Never encountered anyone
Who wants to end up
Lonely or all alone
But what's the cost of
Selling one's zoul
For the world's price
Of living in hates houseless homes?
Segregated complications of loneliness
Occupying mental time and space
When I was yours
And you were mine to own...

An awakening spirit
Prisoner of will
Enamored by
A captivating morbidly resting soul
Crystallized energies
Prohibiting thermic effects
Necessary to absorb
Expended physicalities
Trapped in amberesque
Prehistoric mentalities
Rebellious knowledge
Attempting excavations
Of unadulterated wisdoms
Not acquired oratorical rhetoric
Separated by oceans of Disparaging indespensible essences
Passed through generations
Heirlooms of distorted truth
I embark on an eternal Internalized tumultuous journey
Of protecting ME from ME!!!

I am no gi jane
Once you're finished playing
I end up in a disheveled
Mentally emotional toy box
Or placed neatly on a trinket'z
Zhelf! I know who and who's I am
What's in my name
My lineage and my birthright'$
One in the same
I dare you to try to define me
Oh please go ahead, make my day
Just try to tell me about the I
That loves me for simply
Being my fearfully and Wonderfully created selves!!!

I find myself
On the perpetual
Potter's wheel
Make me over again
Is my soul's song's plea
Longing to be whole
Every aspect of me
Walking a circumspect life
Is by far no easy fete
So for God I live
Cause Christ layed down his life
Without even knowing me!!!

My fair lady
Is fairly black
But mostly blue
True test of time
Is OUR locked up love
Incarcerated sin tu!

Your gifts I was told
As per the bible
Will make room for you
Not really sure how gifted
I am, and that's my honest truth
Not certain of what I can
Or cannot do
Just narrowing down my dislikes
So I can try to figure out
What I might just like to be or do!

Tried to be what you
Wanted of me
Put morals and faith aside
To be accepted for
The me you needed to see
Losing pieces of my peace
Trying hard for you
To love me for me
We are too far gone
There's no love lost or found
In this unwholly matrimony
We've become friendly foes
With barricaded hearts
Chained together
In our houseless homes
Afraid to go back to being alone
Petrified of unwelcomed
Possible hurt or pain unknown...