I am so angry at myself
Every time I get one step
Closer to getting out.
Feels like I'm being dragged
Back to your hell
Ugh our contentious bond
We both know it very well
Running  fast forward
To your finished linez
Sick of feeling alone
Being with you, all the time

Second guessing myself constantly
Don't need or want to be around
Things, people and places
That's no good for me
Knowing all things work out
For the betterment of me
I'm begging Lord please
Lead, guide and direct me
Show me where to go
Who to see, who to be a blessing to
And who I am created to be
So that through my life
You alone heavenly father
Get ALL praises and All the glory...

Cried for and over you many
Lonely days and restless nights
Trying hard to forget
The way you look in everything
That fitz you just right
Needing una mas tiempo
To make sure you knew
I know you can be the only one
In this universe created
To be loved by me and only me

Adonis set trippin
Drunkin grownups
Turning tables in so many
Knowingly unknown wayz
Testing broken pressured
Pipelining crewz found no leakz
Glasses raised to pouringz only
No shoveling plowz
To loosen hazy snowy memories
Rocking and rolling through
Uneighborly hoods
Murdering unfriendly shipz
Clicking threes just might
Not get you home court advantage
How far iz to far,but wait!  
Who gon clean up this dog ****?
Of that *** phase, if not you?

What does God want
For and from me
Why can't I seem
To live a sold out life
Completely and whole heartedly
What causes me to stray
What does separate our love
Sometimes day after day
When will I overstand and accept
That you heavenly father
Is the light, truth and the way
Trying hard not to straddle fences
To not live like lukewarm spewage
To not hear, depart from me
I do not even know of you
But we'll done, that glorious day
My faithful servant
The lamb's book of life
Is right this way...

Age was and iz only one number
Away from the pages of the letterz
Written but not mailed out in time
To resolve rumors
Of your girl possibly knowing
That at your very worst or bezt,this
More than a woman hot like fire
Was rocking the boat of not just anybody, decided to let dogs roam
Back to queen of the same
****** mofoz who claimed they
Couldn't breath without you
The only reason my Romeo
Couldn't just get hurt
He had to simply die.

Never encountered anyone
Who wants to end up
Lonely or all alone
But what's the cost of
Selling one's zoul
For the world's price
Of living in hates houseless homes?
Segregated complications of loneliness
Occupying mental time and space
When I was yours
And you were mine to own...