I don't need anyone to agree with me I just want the same ovastandyng Respekt I choose to lovingly give. In other words keep your judgements To yourselves and just pray for me Not on the weaknesses you think you see or lie, gossip, and talk about me Only behind my back of course! Cause the right to face my accusers always Seem to be elusively eluding to me!!!
Jumping into character Assuming personalities Befitting particular situations Cameras lighting up actions Selling souls over likes, favs Friend requests and acceptions Verbally diarrheaing via calls Texting social media platforms Hitting homes harder than a night AT The Oscars ***** slapping comedians Wondering before all this socializing What in the world did mere Mortals Do without trying to be famously Pleasing every, any, and absolutely No One??????????????????????
Think and move with your heart Everyone around mind's on tap Seeing long before, the inevitable But head first into inner me's traps Many times hit before it hurts How hot the flames of your own Decided hell before you burnt When are you going to start living For the love of a jealous God alone When will you stop chasing others Lost love of fathers and mothers Heirlooms of generational curses Piped dreams, hopes and wishes Loving hard and ever watcful of All signs driving or walking along This road called life, never lonely Never forgetting if they don't Love the way you need and want Your love is good enough for God Whoever chooses to come along And if only by yourself, your love Is good enough for you alone!
How many ways are you Ready and willing to love Still waters of an inferno zoul Volcanic ash reigning your entire world Melting glacial iceberg smiles Bedding venomous skorpyonz Waking in Pheonix'z eagled eyez Mmmmmmm such a tazty morsel...
She didn't let go, He refused to hold on Quietly moving in opposite directions Noone saying or said it's over or done Loathingly despising his Mrs. Right Contemptually disdaining her Mr. Wrong Neither caring to leave the other Singing another sad song of love Faded and with the wind, so long gone Put to musak by many making millions Thanks to a few of my favorites Monica, Joe, Toni, and oh, Ms. Jackson!
Where head meets heart At the junction of fusion Knots up and or down Passionately experiencing Every single draining emotion Scared of being too afraid To let anyone else in Belonging only to you Please be careful con mi...
Let's talk perceptions Inherently our very own Seen and seeing most things Your way far too long Caught in confusing chaos Turned the home of breaking hearts Into an abandoned house All to ready for setting up shop Havoc'$ palace to freely roam Welcomed under love's disguise Over a decade of squatter's rights Eviction not without many fights Destroyed celing to foundation Hated and blamed, the creation. For Everything chosen to do or not to do right and or wrongz...
Flesh, bones, blood, organs, tissues Mind, body, soul, spirit's, issues Human been, being literally Trying to survive loving life Meaningfully signifcant Existence in this form given Well Done's just reward Most Wanted at the end of living!
Most High! Forgive me for putting Anyone and or anything Above my relationship with you It's not always easy To completely trust and depend Solely on you Help me follow your lead Like I expect my gems to even when They are afraid and confused About what's going to happen next Help me to never again look back To never again place anything or anyone On the seat of the throne of my heart All I am and will be, belongs to only you Thank you for your love and forgiveness For your promises over mine and all Attached to me lives! Not my will But yours for my life! I'm grateful. Amen!
Reminding myself daily They may not have known They may not have thought They may not have cared Or even remember the hurt Their words or actions caused Elephant memory and all Forgivingly forget for Loves progression's sake
How can A good person who Continue to make Bad decisions Still think Of themselves Or be considered By anyone else Who is mentally stable To be good...
What fruits Are you busy Producing??? Not regretting Regrettably barren Unbalanced as it may seem Growing to good enough Leaving behind what happened When WE were Unproductive as Hell Just running around trying to be Busy Numbing WE-Zelfz WE Prodigals...
What iz it worth to you You have the world In the psalmz of your handz? Selah don't necessarily mean Amen Mending relationz with Whom I deem Used to Be important to me I hate to zee Someone I once Called friend or family Become an extrenemy When I pray their bezt And they only bring me To the very worzezt'z worsts in me So really what profitz Have I, if evey life I have ever touched Seems to literally crash and burn Including by my very own hands Even my OWN???
Hart O Kool KAP It's 5 Oklok in da mourning yuh see Duppy really really knew Juzt how to frighten me Way back when WE Had childish men2boyz tality To think someone like you Could ever overstand Deez nutz iz far bigga than yours If you ain't feeling it already You and yours will feel It soon come faster than A speeding bullet eventually You and yours gooooiiiiiin learnn
Train em up In the fear and The way THEY Should go So yuh mean to tell me We need to teach Our children not baby goatz To think for themselves Simply because THEY are born with MYNDZ of They OWN?
Curb your ID Mantra prayed Many Many timez And more Than counted for Until about age preteen Then that N!$$@ EGO Juzt ztep ryght up& ztep Right, Right, Right Eeeeen Not Juzt Inn!!!
It's just your presence It reminded me of less stressful Far less complicated times It really is just your presence That brought these tears And the joy of thinking back On the nieve innocent blasts We've had throughout Not ever wanting to grow up Those KB, ToyzRUZÂ Â kids Yesteryearz...
The same breath Used to pray and say thank you Lord Is the same breath used blasphemously To cuss people out and let anger And hurtfully hateful words come out Mostly to hurt people back Who inflicted painful acts or words first And people who Blantly disrespects kindness And life's worth...
Angry for all The wrong reasons And right ones too Hurtfully hurt over Wanting what I can't have But desperately want Far longer than foreva And after the grave Haunting you and Only You
Have so many dreams No illusive delusional Cracked pipe thing Entrepreneurship, buying, selling Owning real wealth that Spans and feeds and clothes Generation's on generations On G.E.N.E.R.A.T.I.O.N.Z!!!!!!!!
I juzt need y'all to ovastand Da Goddezz got Thiz Whole Wide world In the reach of Both palming handz *** on gingy run for uz Marathonz race endearmentz Well donez Heaven or dearly departedz H. E. Doublez, Ahhhh Hell!!!
I want to hurt you back Worse than you hurt me I want to hate you back For the hate you have shown me I want to see you dead even at times As you've wished me dead many times Fact is the only reason I can want To hate you, is because at some point Undeserving of my most sacred love Effortlessly willingly without prejudice I onpenly only gave you! Because we both are valid My perceptions of what really happened between you and I Matterss too...
I do but I don't Want to fauq with you You have become Too familiar Too easily accessed Far too Comfortably available That's why I keep finding My way back to you...
You know All I feel, think, say and do There's nothing I can hide from you Just as simple as, there's no where Too far to run, walk, sprint, stroll Pace myself, tuck and or roll To get far far away from me...
She was called a Legend! Today she is 4ft 6in and only 11 Genuine affection and patience The manner in which she cares Has been noticed so many times So many people say and have said Kind words about all of my Gems! But! Today I had to bow All the way down. He pointed to Her on the way out, and said. L!E!G!E!N!D!!! You just don't see That anymore, and ALL I could do To hold back the tears from The thought of when I was advised I still had time to have an abortion Was smile at the fakt that for me Loving life is ever the only option!!! Today I fell in love all over again A statement made to my godmother A drugged up emotional ball of yuck After giving birth, a beautiful brisk Novemba fall day. Way back when...
Tried to live up To expectations Of myself more than once More than twice even more Times than thrice never delusional Stupidity"$ not synonymous with nice My kindness has been taken as though There's more weakness than just in my Joints! Joining stronger ligaments Seen, unseen, knowingly unknown Tried to live down To expectations of others Unable to un hear thoughts unheard Every single spoken and unspoken Wordy unworthy word!
Hate me for Who I've genuinely Been to and for you All the requests of your heart Fulfilled by yours truly Simply because I gave half of f a u q About what anybody else thinks they think or know about me whether from somebody else's mouth or my own Conversation's verbiaging trajectory! Even your opinions of me are tainted Who are you really?  You are not my Artist nor my art that I've chosen for To be painted of me...
The bottom of this world's Barrel is far more crowded Than could ever be imagined Naysayers, back biters and A whole lot of needy crab ******* No mothers no fathers to teach Or show them better, has made Most ***** in this barrel's peripheral Shorter! Finding a way out gets one Pulled down faster and harder. So I've decided to tunnel through From the bottom of this bottomless Barrel that has tried to keep us under!
Surely goodness and mercy Shall follow me All the days Of my life because you Lord Have set a table before me In the midst, in the presence Of those who love, loath, and Loves to hate me and my family!!!
Been here before Lonely, but never ever alone Fetal positionings Unhelpful, unneighborly Offering to help who exactly? As though this partnership Hasn't benefitted us both Or rather this is now And have been, since the Very beginning, more about Your company's policy Than my family having A place to call home Been here before Making another's house My sanctity, my children's home Apologizing like I'm wrong Rendering to Ceasar what doesn't Belong, simply because when in Roam!!!
Everytime I allow Myself to let go Interesting non happenstances Always seem to occur Everytime I let her out Eorshnarfitiz can't get From up under those Bright sunny daze or The silver lining of Every gray,  natural days cloud.
You don't want just all of me You want me to pretend to be Something and someone I'm not You certainly don't want all of me You want me to forget that I'm a she Who loves kissing passionately slow But! Sometimes just wanna be Handled choked and fauqed Hard, fast and pounding **** whipped ****, till my legs Just keeps trembling Begging don't stop now You gently pull out and take a bow For these blezzingz Look how wide you opened Yo mouth!!!
It's not just *** What is just ***? Considering all the Possible sacrifices *** can cause one to make Maybe in one's nievety Or thoughtless youth I on the other hand Never ever wanted To have *** with Anyone else but My own husband. Let alone being Married more Than once And divorce In one life's Lifetime Unrequited indeed Ugh...
A perpetual turn Of double dutch Heart fearfully All in, the mind Is ready to know To go to that Better place where It has only had A glimpse of what Happiness in love Could look like or be...
Lord search my heart Show me how to Overcome this hurtful Angry disgraceful shame Caused and allowed Only by my disobedience I take responsibility Rather than placing blame Be the lifter up of my head Renew my passions for What is right just and holy in your sight Please Most High if you see fit Reestablish and restore My place at the foot of the Throne of Grace Hold me in the palm of your hands Only in your love I find the only true hiding place...
Every step I take Away from you Got me groaning In the spirit JE shade of blue Forgiveness from Heaven's throne of grace Is why I could never Throw my life away Living in and only God for the glory of you
What is my way out? Every man Jack Have no clout Talking sideways Hush uno mouths They can keep digging Through long and shorts of it While I am climbing out Bottom of the barrels Only God and I know How my knees bow low Praise is what I do Far longer than forever Yielding to your perfect will Until Well Done belongs To the rest of my soul's days...
Hurtful soul Broken spirit Every single cracking crevice Please let the lights of moon and sun Back in, meltimg winters of Cold bitter loneliness Finding yourself ever Is just a matter of where to look Dear Lord, here's my existence I'm begging please, guide me!!!