How do I
Love from a distance
So I'm not
Always hurt or feeling hurt
By the things
Said or done to me
By the ones I love
And the ones
That say or show occasionally
That they might could
Possibly have love for me?
God please show me how
To love myself,so I'm not
Always looking for love outwardly.

No battle fought, had I needed
To lift a finger for it to be won
Keep my hands very clean
Raised in surrender
To the reigning champion
The foot of grace's throne
Is my just reward my well done
For serving whole heartedly
The true and living God!!!

This piercing war cry
Bellows deep within my soul
Hold on to the alter
Don't let go, until you
Let God make you whole.

The valleys of
The shadows of dying
Doesn't one bit scare me
Since grace and mercies
Renew daily for the
Protection of my peace
The living word assures
That I am a creature of worship
No battle scars to find
My sword of the spirit
Knows no surrender
Beyond humbled kneeology...

It's so very saddening
I can't be honest with you
You breached the trust
That you told me was truth
When the strange imposter
Impersonated you...

I am so angry at myself
Every time I get one step
Closer to getting out.
Feels like I'm being dragged
Back to your hell
Ugh our contentious bond
We both know it very well
Running  fast forward
To your finished linez
Sick of feeling alone
Being with you, all the time