Fix yourself
Before something worse happens
Then it’ll be harder
To dig  yourself out of this hole
You’re not as bad as you think you are
You’ve made many mistakes
You’ve become toxic
But you can still be the nice girl that you used to be
That you want to be
It’s okay
You’ll be okay
It’s time to start taking care of yourself
Standing up for yourself
Loving yourself
Because you can’t help anyone
If you can’t help yourself
It’s okay
Fight harder
Be nice
Stand up for yourself
You’ll be fine
Focus on
You

Poets profit from pain
What I mean by that
Is we can take any situation
Any horrible thing that has happened to us
And make something beautiful
Make something that has meaning to the world
That is truly incredible

I might always be sad
When I remember you
And how you don’t love me
How you’ve treated me
But I’ve got to stop thinking of myself as a victim
Because I’m not
I’m a survivor
I shouldn’t miss you
All the things you put me through
But I do
You’re still my mother
At one time, my survival was dependent on you
At the time, you couldn’t wait to meet me
But that’s over
Even though you don’t miss me
I’ll forever miss the good times I had with you

Why be your own enemy?
When there are so many people out to get you

I wish I was nice to everyone
I can be
I’m just not
And I haven’t realized it
But I’m a *****
To so many people
Who didn’t deserve it
Who’ve been there for me
I need to stop
I need to be nice
From now on that’s what I’ll do
Change
That’s what I need to do

I thought you loved me too, but I should know better
Because when I love someone I put my whole heart into it and put more effort than I need to
So eventually the other person will think they don’t have to
Every relationship I’ve had has ended messily
Maybe it’s because I’m complicated, my life is cluttered
My emotions come out to play when everything is calm
When everyone is happy, I create problems
I’m broken glass, sharp, harsh
When you step on me, I’ll bite back
I’ll cling to you, ivy on brick walls
Because you were there for me
When I asked you to
You were the happiest thing in my life
Because I made you be there
And you didn’t say no
You didn’t love me back
But also didn’t say so
I can never make anyone stay
I can never make feelings stick
I wanted this to work so much it made me sick
But it’s over, and that’s okay
It’s okay
Even if it’s not
I’m okay
Even if I’m not
That’s okay too
You’re just a boy
They’re just boys
There’s nothing wrong with them
Just me

My body comes with instructions
Don’t touch me there
Kind words, she’s fragile
It’s hard to be so breakable
Made of glass
Tip-toe around me, eggshells
Memories of foreign skin
Rougher times
Where she had to fight not to scream
Creepy crawly snakes
That are still wrapped around her body
Worms that nestle themselves in her ear
Worthless
Liar
Stupid
Fully undressed
She looks like a stranger
She can still see him behind her in the mirror