your aim isn’t as accurate
Green Eyed Blues May 2017
A dark entity
Gained entry
All I could do was watch
As he rancorously entered me
The manner of his position was
zig zag with sharp corners
He hunched rolling his neck with each push
A distasteful pleasure marked my outsides
A familiar feeling to the rest
I was stuck still in peaceful protest
Now he's apart of me he said
Each centimeter locked in my chest
Afterwards he sat downing a relieving sigh
As his eyes scanned my naked body
Trumpeting to himself she is now mine
Green Eyed Blues Nov 2017
I can't say that I've made the best decisions
There is constant dividing
a crippling devision
Atmospheric focal point
of a five foot incision
Viewing seconds in awareness
of foreboding circumcision
An optical submission
Leaving every thought and opinion    cleanly risen
In a prison
Of supervision
Burning the cuts on my fingers
Squeezing lemons of ambition
Green Eyed Blues May 2016
Deliverance and dead seas
A dusty ocean breeze
Land fills filling lungs
Unaware galvanized charms
A set of rusty rugs

A dirtied coppered fray
Left to steal the day
Untangling what stayed behind
To follow close in line

Dehydrated angler fish faces
Upon a Many forgotten places
With even older chests
Once a hopeless mess

Reaching air once more
From a dry and cracked up floor
Bones to be revealed
A judgement now appealed
Green Eyed Blues Apr 2017
Postmortem, precoitus
Precarious promiscuity
Pantomiming presumptions

Enriched Enouement
Envying earthquakes
Empathetically evolving

Natural naivety
Needing negligence
Nymphomanic nodding

Instrumentally insane
Insinuating innocence
Immobilizing imagery

Sarcastically singular
Sacred succulent
Swallowing Satan
Green Eyed Blues Apr 2016
Duly noted
and
show boated
A cross of
what you need
And what made
your belly bloated

Secretly promoted
Enthusiastically gloated
All for a piece of metal
Cold and gold coated

Humbly devoted
Bold Italics posted
Only to line the ranks
Heavy and revolted

Pepsi
and
Pop rocks
Shoved
in a mouth
Just to end up
Exploded
Green Eyed Blues Dec 2016
I was searching for a sign to confirm an all knowing feeling
When I realized distance is as much man-made as time
Green Eyed Blues Nov 2016
Two poppies on a California hill
Basking in the sun
Under pressure
Without free will
No room to walk
Tied still by roots
Watered down by
Selfless truths
No mouth to speak
Only pretty to pose
Waiting impatiently
For the swing of the crows
Green Eyed Blues Aug 2016
Obsession fueled by love
Love fueled by rage
Emotional direction
Facing in every which way

Lonely in a crowd
Yet always seek one out
Floating far away
Falling through the clouds

Inner dialogue gone hazy
Mumbles turned to roars
Craziness is loud
Brain fallen into war

Stopping to inhale
Abundance not in lack
The only way to move forward
Is not by stepping back

Memory composed bars
Form a solid square
Remembering who I was
Knowing I'm not there  

Dinosaur bone megaphone
Screaming in the street
Only for a moment
Knocks me off my feet

A wave of hesitation
Saves me by an inch
I was almost fooled
As my pride took a pinch
Green Eyed Blues Jun 2017
It's taken a bit of time to get used to the pull of the push
The electricity you give off has left me seizing
Often I find myself on my hands and knees
Flooded and grieving
Little memories with large headstones
Read such a short lived life
But as it goes the good die young
It's what hits the hardest
Squandered potential
At the will of living ghosts
What could've been
And what was so close
We became restricted by pieces that don't exist
By walls and ropes and chains and cuffs
And gaps and mountains and ridges and bluffs
I'm walking on both feet but **** my
mind has landed somewhere else
And on impact has completely split in two
From the pull and the push of being swept up in you
Green Eyed Blues Aug 2016
Asleep inside a chafing fence

My heart rate rests

From my mind dreams do dispense

With every speech

A feign of suspense

I've been here before
I know how this one ends

Just as my breathing slows

And my brain is dressed

While I show my teeth
and whip out my very best

You pull away

It was all in my head

Then life shows  me
I was just another conquest
Green Eyed Blues May 2016
Stuck in winters cement
Got a bright idea
But can't seem to commit
For when you just can't get that 575
Green Eyed Blues Jan 2019
If I ever rid myself
Of
You
I’m not sure if I would
Sink
Or
Float
Green Eyed Blues Jan 2019
Annoyance to clarify
The leftover boundaries when sweeping life into dustpan
Deficiencies that crawl up your esophagus
And claw at your gag relax until your mouth is forced open and you spit out a bulk of *******
You really had no control
It’s not your fault so you move on to more pleasantries and pretense of pretending and a never ending
A repetition
A decomposition
Of who you are
Until you stumble upon something with a sparkle and you do your damndest to make that **** dull
Green Eyed Blues May 2016
Routine fell wayside

Lost in time

Normal traces new sketches

A corner I've never seen

Leaning against scratchy walls

Scrapes my arm

Will my mind, never rests

Spring like shapes

Boing out of my ears

Lost in translation

Springing up new fears

Spirals with timid edges

Wrapped around ribcage

Spinning while I stand still

Indian burn covered body

Lungs smuggling air

But soon to get caught

Leaning against scratchy walls

At the speed my brain starts to rot
Green Eyed Blues Feb 2017
A gaggle scaling ice
With cautious grace
Cooling blood flow
Matching the temperament
Of hardened Adam's ale
Discomfort unseen
Unaware of the dangers they befriend
If only I could learn such skill
My fleshy body is fiery
As is my will
I tried to follow
Only to fall in
Conceited with human flaw
Swallowing crisp death
Holding hands with panic
Exchanging  youthful banter of woe
Birthday candles cannot out glow
Queen of the mountain
Eroded by natures charms
Tactful is she
Denials next move
To scam an eager mind
Dormant in life's winters thrill
Leaving my body stuck in time
Gray and blue and still
Green Eyed Blues Apr 2017
You're my point of reference
How I know I exist
Green Eyed Blues Apr 2017
How I get tangled in myself
Like fear mirroring love
Reaching and making contact
Only to get cut

A disillusioned illusion
What marks two eyes
That are murky sea glass stains
Bags that don't leave with sleep
Kisses from life
Sharp nose
Centered forehead crease
A wariness not one does
Dare to speak

How I get tangled in myself
Like fear mirroring love
Reaching and making contact
Only to get cut
Green Eyed Blues Aug 2016
Shimmer glitter

Watch it shine

Can feel it coming

In waves down my spine



Glimmer thinner

Dressed to the nines

Geometric shapes

Laid down in lines



Bruised dark purple

With a deep heavy blue

Pacing back n forth

In thought without a clue


A streak of yellow glow

To color in your hope

Haven't left dock

But you're rocking my boat


Sea sickness

In a quickness

Heaving over edge

Singing in your praises

Lyrics to my pledge


Nauseous state

Unbecoming death

Sharpened pungent aches

Low beneath my breast


A past time this,

Giving away my breath


Shimmer glitter

Wrapped up in twine

Can see it coming

A sign of the divine
Green Eyed Blues May 2017
I can sing an empty tune
Air in perfect pitch
A silent temptress
Moaning inadvertently
Who should I become?
Now that I've ridden the wave of these vibrations?
And laid in the sweat
That I pored from ancient temptations
Romance is simplicity
But how I quake in the pupil of complexity
And sometimes your over composition
Gives offense and is blind.
    Along with my five feelings a minute
But it works because you bore easy
The flaw lies in our trained disposition
    Of unempathetic nervous systems
Placing bets
Because assupmtion feeds more mouths than a herd of cattle ever could
Train of thought poetry
Green Eyed Blues Jun 2016
I've counted 186 light bulbs
Seen three girls roam the night
Two strangers making out
Car sounds to my right
Countless wakes in the water
One cool breeze
Four songs
Another couple going to steal the waters touch
The anticipations a rush
Pose for a picture that sums up the moment in exact
Take a deep breath and relax
Maybe they're all travelers unaware of the troubles in this city
Inward distractions
A drug better than the rest
No withdrawal
Expect reality
But that might be the worst of them
Green Eyed Blues Apr 2016
I'm a circus on a sinking ship
I asked the clowns to walk to plank
But the jokes won't quit

Yellow balloons
Big noses
Red shoes
And squirting roses

The laughs from ashore
Rival the tides
Coming in waves

Left by my own side

The bow is starting to crack
Under the pressure of the lion
Jumping through its fiery hoop

The shrouds once held tight
Now they are fraying
And starting to droop

An iceberg would be welcomed but we are in hot water

Not even a shark insight
I've been leaking blood

But still not a one to bite
Green Eyed Blues Apr 2016
I decided to ride the slide sideways

Letting my feet hang over

And one edge guide my neck

I went straight down for a second or two

But with my eyes to sky
I didn't worry

Rather, I just enjoyed the view
Green Eyed Blues Dec 2016
Reflections the devil
Pupils lit a flame
It's hot inside my head
Fire covers my brain

Trap set inside time
Illusions of repetition
Nothing is moving
But the need of ammunition

Brittle skin
Sheds underneath
Arm stays still
As I move to reach

Validity
And morbidity
Antsy
And feeling faint

Curiously
It fulfills me
To keep  
Going on this way
Green Eyed Blues Dec 2016
Starry-eyed
Searching your face
Humbling constellation
Laid out in your place
When ever I am lost
I look to you and find my way
I dream I'm a rocket
That explodes in the sky
Pressurized combustion
Solidifies my stay
I'll keep reaching and climbing
Only to be close to you again one starry day
Green Eyed Blues Dec 2016
Success is when the worst parts of your life become your greatest blessing
Green Eyed Blues Aug 2017
A hello from my Estranged Acidic Lover
Mixed with the scent of Lysol Wipes
I was using to scrub the Oven Door
Left me with a Metalic Taste
That raised my Iron Levels
I grew Irritable and Irrational
The beads of my sweat turned Silver
Plink plink fell to The Ground
With a heavy Speed
So I grabbed my Broom and Dustpan
Swept up the teared Weight
Covering the Floor
Before I could Slip
And threw them in the Trash
Green Eyed Blues Aug 2017
It's different when the weather starts to wear
When the insects sound ****** and refrain
When the sky begins the tear
And the moon begins to wane

When storms hesitate to speak
And the rain begins to wile
When the wind neglects to keep
And the world calms for just a while

It's similar to fare
Indebted to such recourse
For the burden we do bear
The calm ends with wretched force
Green Eyed Blues Jun 2016
I think I'm finally beginning to find myself
It's between what I want and who I was
A mere inch of a space
Expanding over time
I found my niche in my head
A spot, after so long that's all mine

I think I'm finally beginning to untangle bits of the web
That once held me in place
I can wiggle my toes
And raise my chin high
My hands are still tied
As for now, this will do just fine

I no longer stop to ask the wind why it blows
Or listen to the howls the moon seems drag along
No, I just take a breath
As my pieces cry their song

No more do I feel as if I have to snarl at the clouds
That love to hog the sun
Or wonder what Im doing that bothers everyone
No, I just smile in the gray
And make my own sunny days

I revel in the simple notion
Knowing the peace comes
In the aftermath of commotion

All noises and silence
Hold a slot of their own
The only choice I have to make
Is which one I call home
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