I was holding a tornado in a jar
Lid on as tight as I could *****
I heard the glass start to shake
Like a window, but I didn't think circles could shake,
I thought they were sturdy
In the roundest of sense.
I could've let it loose
Watched cards fly around.
But pieces of cardboard never have a choice. Let just fall where they may.

Postmortem, precoitus
Precarious promiscuity
Pantomiming presumptions

Enriched Enouement
Envying earthquakes
Empathetically evolving

Natural naivety
Needing negligence
Nymphomanic nodding

Instrumentally insane
Insinuating innocence
Immobilizing imagery

Sarcastically singular
Sacred succulent
Swallowing Satan

A little Jesus sort
Spaces between clout
Effort lost
Split the cost
Inconvenient doubt

A little Zorro like
Masquerading whip
Body welted
Disguise melted
Self prescribing quip

Risk and Pain
It's all the same
Self Imposed or Not

Let it go
Take it slow
Maybe then you'll have a shot

I've got the taste of Black Cat firecrackers in my mouth
Tongue trapped by
Exotic fruit instead of cheese  
Now nothing has a taste

How I get tangled in myself
Like fear mirroring love
Reaching and making contact
Only to get cut

A disillusioned illusion
What marks two eyes
That are murky sea glass stains
Bags that don't leave with sleep
Kisses from life
Sharp nose
Centered forehead crease
A wariness not one does
Dare to speak

How I get tangled in myself
Like fear mirroring love
Reaching and making contact
Only to get cut

You're my point of reference
How I know I exist

Here you go again
With your in.
Lackluster
No creativity.
Tiresome
With no brevity.

Your remedy to your mess.
Winged,
But squawking in your nest

Down-feathers are long past.
Covered
In oversight that clearly lasts.

You're a clown with runny make up.
Comedy is your genre.

Still I visit
Like a celebrity in their home town

Still I Linger
Like sharpenal from an old battle wound

Death becomes you,
So modest and frail
Caressing Last Rites
Laid out in Braille  

Wearing a gray suit
Free hand pulling the hem taut  
Clunky black shoes
Hair tied in a knot

Distress's mistress
With barren lips
Lust glistening from her eyes
Cleverly drips

Mouth opened just enough
To notice the absence of sound
Seized words  
Left in impound

A last little twitch
Consumes an entire room
Giving away spring
Before the lilac had a chance to bloom

Sitting here
On my carpet made of wood
Rooted down
As sturdy as any tree
that ever stood
I've been shaken by wind
Cross water has left me still
Yet here I remain, Not burned for warmth
Or eaten by a quill

I don't like to fight
I don't like to compete
I ramble on
I'm not very neat
I spill ****
Half pick it up
I'm drained
I don't really get what you're saying
I'm tired, you don't get it either
I'm sick of explaining
Everything's exciting at first
Then dulls out quick
Your words are *******
But you think your slick
Instead of working that dollar
Go buy a brain
Because
You'll end up leaving
As soon as you came

A gaggle scaling ice
With cautious grace
Cooling blood flow
Matching the temperament
Of hardened Adam's ale
Discomfort unseen
Unaware of the dangers they befriend
If only I could learn such skill
My fleshy body is fiery
As is my will
I tried to follow
Only to fall in
Conceited with human flaw
Swallowing crisp death
Holding hands with panic
Exchanging  youthful banter of woe
Birthday candles cannot out glow
Queen of the mountain
Eroded by natures charms
Tactful is she
Denials next move
To scam an eager mind
Dormant in life's winters thrill
Leaving my body stuck in time
Gray and blue and still

It's a sellers market
And all I've got to sell is myself
I'll start with the tip of the top
And dye my mop
Move down to the brows
Make them small
Emotions leased
I'll make my lashes long and
My lips greased
Brush red on
Glowing cheeks

It's a sellers market
And all I've got to sell is myself
I'll start with the tip of the top
Make my I.Q. drop
Thoughts and opinions
On lock
Not one to be released
Laugh when I'm told
Give a smile and wink
Whatever I do
Promise not to think

It's a sellers market and the markets low
Cheap deceit
Given in truthful blows
Tried to leave
But what's left I don't know

It's as if you've never learned
The difference between yourself and what's wrong
Nothing has a meaning but aiming to please
Your very essence
Is in messure
Of self-displeasure
Forearms toned and defined  
From turning tables
And grating the rinds
While the rest of your body is starved of nutrients and sun
Cauterized your lips closed
When you tried to swallow it whole

I shake with every cell
Oxygen does not easily flow
Dancing in indiscretion
Inhaling every woe

Cancerous to nose
Infected by smokey lips
Adorned in selfish prose
Doctored with defying quips

Acted out in Fable
Characterized in yellow stone
A sure thing to bite
Pieces lost in clothes  


Hiding in a wake
Eyes of goopy pus
A manmade offense
The anti-verb of us

Refined, I'm sweating gasoline
Set myself ablaze
Just to light the cigarette of my dreams
My natural state has changed
But hasn't stopped getting in my way
Takes a drink to strike an ember
Stagnant black glowing amber
Cooking my assumptions with timidity  
Chaotic pieces tempered into
Wavering unpredictability
Directionless enmity
Enemies at wind
Cooled to harden
Forced to torch again

As I danced into a flowered sea
My spins consumed space and time
Each whirl sang "whoosh"
Dirt flung about new finds

An archeologist of selfish kinds
Fossilized in feat and pride
Each further from the truth
Perception left beside

I kept about, my eyes did lie
Everything began to melt
Deluded happiness formed in whole
Willingness was all I felt.

The frosted grass reminds me of you
Like most things do
Frigid but beautiful
Cold but lively
Lacking itself but promising
Potential is a dangerous quality
Because once the grass thaws  
Once it's vibrance and summer texture
returns
Everyone will forget that it was once frozen

Clinical
Chemical
Teetering
To sides

Individual
Togetherness
Decrepit
Insides

Welling
And swelling
Burning
Fire eyes

Deceased
Disease
A feeling
Of pride

As forever
Flew by
Twisted
enouement
Dead right

A birds song echoes throughout a chilly winters night
Flightless with an everlasting dream of the sky
A tune more beautiful than the dawning of a new try

A staunch ache a craving of a dream
Creating a delicacy
Sorrowfully gleamed
Moonlit distress paved in silver beams
A spotlight of romance
Held in high esteem

A love made up
Spreading wings once more
Torturous dissatisfaction dances with such allure
Habitually choreographing  
A compromising score

A birds song echoes throughout a chilly winters night
Flightless
With an everlasting dream of the sky

Success is when the worst parts of your life become your greatest blessing

Words! Words! Words!
What are they

Unlived dreams
Unrequited love

Worn desires
that fail to die

Miscommunications

The very fruit of sorrow
fermented in twine and woven onto
innocent eyes

Does any word hold value
In a world made of steel and rust

Where ******* dreams thrive
And love is brewed with angel dust

Where actions are spit polished
Derived from conveyor belts

Where plastic is iced stiff
All the rest is good enough to forget  

A kind word blossoms with potential greater than the destruction of man

Yet, words what are they

Do we even know

Or use them selfishly
To ease our own pain
To create our own peace of minds

Words like a million pennies
All have value but waste away

Ignorance has a certain luxury
Sometimes it is comfort over growth
But humans are amazing creatures, dangerous at the same time, we can grow accustom or comfortable to any situation the adjustment period is what terrifies most
What do we sacrifice living being led by fear?
Everything works until it doesn't
That's why it is important to become acquainted with your heart it tells you everything you need to know.
Brain is not intended to over rule your pure heartfelt desires but to create a path for them

He was a thief of the utmost malicious kind
He stole my heart
While he seduced my mind
His words melted my ears
He kissed my eyes blind
His skin numbed my hands
His taste destroyed my insides
He smelled of desired illusion
He took my senses for quite a ride

Once I was subdued sedated untwined
Fueled by the desperation of heartache he made love to the night
With a beat in his pocket
A stride to the right
His spirits lifted
With no regards to mine

Reflections the devil
Pupils lit a flame
It's hot inside my head
Fire covers my brain

Trap set inside time
Illusions of repetition
Nothing is moving
But the need of ammunition

Brittle skin
Sheds underneath
Arm stays still
As I move to reach

Validity
And morbidity
Antsy
And feeling faint

Curiously
It fulfills me
To keep  
Going on this way

If you would stop running
You wouldn't be as tired

A whirl of a wind
Memories start to spin
A reel of time
A piece missing
It might be a chunk of my brain
Maybe it was fried or never there
Maybe that piece is you
My energy is pulling me in a direction I can't go
Grabbing and stretching every bit of my existence
The resistance alone is exhausting
Consumed by daydreams
Lost in thought
Constantly
Trying
Tiring
Millions of times everyday I've attempted to disband  
The very fulcrum that moves the winding wheel
That ticks and ticks in your name
I'm absolutely in love with it
Even though it's driving me insane

Starry-eyed
Searching your face
Humbling constellation
Laid out in your place
When ever I am lost
I look to you and find my way
I dream I'm a rocket
That explodes in the sky
Pressurized combustion
Solidifies my stay
I'll keep reaching and climbing
Only to be close to you again one starry day

******* clad
Posed asexual
Yellow nails
Chipped tooth
Nickel sign
On a kissing booth
Tip jar empty
Unbroken silence
Passing steps
Concrete violence  
Feeling absent
Mindful submission
Breathing fast
Mindless permission
Wasting away
One cosmetic at a time
Willing to please
At the drop of a dime
Modeled molded not given a choice
Brainwashed punished pushed to give in
Waterboard torture
Taken with a grin

Always wondering
I wish I knew your first name
Until then live well

I think I'm fine until I'm crying in my kitchen
These emotions I need to let go of,
I've been trying to give them a way every chance I get
But they linger like a vagrant in the alley by the bar asking me for a cigarette
Maybe tomorrow I'll find myself at home
But today it seems I'm still traveling in unknown disaster that's merely denial dressed up divine

I was searching for a sign to confirm an all knowing feeling
When I realized distance is as much man-made as time

Can you not hear me? I swear I hear the same
Maybe just a fools echo
Playing a lonesome game
My eyes starts to swivel
My body begins to shake
Lying naked
in this feeling of crushed
I've tried running
It's become too much
I can't hide I can't resist
My heart is burnt to a solid crisp
Embers leapt
Wrapped in my bones
Dandelions crept
Waiting for home
Holding memories
Embraced tight
All I have left
In the pale moonlight
Love songs ****
None else will suffice
A blanket spread
in fools paradise
Can you not hear my call
Is it all made up?
I can't give up
I can't let go
I write in curses
And sing in woes
I can't give up
I can't let go

A song is what saved me
A little indie
With a reggae beat
Said in street rhymes
Standing on concrete

Lyrics that moved me
Filled with serenity
And victorious defeat
Graceful fluidity
Conducive and complete

My ears beg for more
One more time,
Seal on repeat  
A song helps me breath
My souls retreat

Speak breeze,

Tease my purple lips,

Slip in and out

of my consciousness

Steal me away

While I'm sprinting in clouds

A past wisps by

Continually disavows

How did I get here?

How?

I'm trying hard to keep faith to hang on to push through
But everyday I reach my limit a minute earlier than the one before
How can I hold on with no grip? How can I push through with no strength
Fortitude is disappearing and grievance leads way
What am I here for?
None can be revealed?
Not even the slightest of bits
So I can resist going out of my wits
I want to claw my skin away to shed it
Even if that leaves me permanently reddened
Anything to get away
If only for a moment

If loving you from afar is all I can do then that's what I'll do
Everyday with every part of me

A roundabout paved
A single stormy wave
Which incapsulated
The most rogue of my brains
Ever since I've followed
I've been taken in spades
I can hear  cement
Cracking in my name
Dirt is more natural
Yet lacking in traction
To this day I'm defined by this slipperiest of action
A Faction  a singular piece
Turned my elbows from dust to contingent visceral grease
A twist of a spin in a moment can release
Quickly I am burdened for my aim is to please

A love birthed from fame
Nothing penetrates the smooth skin
Of an ever tempting dame
No breeze to blow a ships sails
Only diamonds piled on rubies
suffocated in trunks and in pails,
Buckets but more romantic in name, Satisfaction in unsatisfactory gain
That howls at the moons as it transforms into tangible bane
Journey for the hunt predesigned to ****
And with dawn rises the most forgetful of will
Enamored by the chase
For misery has never been able to keep still

If you're not happy I failed as a soulmate
I wanted to fill you with fire and watch as the emotions trapping you unsatisfied reduced to nothing but ash that would be swept away as you ran forward.

I wanted to make your head spin with endless possibilities of fulfillment  

If you're not irrefutably irreversibly incandescent
Not for me not because of me but after the spiritual transformation from the  meeting of our two souls
I have failed you as a soulmate.

If I have failed you
I am sorry my dearest friend

Two poppies on a California hill
Basking in the sun
Under pressure
Without free will
No room to walk
Tied still by roots
Watered down by
Selfless truths
No mouth to speak
Only pretty to pose
Waiting impatiently
For the swing of the crows

I'll always be there  
Even on the bad days
When I don't want to be for myself I'll be there for you
Waiting
It could never be a waste of time
So I wait and wait and wait and wait and wait some more
Living for what I love  
Not made to change only to understand, to level up
Hoping you can feel it from afar
During the times you can't look at yourself
You'll know someone loves you
Someone cares
For the thinnest half of a chance that could ever bring you comfort
That's why I'll always be there

Egoistical is thinking everything is made to please you and if it doesn't it must be bad.

You excel at walking on eggshells
A hidden perfection
You're careful not to spill on your clothes
I want to show you how inspiring you are when you don't do it all right
You're the glow in an over exposed room
Heartbreak that made me soar like a rocket
I was living with earthworms
Now my best friends are the stars
I'm the smudge on your white shirt
Not afraid of being messy
An imperfection you can't control
How scary of a thought when you're used to living on your tiptoes
Any second it could all break  
And leave you with the urge to runaway from your feet
Trained to disobey the very essence at your very core
But no matter what I love you for
the complete confusion you are
An oath I never chose yet, choose to a million times more

A backwards birth
We are the universe dying
Bleeding from every surface
At the speed of emotion

Fresh scars
I swear they weren't here yesterday
Yesterday I had fresh skin,decorated only in orange brown speckles
Now all I see is a blurred image of my old form, with a grayish hint,
Two sides melting into a sinkhole that is waiting to meet them in the middle
Different not only in appearance  but in shape as well
Flat land turned mountainous
A gang of cells with a bird's-eye view
I feign recognition,
I had really forgotten all about them,
But this feeling, this feeling isn't as new

My brains where it rains
Acidic and rudely natured
The lighting is kind
I, a professor of emotional nomenclature
Classify, define,
File away
Brown leaves that blow a way to defy
Tree roots eating countryside
Rural deceit
Running to grow, left breathless and incomplete
A lover of storms lost in its throes
Slowly destroyed
With each gust
Pieces escape this place
Until there's no reality left

Cemented fossilized embedded imprint
My stride not my pride you restrict
An ache of a sore of a pain you inflict
Makes everything I'm going to do
So **** easy to predict
Cycle circled by, in a flash it went
Not a bang nor a boom but a flick
A spiral in flames turned to ash of consequence

On a spindle spun no gold but a finger I did *****
The sharpened end did fail just a tiny little bit
Half awake, sleep walking with the dullest intent
Bought so many peoples ****
That I'm flat broke
And late on rent

A passion ever felt
Burnt with leather belt
Raws my skin bold to welt

Sunken in a sip
My glass begins to drip
Sweaty palms friction slip

Accents yet to the tell
Exotic depths of hell
Fleshy lusts to sell  

Sneaky window breeze
Cools my pulse with ease
Mounted in the air to freeze

Edging out the light

Some pictures are better when unseen

Then you're free to make up what ever it is you please

An angel in demon disguise

Sits with pursed lips

Patiently sighs

After every silly slip

A wilted rose

Brushes against your face

Smooth expectations

Listening to it crumble away

Scratch marks

Nothing more than a print made with a kiss

Magnified magnetic faces
Tip toe at my bust

Burning building
Makes the window a door

Fossilized illusions
Topped in magic hats

Dogmatic ****** features
Outlined in rouge

Ice caps melt
And warm my beer

The lions have gone extinct
But I'm still here