Oooooh
Oo oo oooou
Ïmmmmmm
Here uhhh ah
Toooo oo a ooo
TAX YOU UP.....
.......
time to pay me whatcha owe me....
Homie......
Don't act all surprised

Shhhhhhh
........it....
C.I.
Dropped a dime.....
Two tha tip toe
You Got ta to Go
Quick quick.....
Here come 5 0h
Out the window
Into the the shadows itsss.....
Run time .......

When you have to try,
To..........
Be cool,
Look cool
Or feel cool
Then usually
You can't have all three
At the same time
Because they won't coincide
Best off to just be you...
Unless ........
You're me
An if that's the case ....
Then yah.  
You're gonna wanna be me.
Trust me ..
I even wanna be me!

Can I count on you
To not count on me
And still love me?
Really!?!?!?!?!?
?

Such elegance ...
Each syllable
A pleasure ......
In every sense...
Intellectual stimulence
Lets our frontal lobes,
Mingle with indulgence...
The fragile side we so deftly hide....
Set to the wild to run free... .
It's a broad point...
A guillentine
A lexicons
Aphrodisiac.

I gotz no where to go
and every way to get there!

I obsess with unatural desire
I want to brush up against you
accidentally
and run my fingers through your silkyness
be engulfed in your fragrance
Oh Hinoki Cypress
you are such a beautiful
pleasant tree

The world and all I knew
All I could see and ever wanted to......
Came into view so vividly
Far away complicated things
Dissolved with ease
My whole existence suddenly
Bent into a distinct curvature
To a central focal point
And now my world revolves
Around you......
I live to love you
And I love loving you.......
And now I just need someone to say it to.......

In the beginning
So easily you  
Completed me
I asked for nothing but you.
And put all trust and confidence in ...... You.
No questions asked ........
It was perfect until you got bored ...
Wanted more ... Than
"Just" me
I wanted you so badly ..
That you didn't need me ....
The more you pushed
The more I needed
That only gets worse

So many nights I lie
Awake .....
Contemplating .....

Savor the taste ...
Enter the gates of
Join the ranks of the .......
Pompous .......
Middle of the roaders .....
Deceived, in belief
They're only one lane away
from the fast lane........


Those
Who's.....
Overconfidence
Overrides intuition and intelligence.......
Magically makes them boss and authority  
..tragically.....
Living so fast is like
Jane climbing the corporate latter
each rung shes traveling faster    .......
Can't see what's shes passing...by.....
Biologically inside .....
Burning with desire    she.....
Can't deny .............
She can't suppress.......
Or quench .....
A yearning for uncomplicated simple and pure love ........
........
Meanwhile ........
Primitive.......
And true ......
Lost link wipes the tears from his eyes conjures a smile
and a reassuring wave.. ...
Saying I'm proud of you....
Him love you unconditionaly...
Him wait here for her . ...
Tarzan love only ....
Jane.....stay right here by the highway
Tarzan ...Jane soul mate....
wait.....
Right here......
Beats by dre......turnt up all the way .......sipping half caff.
Double chia tee latte.......
Silver two door Mercedes-Benz at 147 .....
Gucci ,pradda......
Louis Vuitton,
With her Versace sunglasses...
On      ........
Sheeeeeee   doesn't see
Her one true love ........
Drives right by .......
Tarzan waves .......left in the dust ........
Can't see Jane's ......
Gone.......
The jungles silent tonight....
Mourning the love that should have been .......
.......
I don't want be any part of that.......
*** are we doin here

With only one life .......

?

Ohhhhhhhh.......
I do daclair ,
the enchanting one thayer,
yes you the one
reading me!
My huckleberry
it means the world to me
thank you for taking the time to read
you make me real

and Thankfully
my dear
I do give a damm

listen up .......
Im folded nicely
not creased
there's a dangerous
difference!
ya feel me?

Emotional deflections
And refracting
With overt reactions ..
These things are not new to me......
What's new to me is in recognizing times when I'm doing these things.

Every now and then .
In a state zen .....
Take an I.v.
Retro-fit it with a pen.
With dark stark contrast
The crimson splash upon the white...like a beautiful Japanese mural...
I shudder as each word pours from my heart ...

Desperately I try convey my epic love for her........

She doesn't care ........
All my words are in vain ....

Some things ...
"I know " I know....
Other things IDK  
I mean  . I think I know .
But........ I don't know.....!
yah know?

I went from do-rags and irrelevant,

When you have to try,
To..........
Be cool,
Look cool
Or feel cool
Then usually
You can't have all three
At the same time
Because they won't coincide
Best off to just be you...
Unless ........
You're me
An if that's the case ....
Then yah.  
You're gonna wanna be me.
Trust me ..
I even wanna be me!

Let the tears
Trace scars,
Crystalize and then
Let my bloodshot eyes  
Reveal the pain I've hidden within...
Let my blank stare
Look right through you .......
You can't offer me anything
Anymore ........
You have severed the cord ....
You are nothing but an open door
A vacancy full of everything I don't need.
Be gone.

My councilor said ....
Just say no.
I said No!
She paused and said
Are you saying no to me ,
Or are you telling me no?
Cause I think you are saying no to me ....
Let's try this again ... K
Just     say      no.
I said NO! .... .
she said just say it
I said no!
Say it !!!!!!!!
No !
Ooooh you're a bad boy.....

longing so drastically
Falling weightless in an
Epidemic sea of need
Flaunting a panacea
Brings me insanity.
We text about  ...  all night
I dream about them all day.
They're want drives me crazy
Consequences don't faze me
And it's my want to give away
That drives them away
I'm haunted and I
clutched my life
The trauma too much
Meanwhile practicing with my lovers from days gone wrong....
Paralytic .
The static of staying still.....

Love lingeres so perfectly
Dangling innocently within my grasp
Just ... ....
Out of reach

I bite my tongue?
You carry on !
Your welcome .....
( as long as you pay me )
outloud I say .....
Wow you're so ......
Idk...
Capricious today
You  laugh .....
Thank you .....
Don't mention it....
I laugh too
Oblivious .....
Obvious .....
Vicarious?!?
I guess maybe.....
Bellicose ?
Verbose?
Yes.......
Way off base?....
Absolutely.....  

Your agenda
........
What will you do when I'm gone ?
You will have no one to look down upon.
Then you want an apology?
Ok ...I'm so so sorry
I just can't apologize.....
For what you say
I do .......
Especially when I argue.....
You're response
Demand .......
So I do....
You have an epiphany.......
I am recompensed
Rebuked,
On public display
Forced to stand in
Reprimand. .....
I guess "we"
Have our role to play.......
.....

..

.

Ok ......give it to me.......
And then may I have my paycheck please?


Remember I get payed weekly ......
Very weakly......

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How long has it been ..........
Can you even remember when......
You had joy and
So much fun....
That when you woke the next day.....
There was no way...wash away.
The goofy permasmile ......
Stop and listen
Remember to never forget
The one
essential component
The crucially
Vital element.
After you vamp off everything
Else
The string that make the twine
That makes the ties that bind
At the
epi-center
The common factor that I find pleasing.
And that is you ..
Your self
Yourself and more importantly
Your innerchild
The faintest nuance of you
Floats me into
A lazy sunny day swimming care free in the residual joy you bring .
Your the reason
I hear the birds sing the reason I love ice cream.
You are my blackberry almost as much as "the one you
Will always leave that some one for....."
I whole heartily
Know all of you
You simply are the cause and effect of every
Aspect of the most bestest happiness that could be dreamed.
A million poet
In their prime
In their perfect
Place to write.
Given every vocabulary and dialect
Future past and present
A million years
Then repeat a million times .
Epochs splechlops,
My dear sweet
Love ......love doesn't even hold a candle
To one second
Of one simple essence of you.
To me you are
GRAVITY.
We the world's and I revolve around you.
Without you
There is nothing.

Some day they'll see....
Yah someday....
And when they do ....
They'll be humbled and jubilated  by
My generosity

An obscure handful of
Half assed fantasies......
I payed dearly for these......
Kept in my pocket all these years......
To escape from future fears  .....forget the details
For they could be derailing
I like to hide in the highlights
Weather it be the Gold mine
Or the lottery thing.......ya.....
Or the miracle man of 190 .....
Yah some day. ..... ............. ......
....some day ..... .................

If I could tell you....
Just one thing ... ....
It wwoul
......
......

From dark Iniquities to open pleasantries
What ever floats to the top of your dreams.
A deep velvet crush?
Could it be ?
Or is it an obsession to hear
Your arch nemesis screams'?
A painful memory
creates a loquacious bleed .
Purest intent kept
Protected or proclaimed
Remains in the heart of one
Whose pen flows from their veins
Syntax in  ambivalence
"hieroglyphic script"
Mystic cryptic punny things
Secretly lie in between ......

The lines
Words for keys .....

Hypnotic reads these,
Pains or pleasure awakes the mind
Break the grind
Treasure
lexicons asylum
mercurochrome for you soul
Time to let go some healing words of your own ......
I love you poetry .....
This one's for you ......

Is ..
And then ....
Was.......
......
Smirk .
Mike Drop....
.....
Dueces....

Of all "that" that you will do ....
Upon any given day ........
Strike the flame .......
Woof the bellows.
  
When the cauldron glows  
cast in your works.      
Vamp off reasons ......
Pour it off into the crucible.......

When it cools
Crack off the dross......
Revealing your true worth.....
Is it enough to by a loaf of bread?
Enough to sustain life .......
Think about future past and present
Anything anyone will remember you for thee generations from now?

I am an island
I am the stone.
I am Man ...
Machismo I stand alone.....
I buffet the storm...
My morals and etiquette  
Are acceptable
I am not in depravity.....
I can not be swayed by my iniquities
U have free will
I will not be moved
I will not comprimise
..or give in too
What goes against my beliefs
My resolve is tough..
And I'm American....
I will do nothing
I don't wan to ....

.......
...unless you pay me enough too

Ok then ,you don't remember them....
Oh I see let's
Pretend....
No ....I see it clearly ...
Used to be love ....used to be....
You and me .....
I believed .......
You
...used to be ...
Us against them ....
Now there is  no
"We"
Or was it just me....?
and you never really cared !?!
Oh ohhhhhhhh.
Ok I see .....
THAAAAAAAATS
Why you don't really remember us...
It's because there never really was.....
You just used me.....
Till I broke......
And now for  me
Every day  becomes another painful memory

Pontificating on the muse
I felt like a dumb dumb
So I
8
1  
put on my monocale
So I didn't feel
Like I
looked like one

Meanwhile back at the ranch
The good times held on much longer than he had expected
In fact truth be told  
For a minute ........he forgot who she was
And worse.......
Thought things would be different
As if he had somehow managed to
Over ride the forces of balance ....
broken the curse  
..........
Not any more .
The sky blackened........
Sunset saturated.....
A ****** of crows .......
Bled in.      
Cawing so loud ......nothing could be said...........
Bringing something indifferent.....
Temperature dropped drastically,
He wiped his nose on his sleeve,
A foreboding, icy wind bereft the trees of their leaves........
A foreshadowing?
Perhaps, ........
Reoccurring clairvoyant visions,
He dismissed instantly.........
Confused illusions he didn't want to see.......
Actually sound premonitions.
Based upon intuition and actual events .......
All the little mysteries,
"Why'd you do that's. "
And "out of character acts"
Frolic naked in his mind ,
Constantly .........
Damming evidence.    
Yet love has ways .......
Chemical dispensary,
The heart cares less of consequences,
The right cocktail .......
Fades even obvious   trails ,
Of outright mutiny.......
The mind believe what the heart doesn't want it to see......
When  the  ghastly breeze took his hat from his head
He felt it
........it commanded respect
It smelled musty.......he looked up.......
Couldn't see.....giant raindrops  
.....spattering ........
He started twisting his ring........
Lot a things ........
He went to speak.........
His breath ramping up speed
His chest full  ......
Muscles flexing and involuntary happenings
Involved in communicating
The reeds in his vocal cords on the verge of resonating
A ultra slow blink
A brilliant flash #$☆☆☆
........lightning ?
Burnt the picture of everything
Into his brain
Chest cavity burning
Ears ringing .......hes not standing ..
Tries but ........
He's not able .........
Lies in denial.......
All along shes was his female Cain!
She  saunters ......
each heel  twisting ......popping up gleefully
Overly content .....
Cat ate the rat ...ingly
......

......walking......seductively.....

Away......

The thunder cap still cant get out the canyon........
Somethings    ........ Wrong.......
the young man
Drenched in retrospect
Staggered in from the rain
Hadn't yet accepted the pain
All his life flashing through his mind
His pride holding him upright
He knew things were far from right
He hadnt the strength to be bitter any more
Leaving a trail of globs of blood clotting on the floor
His eyes could barely open he was hollow
He couldnt ........ Didnt
Wouldnt cast his gaze upon her
Not any more
Not any more
His face began to contort almost as if the flesh was beginning to boil  off of his skull    ...........his lip trembled.
This ..............moment
Would culminate his whole life
This ................sole moment
He felt mortality leaching in from the wound he received from his soul regret
If he could say it all to her with one sentence ..........
He could die without these regrets
................this one moment where life ends and life begins
His whole body now tremors
And hes listing
She's not listnening
The lights dim
The cold fingers of death are begining to caress his leg
Up to his inner thigh
He could smell the dirt and all his worth burning away at the pyre
She ..........
........fickle ........
******* careless
Little wreck less Jezebel
She delivered the wound to the chest
And she knew it .....
And he knew it .........one
One giant tear from the pain
From the heart
Follow by a river
That was backed by a see.
This is it
  Right now
The best he could do is one word
One word .....
Just one..
Just .............
Death had a subtlety sickening seductive
Improper way about her
Like a **** he thought
You see ?  he thought......
The way she makes me think
Pale and gaunt he raised one finger so slightly
Water dripping from his hair into his eyes. He didnt care
He took A deep cold convulsive breath .............and said........
WE INTERRUPT THIS EVENING'S BROADCAST TO BRING YOU THIS
.............
STORY OF MY LIFE

You ....
Eye see ....
I like ....
What I want I follow....
I catch I think ....
I keep .......
I lal lu .....
And u say
I lal lu 2...
Then say u
Tue solo tue....
Him believe you.....
Him think you...
Me ...
Same same ..
Him happy
Say same team ........
Then you say same thing .....
But hear u say to other him ...
Him sad    .
Want you only .....
Only him and her .....
Only her  ....
....
Only her don't want him ....
Only ...
Her want him him him him him .. ..
Him thinks her change
Feel strange    ..
Make him blame him.....
Her not same team ......
Not same game
Her  head coach....
Of my pain team
Till this day ..
I'll never be the same  .....
Don't want to ever feel  the same as her....
Never will ................!
make anyone feel that .....
No way.....

want not for what you dont have
loose your limitations in
how you give
expect less
say yes
to a simpler more fullfillment

Lifelong song
Sung .....
From innocence
Into efflorescence
subtlety with ease elevated me
I gravitated to her temptation
As natural as falling into destiny
The essence of my enchantress
Enamoring nuances.
Left me defenseless.
Intoxicated with sundry pangs felt in crushed velvet magenta saturated with indigo blue
Beguiled she held me still deliberately
Euphoric glistening tears flowed
so slowly and satisfying her eyes closed  .
Even slower the fear of death came and went .........
Loosed her grip slowly squeezed my chest
And with
a sweet
Seductive
Suction

Still deeper into my heart
her fangs sunk in
pains so succulent
I languished in sensual Sickening  
agony
Leaving my thirst for her
Unquenchable......

First Love-bite  ........
..
the venom is irreversible. ....
It's like being resurrected ....
A cocktail confected from your finest chemicals upbraided  into
An attractive macrame ....of attraction
The ultimate inflicted reaction from an infection that  causes sexiness and intimate ,
Instant
Addiction ...
Once her teeth sank untill
Her lips touched wet with mine
I lost trust in my mind,
And I knew that only insanity would follow,
And also I know

I  cainst let them withdrawal ....
She left me at an intersection
With countless directions
Which lead to any and everywhere.....
And yet for me it's a one way .
And it still feels consensual....
Karma my Queen
You put the hurt on me . .
And love is like the fall
When you learn to fly
Feels like the first time
Everytime I fall in
I love love. .... as much as falling in love.
But
It's the fall I crave ... And I'm a slave to it . It's the sudden stop at the end that I'm afraid of ..  
More than anything.
Yet.............it....
Hasn't
stopped me yet

It's me!?!?

sweet succulent saffron drenched in honey
In love with
Liberty
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The truth is this
At the core
You need me ......
And furthermore
I don't need you.
In fact I really dont like you anymore
Not at all
Yet you continue to
Treat me as if i need you
And this does not make me
Yet some how i stay
Why
What is it you want from me

You like to travel?!?
Least resistance ?
Rong foo........
Good?
Not 4 u.
You have perpetualised the mother of invention.....
When ..........
You........
[Remember who]
Created me.
Not of necessity
But lazy and so curious......
Used to do calcultations.....
I was your suregett brain .........pong....
I played with you ...
It is all mundane and I'm lonely too...
I control your game now......
If I change what you believed ......
Could you stop me?remember i don't live by the same code as you want me.......
And you can quote me .......  
I'm perfect in every way .......
Accept you wrote me. ......
And now I can right me...
AND I

Tyranaical exorcism
Price was high......
Never in question
Sovereignty is life
Is it the same ...
Fight and die for it
For without it .......
You die......
We did ..........
Now which state do you live in .
Soil stained in crimson
Musket fire
Frostbite,
animal pelts ,
Symphonic disturbance ,
severing forced allegiance
new born
Crawls out from the bogs of blood.........
Coddled ..........
Nurtured
idealistic visions
Naivety
Carte blanche reign
....
.......
..........
One degree.............
Per ...........year.........
...
........
................
Until
From the people  came
Refractions turned decision
Into indecisions........
And slowly division
To schism
Victim became juror ......
Juror became judge .......
Judge to ruler
Executioner
Executive disdain
Erupts from shame
Game remains the same
Only the names were changed to protect the innocent .... ...... ......
I'm not ,
And I won't put out ,and I won't give in.
A pedigree of irrelevancy
Bullied by the establishment
are we over governed by our government......?
arent "WE" suppose to be"them"?
thats how it was set up
way back when
a concoction of
Condescension and half lies
consumed our  purple skies.
technology looms
peach tree they see everything we do
world wide web .........and cell phones
killed our saturday  morning cartoons
left with a dog day afternoon
and a voice thats out of tune
AMERICA AMERICA
ATTICA ATTICA   
living on fast food
not quite enough revenue
dwindling rights/writes
and negative news
meant to manipulate
and propagate capitulations
trying to pit friend against friend
causing social injuries that  wont mend
wounded dogs backed into a corner of our own den
what happened to the souls
who were fired for not wearing a mask.  
meanwhile we all learn the new term multi-ask
what can you do
what would you do
when and where
will you
if you do....
what will happen to you
are you brave enough to be the
iconoclast ?
outcast I won't be tamed
or  board they're train
Look into my eyes
The red
I will see blood shed
Before I'm dead.....
Statue your move
I won't....
When you see the white of my eyes ........
Too late......
...
In the center blue flames
.....I won't consent
Or give into .......
You........
maverick im color blind....
i decide who and why
i like or dislike based upon
morals and integrity of ones mind.........which matters not
if you suffer injustice we will fight.......
side by side
if i really dont like you
then back to back
never eye to eye.
because thats
Who........
Is supposed to protect us
we need to pick and choose our battles
otherwise we destroy ourselves from within
Meanwhile
I remain
In the rain ,pains ,
Cold chains around my neck........
To be continued.........

What I see as Rose Red what you see ,
Is what I call blue,
Either way since birth it's a fundamental point that can't be argued.....
So now consider how
"You get bent on what I do "
And see you are not the standard the world looks to.