It's A love affair
When I think of this peace inside
The entire world around WE
Couldn't possibly equate US
Juztuz peanut headz Jordanz
With Fieldz of sweet and sour
Perry Saphire blossoms
Roze one more day
Gifted with the Rizingz
Of the only sunz son
Gave birth to none
Mothers many
Daughterz I have a plenty
That juzt means I'm blessed
And I'm loathingly loved at times
That's just how daughters and Mothers do! It was not supposed
To be us in this blissful hellish
Chaoticly beautiful mess
WE call family
But in the mean time
WE ALL are fine. Justus
No measurements in time
Created to be yours
Far longer than forever
Az you mi amore are mine...

Never really concerned
About or over loosing you
More worried that I could lose me
Falling more with time and effort
Every lie you uttered
Gave this foolish
Fool's heart comfortable
Necessary temporary comforts
Instant gratifications
Of zoul loosing proportions
When only in God
I should've put ALL of my trust

Every now and then
I do an evaluation
By way of the people
I think should or could
Know a bit of and about me
Well enough to be able to weigh in
Maybe that is not the best way
To evaluate oneself
I guess seeing myself through
Others eyes is not always
The true reflection of who
I know myself to be
The many petals to this orchiroze
That very few ever get to see
Beautiful smiles seem to hide
The pain, that no one
Really cares to know exist in me

Suicidal ideologies
That cross our minds
No necessary apologies
For the frustration
Of wanting the pain
To simply be eased
Stopping the spread
Of dis eased thoughts
Of angry hurt
How many ways are
The possibilities
Dying by the hands
That took an oat
To not harm
But to only heal...

Although
They have become
My Everything
It crosses my mind at times
How different
Life might or could've been
If I hadn't
Given birth to my offspring

Counting the many
Blezzingz all around
Grateful to still be
In the land of the living
Grace and Mercy
Kept death at bay
Honestly just yesterday
At the windows and doors
To my very zoul, death came
By knocking once again
God's merciful grace
Covered another vehicle
My family was in
Great truly is your faithfulness...

Great Rizingz
Gorgeous woman of God
I know you don't
Usually do Mondays
But how could you not
Since today and everyday
The Lord has made
I'm grateful
For ALL the blessings
I know I don't  deserve
And humbly grateful for
ALL I've got...