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209 · May 2022
In me minds
Delton Peele May 2022
I sojourn  silently,
Under the indigo blue marquee ,
The Grand masquerade
That's me there ......
Crooked crown ,
Distant stare,
Wearing out my only mask
Upside-down frown,
tattooed tear under my left eye
Free.......
If only I could be ......
Free from this fractured lucidity
Licked by the leathery whips
Of yesterday's !
Belly laughing and joyful things
Obscure as time moves on...
But the secrets I keep
Never fade!
I'm a slave to the things no one will see
206 · Mar 2022
Sum dae
Delton Peele Mar 2022
Some day I believe
There there will come
A time
In which I might think ,
That I ........
Retrospectively
Wished I would have
Seen this coming..
Then again that would have surely taken some of the fun out of it.
Cause knowing me....
If I had known..............
I dont think I would have done it
I  know I would have done it anyway......
And there's one more  reason why ,
Its so sorta unrewarding
To read books backwards
206 · Feb 2021
Her
Delton Peele Feb 2021
Her
WARNING
When you see
This ..
You know your
Life is over



Standing there
Perplexed
40000
Word
Vocabulary
All I can say is
205 · Feb 2021
Compartamentalize
Delton Peele Feb 2021
Slumped
In disbelief
From
Input data recieved
The words i heard
Acid
Your
Voice
Venom
Leaving
My hope
Dreams bent
And uhm
Stunned
Numb
Any
Thing i think
I would like to do
Dumb
.....
Done
....
...
..
.
.
.
.
.
Delton Peele Feb 2023
Sad song looms....
Gray consumes blue hues..........
Horizontally I lean into....
A burgeoning
Bellicose  wind .

Lightning blooms strobe
Early nights sky........
Echoing visions
Diluted by time
Less frequent I see.
Causes  Increase in gravity.
Pressure builds ,
Disguising the difference between
Fate and destiny .
Unstable ......
A paradoxical paradigm
I find ......
In order to mend.
Fabricate an illusion
An era when things seemed right.
Which is difficult when you are un able to understand when you've been.
Carefully.  Easy...  Eaazzzyyyy,
Shhhh... Take off the training wheels ...
K.......
Ok.....
You got this....

Stabilize.......

Then.....
Flash .......
Fallen into the past again,
Lost in reminiscing
Inner child despondent,
I play ,stray ,medicate ,
Running from string tied to my heels...
From my mind's eye  
Depicting  interpretations
From days filled with unconditional love.    ......endless summers
Non SPF sunscreen
Fishing and wanderlust fun......
With one crucial expectation!
The one .........

pictures painted
By Elders,and mentors
Betrothed ...........
Bound by contract .......the future....

" me "
I still could be,
Fast forward.  
Lightning flashes
Illuminating my destiny
Crashing thunder......
Underlines my path to fate
Just under the horizon of my psyche
The crushing  
 echoing vision .......
I'm chasing this fantasy ......
Further and further .....
Into some sort of philanthropic
martyred schism ......
And I'm failing in....
Fail forced winds .....
Taking me
Leeward from where I've been.
I Return to comfort.......
Slither back into
My Machiavellian realm.........
Crochet blanket made of qiviut and porcupine quill
Luxurious........
If you stay still
A cold brume looms
Patiently waits before setting in.....
Always reminds me of that old saying .......
Into everyone's life some rain will fall........
Ionization ......
In the air I smell ,
Wells fill.......
Dollops of saline fall
Spattering..........
mimick
pattering of raindrops
rhythmically
 Shhhhhhhhhh!.......
Que the violins...........
Fade to black and white...........
down  
Downed,

Love lorn loon
(Ex-wife ,playing her part ..........
Hauntingly ....
Honestly I love her so desperately,
Makes it easy to play my part.  
Even though I know that her love is not real...........
My tears flow . ..........
Because I really don't know .....
If she knows.   ........and if so.      
Either way.    .....
Its killing me.     ........
Crazy thing ?...........?......
Shhhhh....!
((oh yah sorry let's return to the movie.))
Weary
calls for her drake.

I know  my lost love
My heart still yearns for you to....
I should have stayed and taken the pain
you had received before me.....
Which you refracted onto me......

If it helps .....
I'm alone and cold   ...
My life long song......
Has quietly
Been .....
Sung................
Each love taking it more out of ...
....tune.        
(Fade to dark grey..............make it grainy.              
Start the rain.      
Slowly ......
Darken till all you see is my lonely
Silhouette.. )          
..
FIN.
......
....
...
..
.
199 · Aug 2020
That is
Delton Peele Aug 2020
Rain
Pains
Cold chains around my neck Rob me
of my dignities
Im Rodney Dangerfield
not only can I Not
get any respect
I cant even get a ******* rain check
damage control in effect
im a wreck and can you hear me
I think Im major Tom
and here am
I floating in my tin can
rather be a
chim
pan
zee
Pursuing all my efforts
In vain
Ev  er   ree  thang I do
Is what I was tryin not to do
a when I'm almost finished
I need some time not doin
an I look behind
I see some fool undoin
all the knots
I used to keep it all together
now are loosening
and as im
drifting
at around 120
an Im
accelerating
an im
trying
to gain a
better view
a new
way
of seein
whats happening
an im
changing
my
way of
thinking
instead
of saying
we got kicked
to the curb
how bout we sayin
weve been
set free
put all that ****
youve learned
put it up
nicely
in the rear view
mirror
flip it the bird
whistle whistle
hieeyahhh
were so outa here
like
like last year
ladies start your
engines
hes off his leash
and running
on false pride
denial
not in his right mind
has no idea what hes dooin
lets see who
can ruin him
this time
wheres the nachos?
shhhhhh
quiet
the shows starting
annnnnnn
back to you
Delton
oh well thanks
for the intro
a-hole
dont mention
it
friend
it is what it is
without further adu .....
lets do this
lost and lonely
if only i knew
everyone could see right
through my disguise
the wells of my
eyes
swelling
Oh .....
Swell
Life goes wrong
im gonged of the
gong show
again
and
things are getting
a little
blurry
I can barely see my friends
They look like they are all  doin well
I'm just so happy
Secretly
My strife goes on
posture imperfect
feelin like a chump
walkin circles
slumped
lookin like a derelict
talk about a half wit
bop bop bop
shoowap
talk about
bop....op
shoowap
talk about him
shoobie doobie
doo wap
dip dip

******
ok ok
enough already
he gets it
dumb dumb
does
he ?
$#¤<CUT>¤#$
AAAAAAHHHH
spank you vury much
myyyyyyy dear
I.......llllll
take it from here
facing down
pacin

Digging for

change
And saying
I have paid this toll too many times
This time I want the lead roll
Knaw what I get
instead
excuses
an
Regret I said it
Cause  I got my agent bret  
feedin me a ballogna
samwich
Tryin to console me
Given me council and
acting all
condesending sayin that time takin it's toll on me
oh really
is that what you think
let...... me.... .....show.....
you.
something
I've kept well pretty well thinking
Eventually Ill have to  run a bit
ya know
ta catch up on
things
****
not right now
f
though
cause my curtains calling the sun's falling
And now I'm in the sand running into the wind
And  the waves are crushing
I'm trying to break free
I get drugged back to the next one
That's reality or
Am I just tripping
And im

sittin
at
Malibu sippin on ***
Surfen.....
an lookin at the world..
Smillin ........
Throw in up dueces
ahhhhhh YA
BABY
truth is
i wasnt meant for this town
this world was meant for me
And ya .............
No I'm drowning in urban turbidity
Mistaking my youth lacking maturity
Someone keeps slapping me I brush it off smilling cause
im
cocky
I'm still big
enough
bad boy tough en rough enough
more like
heeees a huff en puff
whos the one who gets blamed
when things get tough
always does everything
and its never
enough
No one wants to try me
I'm  laughing
Thats immature ity or of me
I'm not sure
Hmm
Let's see.
Actually while I sit here debating
The tides taking me
Washed up I'm told
Unstable.
Stupid fables
I'm still able
Try me
Sometimes lately I can't get a gig
Even when I say
Aye I 'll work for free
Pockets empty
But still Rollin
Never rolled on anybody
I just got rolled I'm empty it fucken hurt me
I'm out
I fold
Leaving the table owing
The sharks morphing into vultures
Circling the desert sky above me
Scolded
Bought sold
old
Was been
Fear I'm afraid has started setting in
No taste I'm jaded
Gave all my best years to Jezebell
Who barely remembers me
Dazed
Dismal
Dank rank overlooked
Forgotten
Booked
Broke
Rotten rope
Spent my last dime on a broken
Boat sank
Starving no appetite
Lost fight
Karmas's bite
Tunnel no light
Funnel
I
N
G
D
O
W
N
Clown
Frown
Unclean
uneven
grievin
even given everything
I'm not playin
No thats ok
You go on
It's alright
I'll stay
No no
Don't wait a whole minute for me
You're barley gonna be a  hour early
You're what's important
You don't need me
I'm fine  
Dont be absurd
I dont want to be  burden
Can't get a word in .........
Ever.......
Ever
Everrr
Everrrrrrrrrr
Evvvvverrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Interrupted oh thats ok I'll do me later what do you need
Interrupting oh every body is waiting on me
I'm sorry IV just been so busy doin all y'alls things
I was just tryin ta give ya snore time channel surfing on tv
I'll work harder forgive me
Hope this doesnt interfear with you big plans of sleep in all day
Don't worry I'll work quietly
Decaying wailing
Waiting for the Boatman
No recognition in the reflection
Within the last trinket of treasure
Comforting  tether from a more pleasurable past
Time lent isn't coming back spent on the wrong things
Finnaly I get the feeling I'm no longer falling.
It's a definite maybe it's dark
Atleast I can walk I think I'm alright I can start healing
Ya right the floor just dropped out on me
Last reflection I reckalect  I'll see
Deplorable out cast naked empty
Groveling,used to be somthing
Stagerrin around hands in my pockets looking down
Rummaging through my own trainwreck
Exacerbating
my dreams and retirement tossed
Into the muck out of a bucket of slop
And feel bad cause I waisted your time
Whining about being
That pearl in the swine snout
Delton Peele Aug 2021
Be one
Be two
Be three
There four
be five is betwixt
Before
And be six Which
of course is juxtapose to be seven
Everyone nose there's no
Be eight
Cause of be seven
And he regrets  this act
Cause it gave him a two more
Fortunately
It's be 9
194 · Aug 2023
Theinbetween
Delton Peele Aug 2023
Begin........
.. ....
Comprehend and then.....
Become the chameleon....
Blend ....
Trend...  
Bend ..  .
Mend ..
Transend.....in meditation.....
See the light.....
End
..........
Fin
194 · Jul 2021
O2
Delton Peele Jul 2021
O2
Oh way far away
Somewhere wherewith
My heart doeth pine
Along granite ladden beach line.
Unpleasantries decay.
Relaxed I lay
Melting
The fragrance of alpine
My mind unwinds
.....I'm free ......
And everything's sanguine.
Induced with crystalline clarity
I'm inclined to see
that which is wearing me
Somehow now petty
It's just silly
I let these things
Fret me so easily.
My chest doubles
In size
With ease I do breath.
Now I have to decide shall I stay
Or leave
Where the starsvshine
with pride..
I'm
Alive .
193 · Dec 2021
Ckd
Delton Peele Dec 2021
Ckd
I am afraid of
....
The future before me love
.........
Soon viewd from above.
193 · Nov 2023
Or
Delton Peele Nov 2023
Or
What I see as Rose Red what you see ,
Is what I call blue,
Either way since birth it's a fundamental point that can't be argued.....
So now consider how
"You get bent on what I do "
And see you are not the standard the world looks to.
192 · Sep 2021
Arrogancy
Delton Peele Sep 2021
Anonymous compliments
increases
Confidence which evidence suggests magnifies
Countenance
And this mixed with immaturity
Can lead to pseudo self reliances
Commonly Causing impedance
Within the learning process
And this is when the past is mingled with pride  
Leading naturally into arrogance...
This is when this magic immunity sets in and allowing this mixed  up false hope egotistical
Maniac a license to be
the boss with full stupidities.....
(Sorry that's suppose to read
Impunities...)!
191 · Dec 2023
Equanemy.
Delton Peele Dec 2023
My center  ..
My core ....
Under Lock and key anymore......
My heart ......
Upon it
The table...  
With Hammer I
Have chiseled its basic needs......
Not painful not pleasure full.....
Beautiful....
When I write my desires it bleeds ...

And it's ugly.....
191 · Jun 2023
Forget me knot
Delton Peele Jun 2023
Look me in three
Eyes
Have you ever seen this hue?
Some would say it's like a vast
Ocean of evening sky blue
Can you spell ....... Cast
Or define lure
See  my intentions
Are the words obscure ?
How about lines
Are they beginning to blur
Relax add an e and an m
Pretend to read them in twister
Swirl your stare
Bed of tiger lilies to lie on oh my
There's no place like you're imagination to roam
You're will is still sort of or
Well.........
Part of you're own
Mama dont take my codachrome
If you forget me you will turn to stone
Sorry I just cast a spell on you
Forget me knot ?forgive me not!
Never forget me because it's me
And its my heart you own!
186 · Mar 2021
Vast
Delton Peele Mar 2021
Difference between
We
Stand face to face
At 30 foot pace
Our shadows
Bump heads
what amazes me is how two people supposedly in love and in tune
can look back on something and have two completely different points of view
like the sun is always shining on you
hears tbe thing
its on your back
183 · Sep 2021
Glee or zero
Delton Peele Sep 2021
What is this control thing all about ?
Pout !
I can't stand bein told
" You're either in or out."
I do my own thing.
Love me hate me .....
Im me......
You go on and be what you think everyone wants you  to be.
Got that ?
Do that
And don't worry bout
What I do on my time
Cause we're only given so much.
Im  the first to arrive and the last to leave
When you are in need .
I'll give u every thing
But not my life .
Not sayin I won't die for you .
I'm saying I'm loyal
But my life is but once
And it's mine !
178 · Jul 2020
Dont read this forgetmeknot
Delton Peele Jul 2020
Look me in three
Eyes
Have you ever seen this hue?
Some would say it's like a vast
Ocean of evening sky blue
Can you spell ....... Cast
Or define lure
See  my intentions
Are the words obscure ?
How about lines
Are they beginning to blur
Relax add an e and an m
Pretend to read them in twister
Swirl your stare
Bed of tiger lilies to lie on oh my
There's no place like you're imagination to roam
You're will is still sort of or
Well.........
Part of you're own
Mama dont take my codachrome
If you forget me you will turn to stone
Sorry I just cast a spell on you
Forget me knot ?forgive me not!
Never forget me because it's me
And its my heart you own!
176 · Jan 2022
Experi metal 357
Delton Peele Jan 2022
Love I need!
I could not see;
Love I had
Didn't want ...
Me.....
Hostage negotiaton ....
Traded for the love that wanted me....
Still I couldnt see ........
Untill love wanted me ...... I had scorned love .......
Never satisfied ...
When the love
I wanted
..  .
Wanted me.....
I understood .....
All the more reasons that this love is the one for me ....
I just wish I wasn't so jaded scarred and ugly.......
Guess that's what she wants.    ....
My love loves me ....
I love her the best  I can ....
The gentle lover I was once before  ....
Lurking .. .
Brooding ...
Haunts me.....
Love?
174 · Mar 2022
Um I ......don......'t k
Delton Peele Mar 2022
I fell in  ...two
Not hurt just confused
C c  communique
Discontinued
Messages sent.......
Either refused ,blocked,
Or just never reached you.
Hope ......all..
is good
with.....you
My friend....
Message me if you dont get this.......
And message me if you do.....
K?
Er whatever.
Anyway..............
173 · Feb 2021
Youknow
Delton Peele Feb 2021
Instantly ..........
I became a fool
And I knew
A billion people
Now for me
There is only you
171 · Aug 2023
Within my mind ....
Delton Peele Aug 2023
Endless sea shimmering
In ....e v e r y
Gemstone tone.....
A lexicon of only beautiful words......
And the waves speak to me.  
In my mind .......
In my mind I drench you with
Scintillating poetry.      
I rehearse these ...
To say to you............
And when I see you
All you hear is a madmans soliloquy
166 · Jul 2021
Po et me brutè
Delton Peele Jul 2021
Poetry.....
Living.......sporadically
Through this dark crystal
Porthole. .....
Vicariously sharing my inner most ...
Fears and fantasies
Loquacious me .....
A flurry of non sequedors
Pieces of an unfinished puzzle
Wailing in the night ......
Cryptically ........
Secretly ........I vamp from you
.......what I need
Ps
I love You
164 · Aug 2021
Lil fear 🚩
Delton Peele Aug 2021
Hot august night
I stand alone
Basquing in soft moonlight
Upon a mountain high
Emerging from solid granite
That which is too often
taken for granted .... ..
Ice cold pure

Life giving elixir  
Undaunted little snow melt  stream trickles
Glistening ......

Into a deep pool
...and
in
Dropping
To one knee ....
I think of Guideons men  
Keeping my head up
As my hand dipped in
It was here I actually
Felt my heart stop ...
.      . .     .
I like to fancy my self a mountain
Man..
I'm not
But I'm also not a
CITIY-OT
(Thank you Terry and Twila)
An something for sure
More burdened by gravity
Than me
It
Was
Bi-pedal
Cobble sized stones
Underfoot like
***-gravel
.....
Unrecognizable
Low frequency grunting
20 SECOND STRIDES
MY EYES WENT BLACK
INVOLENTARILY
LIFE ENDING SCARRY
my heart stopped
Instantly
..
Squeezed my chest
To stop me from breathing.
At this level of fear
Every part of you  body
Becomes independently
Gob smucked
At you're stupidities
Ears ringing
Nostrils flared
Dizzy
listing ,
In disbelief completely at what I just heard
Not even a thought
Was brave enough to caught thinking a thought
Branches cracked
.. . ..
Three count them three full strides.
I still feel it ..
To speak of it ...
My skin bumps and tightens .
I actually feel my veins hurt.
Inside my elbows and wrists
That stinging feeling
You get
When someone pulls the hammer
And the barrel touches you're skin.
Fingers on the trigger
And there not stable
I don't care
How Billy bad *** you are
It burns
Like if it was capable
That part of you would abandon ship...
Believe me
4
miles up
jagged trails along cliffs
Un-lit.  
The only other way .  
......jump...  
Ten seconds gone by
Heart goes
Ka-thunk
I swear I could hear it
And the blood
Goes ka..wishhsss
And then stops
As
My whole
Body says
***
Are you serious
Now I am
Serious - lee.
Ish
Considering the jump thing
Ya know if I could maneuver
Like the parachuters.
And fly till I found a soft
Deep river .....an...
Maybe
...
Ridiculous
And then again
Ka thunk ..  
Kawishsss
Almost as if it were a swallow
Like ya know my heart
Is goin Gulp
*** are we gonna do
And stopped again
Now my skins crawling away cause I heard it breath .
Im
Not doin this
We
Meaning my body parts and I
Heard something
And as we were
**** clinched
Frozen like a statue of glass
Trying to digest this
And while listening
We succumb
To the paralyzing
Fact .
That.

It ...
Is
Also listening


My face 3 inches off the ground walkin on finger tips  
Like the grinch .all the way to my truck .
Like literally  my heart and guts an everything
Huddled together silently.
Shaking
Holdin each other peakin out my back like it was a tail gait.
Even the three or 15 times
I ran my face into a rock or tree
It was without sound
Not one milli second lost in righting my self and catching every rock stick whatever
Placing it quietly at the sound of speed.
Bleeding
...honestly ....
Every injury
Every one
I issued
I O U's
Un locking my truck took centuries.
Finally I yelp as I get in .
Thinkin I'm in the movies and
It's gonna get me..


Dead battery .
Day light emerging
I'm bright eyed
Bloodshot
Covered in sweat .
But bright eyed
Back  packer comes out of the bushes screaming
***.


PLEASE
TELL ME YOU GOT
SOMETHIN
TO. ...

DRINK !
?
I said ya
You ok
He says yah .

Wuuuul no
I m hella hung over and thirsty
I said you didn't hear anything?
He said .. .
WAdda ya mean..
No more smokin *** and camping
Alone
163 · Jul 2021
One chance
Delton Peele Jul 2021
Chubby little
Charlie horse cheek
Cambel soup kid
Porcelain blue eyed
Everything I heard saw or did
Expanded
Shooting stuffed animals with a bb gun in my room
Take off the training wheels
Always
Please
And thank you
....
Sonic boom
Im gone...
Life was something to be celebrated
never decelerated
Only power slid
All the fantasies I had bottled up
In side
Eyes vibrated
Broke my lid
Tried to contain me. .  
I couldn't stand it
Runnin wild

Sparkling
...
See
Me smiling
.....
See the stars
...
Oh

When I was child
Had dreams
Did more than I was told
Puberty came
Different game
But
My vigor didn't change
Strange
This old world
Tried to tame me
Slowly
Like the soft sand cuts
The riverbed
My yearning to be love
For me
Betrayed me
Enslaved me
Time after time
Had it's way with me
I think I'm still me
In the blink of an  eye
I went from
Pick and choose
Sky's the limit
To

Can I get
A minute
I ll be good
I even got my own leash
Look you don't even have
To hold on to it...
Ride or die?
Yuh
Trick er tried
Yuh
Chicken fried cake
Yuk
160 · Apr 2021
Im not hear for know reason
Delton Peele Apr 2021
graphic, wreck it maveric,
some things I write
you say ick
Whilst
others say quit it!
what I wright
lota  times aint right
**** it I live it
And to them
let me say
Im sorry ,
but
i cant appologise for it .
Im sure in youre own way you do the same thing.....

maybe

at least I hope so
I hope you fight
and bleed and
LIVE
I pray above everything that you stay that beautiful you



thank You for the read.
I appreciate it and I love you .
never let go.
a million poets
over a million years
could never
recreate
you
so
LIVE it like you stoled it
cause this is it
love,
like this is it 
you cainst do it different next time!
regret things you did instead of things you didnt
learn how
own-em 
with face up
write it down on paper
then crumple it
light it up
throw it hard into the face of fear
kick it in the nuts
call it for what it is  
it aint ****
give it one more good kick and laugh at it
ya I can get
****** explicit
So
dont listen  except to hear this


if I could only gift
you one thing



I will simply
have you accept this truth
that
this is all yours!
...
to do whatever you want!
all of it !
so go on  Gangsta
champion 
RISE!
LOVE!
BREATH!
EXPERIENCE !
LIVE SPIRIT!
never give up
never give in stand and fight
stay right
stay free
never hate
never capitulate
if you fret over yesterday
and worry what it will bring tomorrow
DONT
IT IS
A SIN
you burn that precious time on whats not real
leaving you
without recompensing anything back to God
Delton Peele Jun 2020
Drawn by the bliss
my eyes are still closed from the last kiss
You ........................leave me.................
( OK for dramatism I'm leaving this line blank .......
So pretend I didn't say " breathless")
Oh my love why does love hurt so bad
And though ours is always short lived
I.....m.....obsessed i can still taste you on my lips
Why does our love need to be like this
When it comes to you there can be no substitute
Like a mad dog i run
Im insatiable i know when you come around
I become unstable
and i run
And i watch the toilsome sun
And the lunatic moon
Doomed to chase her
Without shame
from noon to noon
Like a moth to the flame
Relentless i dare not say
What the moon does is insane.
Anybody who can see what i go through to be with you .
Would say we both act the same



Dawn as the mist and the darkness
Are slowly consumed
Oh my heart yearns as days get longer
The very heart of me feeds on the time we are apart
Even my love for waiting grows fonder
I fantasize

My desire gets  stronger
And i run
You are near
The season is here
my enchantress
I succumb to you
Impatiently im not waiting
The lazy hot sun slowly crawls over the rock to help me
Aqua blue sky and ohhhhhhh
My love you are always looming
Within my lunatic mind
And i run to the end of my chain
My neck snaps where the pavement ends
I know where you are
Eyes fixed i need you
Oh my love
These chains will never hold not now no No NO
Calm down get a grip try to be smart about this .
Then i thrash like a mako
Klank jerking klank yanking
Klink
Thats it
A week link
Nostrils flared eyes purple
Half naked chest full
A wink and a perverted smirk
And i run
In to the splendor
I see you my love.
Do you remember
How many times you cut me
The blood you have taken .
The pain you inflict
My dear i was a meer child when we met  the first cut waz so severe
Im inflicted infected from youre nectar im so sick without you
I dont want a cure ill never recover
Like an addict ill always be here for you........................
Oh my wild mountain blackberry
love could never convey the the emotion or the essence of way i feel about you .
What can i say .......i love wild mountain blackberries

the times i would  say to my emotional attachment
could we go pickin
THOSE DAYS ARE OVER
I WILL IF NEED  BE SLIDE INTO THE BUSH AND STAY AND EAT UNTIL YOU TAKE LEAVE MY SWEET
156 · Oct 2021
Would you believe me ?
Delton Peele Oct 2021
If I said I was a liar........
Inwardly your thinkin duh ...
Outwardly your eyes dart down
To the left bend the corners of your mouth into a over  exaggerated frown
Then open palms
Shrugging shoulders wagging
Gesturing a response which reads no!
You say "I don't know.. .."
I say ok .......?
I guess that make two of us?
156 · Jan 2021
Con fused
Delton Peele Jan 2021
The stench of sleeze and more than apathy......
A will to drag you through the mire
With full intent
To accommodate
Everyones view
A yellow brown slime covers
A hand full of
Tentacles.......
Persevered in
Perversity
Groping unwanted.......
Or
Open arms understanding
A unconditional love wishing to full fill youre dreams. ........
And takes off her ring
Rams it down my throat with a contemptuous
Fist ..........
Then the twist
When he dumps her and shes humiliated .....
She runs straight to me
Tells me all about it. I console she feels whole and shes off with a
Laugh ......
Its gettin old
155 · Mar 2022
In the u I lO zzz q ' er
Delton Peele Mar 2022
Why then .   .  .shall mine,
Heart inner walls and galleries.
Be not draped about
In such lush crushed velvet drapes and tapestries?
In plush deep daydreamy hues
Scarlet,crimson, or sanguineous ,
Which ever term
you use.
As long as it depicts the color of my muse ....
Intricate and brash
Yet refined raw and delicate

Variegated elegantly with
varied shades,
Each new love I invite in
Having artistic differences ,
As they often do
prefer Carte Blanche
To make love look
How they feel it.
For peradventure,
If I keep decor from an old love,,
Its the same as making them to blame for past pain.......
If your looking to loose
Thats the game for you..
I used to play it that way
Now I play the blues.
Over paid my dues.
Soul still bruised
Still feel the noose
And the short leash
Id run to the end
And thrash like,a spastic
They have all trained in
Emotional war tactics
Any attempt to fight back are in vain.
Their urbane
Splash stains of ratsbane,
Purple me ......
Then leave......
All vanity .
Ampersand,
Lies imbue questionnaires,
And rosy bruises replace
All this superfluous covering where love used to sojourn so beautifully.
Now the walls are a pale glossy sorta yellow .
even though the crimson flow of slow blood flow through it  .
Scars of  unwant
Disallow a chance to stain them..
Oh Love will thou come back to me again.... .
I adore thee ,
I am empty.
A fresh canvas I offer thee.
Yours wantingly
........Me.
Pain is the teacher  that seems to ingrain and influence
155 · May 12
Fitz
Delton Peele May 12
Love..........
Is.   Well
Like a fox glove....
In it's native territory
It grows in abundance
In full bloom tremendous.....
It's poisonous
And yet you can save lives with it.
155 · Nov 2023
Where you
Delton Peele Nov 2023
Where you are.....
Which way you go....
You think you can't,.......
Get here from there.
Yet you want to count on me to get to you from here
... ..
Since you won't try.
Then I cant say ill be there!
153 · Jan 2021
The last
Delton Peele Jan 2021
Forlorn .. Sad end....crestfallen
So ******* mad .....    
I should have called ..an um
I .......m so sorry
My gosh its been such a fun ride .... I wish Id stayed by your side ......
Like when. ......
I was a child
You always called me wort....
Or pumpkin ......
Or Ya Son.
Oh my God
I miss you ....
Ive never really ever felt this dumb.
My last true north...  
This will be the last season
Theres no reason to move forth
Please Dad ..........  
You have to hear me .....
You mean the world to me ...
You are a legend .
A stronger man
A ladies man
A charmer
Charlatan
Pain in the ***
More than anything
My last and best friend
And moreso thee
Best Father ......to me
I can never go fishing
Hiking
Rock hounding
.......
Anywhere or do anything
Or go on living
Without you......
Where did. .......the.........
What am I
*** happened .........
To me
Last thing i said to you
.....I Love you DAD..
Ill see you soon.

I cant thank you enough
I miss you so much....
Its odd.......
Its seems quieter. ...
All expectations
Fear and laughter gone
I dont want to move on
I just want to sit here and
Reminisce in silence
I dont want ta miss another memory ...........
Or......
Exist.......
The pain
Will
Dissapear.
151 · Mar 2022
A gem Das'
Delton Peele Mar 2022
Can I gaze into this cerebral soup,
return with evidence
Suggesting that I have had one second within a lifespan
In wich I could have been found
Void of an agenda.......
I believe this to be a quest
Of a life.... What's good to you
Subconsciously a mind will consume
Every scenario, from one ridiculous
End of the spectrum. To the other
Awake at rest a sleep or talking.
You don't even know that you know.
Find away to transform your muse
To create upon this marble an utopian
Dream ......
Let's all together till we can see
Let's dream and chase this
Together it happens .
Together it's impossible to find anything impossible.....
You will make history
Bend to your script ..
Let's make same team accent .
Lets do it
Let it begin
Now!
151 · Mar 2023
Listen
Delton Peele Mar 2023
Between wise men and tools.  
Only the fool knows who he is!
150 · Feb 2022
Eltbus
Delton Peele Feb 2022
Insufferable
Universal
Term
Used
To describe you.
Even so
I know
The girl that's
So scarred
And scared......
I hold the "real"you
At times your
Love is ambrosial....
To paint "that" you
The color
Is
ineffable....
My love
I will never try to
Conquer you

You

My equal
Are
Beautiful
And you
Will
Always
Find me  
Loyal
Someday
I pray
You.
My Queen
Will
See me .


The
Same
Way.

Till
Then
Love
You
Same team different game
150 · Aug 2021
Uhm
Delton Peele Aug 2021
Uhm
Thinking I'm stylish...
Meanwhile south park kyle like smile.
I'm in denial.......
148 · Dec 2021
My
Delton Peele Dec 2021
My
My......
Soul ......
Solo........
So Low....an.
You....
don't...
know..
HowfarDown
My dignity
Can go.......
Only I do ...
An I think it's bout at its end . . .....
E

N

D

PS:    LOVE ME
148 · Feb 4
Please
Delton Peele Feb 4
One more time
You already have the keys
Pluck my heart string please!
Saturated with color......
Eyes ocean blue. ......
Heart true........
Tears flow because
Because I know you're
Lonely too.      
Disconnected from everything
I'm ready now
I want to hear you sing
Mazzy star to me
I wanna fade into you....
Love me
The way I love you.....
I do.
146 · Aug 2022
My my my
Delton Peele Aug 2022
Looks like I've circled around
I recognize that slow bend
As I find a distraction to mend
Looks like I let my heart out
And it got stepped on again....
It's getting a little easier
For both
The longer the mend
The more the want
Delton Peele Jan 2021
Feeling the brunt of an
Elegant misery
Challenging me
Disgruntled
refuse to yield
Face bruised
I try to
lowbrow
This abutment as the current of this world ploughs steady
Un giving.
Slowly my bow tipping
Creaking and groaning the
Resonating from the keal up through the gally
feel the icy deep dark waters like a hungry lover begging, wanting
Me,
Eerily quietly
Teary eyed
Abducted
Subjected to
Neglect
Everything is caving in
..............
Its haunting....
Knowing its death.........
Still ........
Atleast something wants me
.......
..she is ....
Soporific  
I grow weary of waiting the pain and pressure is morphing
Subduction into
Seduction
...weary
Slipping
Sliding .
Sinking in still thinking .....
Love......
Willllll........
S
A
V
E.........
.........
..
ME....
..
S.
O
S.­
MAY DAY
143 · Sep 2020
Fkt its traditi9n
Delton Peele Sep 2020
Peculiar from an adolescent frame of view
As through puberty ,
Independence .......your new addiction
No time for silly superstitious rituals
Games from the elderly played by fools
They believe they're grooming me
Proudly , awe full in dignity
Passing the torch and gifting me sacred
Tools of the trade ,
........painful decision to be made
Addictions in jeopardy
Should you sell out your vision
Bow down in submission
Buy into someone elses dream
Living in such lavish fantasy as an avatar
For these same ones who are
Living life anew vicariously through you
............
Sorry ........
But ..................
I know to you my refusal to accept what's been planned for me
Will more than likely bring down great expectations
Ya'll had for me
I realise for generations this is how its done in our family
To me its fate sealed with misery and what if's
Kissed by i wished i would haves until im married to death
The fact that you who say you love me would allow me
To drown slowly in a sea of complacency .
That .......you will now know is not my destiny.
And as the tears dry .
The wound that never healed
Rotted into a scar that infected the heart
Neither taking responsibility
Chasing your dream now too busy
It would be too awkward to try
and the years pass by like two lovers scorned
Passing in the night
As death takes away the ones .
Who somehow became the things
You couldn't find time for anymore
Who were once everything
And now who's knocking on your door
Nostalgia and and all those silly little rituals
Once
Simply unacceptable
Your  drug has become an albatross
You have long ago used up your
Mental floss
You would do things anyway they wanted now
Just to see thier face ,hold thier hand, or to hear their voice,
Independent now without a choice
Soon your sons and daughters will make decisions for you
That is , if they are not too busy to
Staring out your window at the rain
Theres a reflection of someone you dont want to know
You find youreself yearning for your family
And all of its traditions unfortunately
You have started youre own.
...............
Peculiar ritualistic habits from an obscured origin
Are there for a reason
It is our way to stay tethered to the fact that we
Are all alone on a giant stone and together
We are all  solemnly walking to face the unknown
Foolishly wasting our youth
The truth is that while we are still here
Who should scoff at you for what you do
Will surely find the grave before you.
And you look down at your nose at the less fortunate
Homeless broken hearted who got broken before they even got started
Well now look whos cool
Shame on you
Most of you are just one tragedy away from joining thier ranks wandering , babbling in disbelief that this one miraculous chance to experience life
Shattered by **** theft or death or whatever the case may be
Left to the cold bitter banquet of life
Laughed at beaten abused accused of being nuisance
While we deal with our silly whimsical complaints
("*** i hate this heat ,and then tomorrow its supposed to rain
Oh thats just great
Did you hear were paying our new quarterback 250 million a year
Why dont they take that money and give some food to the homeless
I would but i just got this 152 plasma tv. ..........aye!!!!
Its a smart tv.   ..........huh?)
Sullen they can only wait for death
weep silently .........................
142 · Sep 2021
Lovetoo
Delton Peele Sep 2021
Love
Oh my God
you make me great!
Delton Peele Nov 2021
Lab coat ....
Bench tops....
Floor,cabinets,
Pretty much everything is all white....
Except me ......
Bunsen burners
beakers,
Test tubes
Full of emotions,
Boiling .
Vamping off clues......
Of what is it?
Which drives me to be so bendable.
The subject ......
Timid, me.....
Lab Rat.
Find me lost in a maze or running
On the wheel.
In the cage.




Not really too.....
Anything,but maybe away
From
Something



Chemistry.......
Charts and
graphs
Elementary ....
Wall coverings
Crows feet.......
Deepening
Control group
Doin they're thing......
OH!
Here we go.
Controlling.....
Keep going ....
Please......
Keep my head down ......
Keep going .....
Please ....
Don't see me...
Oh ****.....
Hey ........
Whatchadoin?

Waiting here for you to come by and ruin my day .....
Is what I wanted to say.....
But didn't......
Smoke......
somethings.....
Burning internally.
Feeling sorta
In different....
Like madness
Has separated
Me...
Id.......
Me ....
Mamamama
My persona.....

Steeped in a white hot Seether.....
Could neither
Diffuse nor compromise...
Trepidation.....
Not  for persona  sake....
Panic.......
For the opponents.....
Being forewarned....
Chose ignorance.....
Ignoring
The desperate
Overtly obvious
Warning
Signs.....
⚠️
At the apex of max capacity.
two choices.
Guilt could expand the space
Where swallowed pride sits...
at the price of homicide....
Although
Tempting ...
Instead.....
Devise a compromise ...
Inspired  by both sides
And this fault line
Left from
A life time trying to be kind....
Meanwhile
Transparent
Perpetrators
Beguiling
......
Smil­ing overpitty-ing,
Drawing the focus away
From themselves passing the shame  
Character bashing
My friendemies,
For exactly .....
Precisely the
same thing they are doing
Saying sternly
HEY  !!!!!!!!!!?
Don't you go & let them talk you into anything .
Look at me
You don't owe them a thing....
I mean it ....."
As I listen to these wealthy friends telling me they feel so bad for me ....
And there so sad cause they wish they could pay me
But right now
Can only give me a couple bucks .....but in two weeks come on back
& They'll settle up......
Then they don't...
Stoke the fire
Start woofin
The bellows
Flames darker ...and rising
This is it .....indecisive decisions on which side of the schism to give or not to give in .......
A raging torrent is oxidizing
Standing on the fence line
I'm the accelerant....
The sparks the flames the maddening magnesium
The wind uprooting trees and burning them
Woofin big time ******* in oxygen .....
Like a constant burst that don't end .
So brightening

Suns faded out ...
And now it's darkening
As my psyche
Deviding

Split ......
id good ....
Id bad .....
Strange !.?.!.....
Very .......
News to me...
There is someone around here.....
Apperantly ....that looks just like me ...
Cause that's not like ????
I need hard evidence and need to be convinced
Without which ....
Recollection.....
Won't set in .....
Bewildering ...
If and when ...
I remember the checanery and shenanigans
I have allegedly done...
There comes this this image ..
Me now ...
At a good distance behind
"The" age 7 me... .
secretly watching ....
In the back yard    
Of the home predating
That age.....
At dawn...
And the warmth of the sun in my face and the fog
Dissipating
"In front"  me
Above the sunken marsh in view of the slough
And secretive
Personal trail
no one but me knew through
Those cattails
I loved so much....and my favorite carrion the red winged blackbird singing .....
Not a thought or care in the world
Taking a good healthy breath.
The overwhelming
Sensation of a satisfying grin begining to unfurl
Turning into a gratifying smile.
Growing .... I fallthought compromise  meant maturity and letting others feel  valid while remaining the bigger man .
I .
I m not convinced ...
  
So I do worry
139 · Apr 26
She answered
Delton Peele Apr 26
Too fast .....



.........
????????????




Now I'm thinking.....
.......
....
.  
Is it ......
Or is it  knot .....
A good thing
Ptsd induced
Relationship deficit .....
Is this a noose ...,
Or a leash .....
That I'm putting around my neck..?

Is this new found wisdom,
Clairvoyance,
Or paranoia.......
........
Oh ya she got me good ....

Maybe

delirium
139 · Jun 30
I2u
Delton Peele Jun 30
I2u
Should I lie in lasciviousness
All alone and lonely
Psyche's split I sit...
Stoic  catatonic contemplating
I know I can't control me
Consoling me only feels
Like condescension
An offence cajoling apprehension...
Exacerbating    ...
The fact that the act of stating
"Can you just  listen  without psychoanalytic interjection
I'm just venting hear me then let me be !"
In my attempt to negate a pitty party
Is met like a request for intervention.......
Maddening .....
Gaslighting making me repeat things ....
Not listening...
I'm being an idiot
I already know these things
And don't give me that fat bottom lipped ,"oh I feel your pain....
You need a hug....."
Eyebrows thing....
Course I want a hug
*******
FYI not gonna lie
I know it may seem like I'm chasing a pipe dream....
But I never..........
Have been afflicted with such an addiction to someone like this before
I mean ....  
I'm complete with her
And she compliments everything.
When I'm not with her
I'm dying.
Tryin to invent new ways to help her fall in love with me ....
I know it's killing me..
Don't worry ..
At my funeral you can say
" I told you so...."
I still won't be listening
I'll be busy coming back to life to be with her again
137 · Mar 2022
A qua me
Delton Peele Mar 2022
Aqua-marine tourmaline
Turning emerald green evening
Wrist slash ruby red splash feeling
Crystal clear diamond tears glisten bright glimmering.
Flowing from pressure below
Building
Swelling
Wells at the brink
Frigidity super imposed icy wind
Surely shatter
Tungsten carbide lined chest cavity
infrastructure
Freezing
Excruciating
Concentrating all the pain
Radiating from the throat
Swallowing sand covered brick
Abrading slowly
So slowly
At the apex of max capacity
Emotional collapse imminent
Listen ..............millions of
Champagne glasses
Tink ting tingling exhaling
Tears release
Falling like hail at first
Then into a crescendo
Loosing my grip ......I'm slippin
Broken I'm letting go ......
Break down I'm falling winds whistling I can see rock bottom
Phone rings ........ .  .......
It's my ***** .......
He say
..
Bro bro.......
Aint nothin but a thing!
But go ahead and cry if you have to...
It's cool ,ain't no shame .....
(Big baby)
Stf up.
(Whaaa?  
Just saying)
I'm just messin with ya .
My friend is here to console me
Its gonna be
Ayite.
Theres nothing like a tight lipped friend you can depend on when you think you've reached the end .
You gotta want to be that friend as bad as you need a friend like that .
Detox can be hell untill your well
I'm here forever Damian my friend.
I got you.
137 · Oct 2021
Olusion
Delton Peele Oct 2021
A Colluded illusion
Ilicitng indecisive decisions
Which side of the schism
Is your tomb in....?
Skrrrt!
Would it behoove you to know
It doesn't really matter?
Should we unify begin to solidify?
Love would mend and strengthin.
Ya that's gonna happen ......
See how sarcastic
Splatter the screen with blood
C'mon traumatize me.....
Let me hear the catastrophic
Story ... ..
No not that one
No I'm craving something to enrage me .......
****** mayhem religion ,racism
Not the money *** and drugs
Let's glorify that on the silver screen
That way the kids can see who we want them to be
We'll watch it with em
Maybe even vicariously...
Isn't it hilarious  
How we show them how to be so cool.
Then say
HEY *** .......?
why you acting this way
Don't be what we say
We don't portray?
Plus I'm doing everything I can to raise you......
Rieeeet?
So I'ma take it easy
But you better turn out better than me
Even though you think you have the right to run your neck and disrespect me...don't think
That alone makes you a better person than me ......
See what I mean .
Anybody can say that everything seems to be against me......
I'm live in a state of static
Lcd  stereophonic 10000 watt.
Amp 20 inch woofs
24 inch blades
12 gauge
***** my ears fill me with worry hate fear........
Put me in the cage keep me chained
Don't let me loose keep me tuned in......
The venom is ready
The needles pop then slide in
One for each eye and one for each ear
To controll what we hear
And manipulate our vision.
Augment reality
They watch us continually

we react
they keep pushing it in
The  spastic chatter
Spit by mad hatters and creating haters and division the say they're doin everything they can to protect us .........
***......from who?
Us or you .....



Its just another plastic prescription from spin doctors
Keeping us posted...........up
"This just in"
We interrupt this movement
With another social injustice
Because honestly when the
People get quiet
We get nervous
Better shake em up
So the dont wake up.

Can this really be a conscious
collective conspiracy


Flooding my psyche with ideas that I'll never be free
This is not the beginning....
Understand me. ..
Your in the middle
Is it where your comfortable?
Is that where you wanna be?
Is it where we should be?
This is also not the end
Where should we go?
134 · Jan 2021
Ease
Delton Peele Jan 2021
Play lite
Stay light
Dont ever
Want to see you leave me
I see a silhouette of what i need
To procure
In order to appease .....
You .......at least that is what i know......
Or think i know
My dreams of making every one happy and loving
Are right in front of me and each one all easy
Falling quietly like snow.......
strikingly
Landing in my crimson blood below.. Evanescent.
Melting
Still in love i never cease trying to catch one
132 · Sep 2021
Thin
Delton Peele Sep 2021
The only evidence known to exist
Is locked in the midst of my psyche............
And f.y.i.......
I'm in culpable remiss on this
And anyway it's strictly here say
At least that's what I'm told .
But don't quote me on that!
K ?
So you want to ask me another question?
Wait !
can you ask me a question without asking me a question?
128 · May 2021
a Peele
Delton Peele May 2021
out there as the frost melts off starry eyed  Lad 13

***** cheeks
bulgin at the seams pushin boundries cussin ,
chewin, perusing every female from His age up to 50 fightin everone .
every thing  
honery
mad at the world
voice changing immature
growin like a ****
B.M.O.C.
raw strength and so fill of pride he cant hide it
Un concerned Dads watchin Him
sorta metaphorically  
only he can see when its time to step in
cause hes walked a mile or two 2 in his shoes
puberty pimples and rage has set in
hes gotta give him room to bleed
he listens to his boy as if hes a childhood friend
lets him have full cart blanc in gesture and speach
makes him
feel like hes in
his click  
young and tuff!
makes the boy
feel at ease , old  -  er
and tuff
at this point on this crisp spring day
both smillin
ahhh those Irish eyes
closer than they've ever been
emotionally pretty close to the same age
suns beatin down hot  shirts off  
Dads playin hookey
met the boy at school with beef jerky
quarter ounce of ***
and a half rack of ice cold 18 ounce Raineers
and there off up on the mountain somewhere smokin a joint laughin sweatin
catchin brookies up by top of the world !
as it was later known to be
but at this point it was known as the ****** ponds up the road from the Rossinger store
and although
we had been there and many times since  
some how I knew and I think he did too
we both lavished and whole heartedly  savored every minute of those days
I was thinkin I Was a Man
He was feelin like a Kid
we flipped the bird to the world and nothin could touch that
He was the toughest *******
and the coolest

He got a little long in the tooth but never lost his edge
a full fledged Mosquito
it saddens me that  there arent many around that knows what that means
my Father
told his companion
not to say a thing ..    
to me

. of

.. his ...  

cancer

didnt want me to suffer
  
****** Cancer

He died not wanting to burden me  
a week before Christmas this year . Im numb

it hurts so bad
i wanna packit up take out a few enemies and fade and be done

then  I feel the sun

oh I can smell the beer
see his loving eyes and here  him say Awe
I love you Son.
and then I look at my Son .
I still have time to run with him awhile and try to build with him some memories

I will always love you Dad
not a minute goes by. I miss you
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