Teach me how to love
Show me who to suffer for
Since I AM unable to prevent
Anyone from making
Conscious or unconscious
Choices of hurting me.
I AM so tired of being
Afraid of being hurt again
I see icicles forming in veins
Where blue flowing blood
Used to rush along to ease
Pains of dying cells
Unseen only felt
My emotions need an education
In right from wrong
I'm not only listening to
But singing sad songs
About situations blaming love
Gone horribly wrong
In it far longer than a furlong
Knowing that I can be very
Headstrong, knowing both
What I need and what I want
Love, Peace, and joy while Experiencing what my life
With the real love, I have been
So desperately searching for
In and ALL around it...

A hoarders nightmare
COVID 19 got the whole
Entire world winter, spring
And summer cleaning!
I did hear often as a child
That cleanliness is close to
Godliness!!!

We got a race to run
Come on sun shine brighter
Through gemz these
Diamond minded sentiments
How many of US actually know
Just how turbulent the flow
Written so clicheishly long ago
Maybe not quite put just so
Weather in kyso, soca, or calypso.
It is this Trinbagonian
Time for sure, that genuine glow
Don't get it twisted kinda roll
Still blowing mindz! Fakt iz
Don't none of yall want that purple smoke!!!

Sitting here angry
Feeling sorry for myself
I dare not ask out loud
What else can go wrong next
Days filled with regretful ponder
Nights filled with restlessness
Prayers don't even bounce off
Let alone pierce God's ears
Your purpose and plan for my life
Cannot be remorseful tears
There has to be a better way
To be at peace within
Despite the chaos all around
But, what if there isn't though
What if I've run out of options?

It's my mind
I'm making the
Decision to loose
Try finding my mental
Sensibilities, you so choose
Trust it's blown
Long before you got here
Follow the trail of thoughts
All untraveled roads lead home
Guaranteed! Zhe left cluez...

Oh how it *****
When you can't
Even be vulnerable
Around the people
That you make comfortable
To be vulnerable around you...

Only evil muthafukaz
Die with their eyes open
You sitting there hoping
Life for you is gonna change
You should know exactly
How the game is played
Living by way of violence
Only ensures you die the same...