What be made from flesh and bone?
Fallen ray like mindless drone.
Where body of built, be turned to rot,
By silent men of puppeteer's plot.
When to act and never from string?
To rise, and smell, the fragrance of spring.
How such life be was, to a stagnant of tale?
Blinded and used, manipulated and pale.

Don't you harden your heart,
don't you walk away,
Don't you hide from the sins you made,
Cause we're here too help you change

Don't you act like your strong,
Don't you act like you care nothing at all,
We are here to hold onto you,
so don't you dare let go

Cause when the storm rages and you lose all control,
We are here if you need a home
so take my hand it won't be too long

I'm scared of my demons.
To me they are heathens,
I feel them breathing,
Their cold hearts beating,
The horrible screeching,
Is nothing but my dreaming,

Yet they are fallen angels,
They fell from heavens grace,
We are no different from them,
They too have a story to tell.

oh sweet blossoming rose
innocent and blooming beauty
i sing to you verses of sweet nothings
for somehow you enchanted me

lure me to your temptation
only to be plucked away
and thrown aside to wither
like some blade of grass

I look down
There they are
The dying of the town
The wounds that have left a scar

As I walk past
The dying moan
They long for their time to have passed
For them to have flown

I walk through the injured
One man grabs my leg
Here in the dead of winter
I shiver

He is only a boy
Whom body has been blown
He is a broken toy
Left to moan

I crouch down
His eyes are glazed
The dying of this town
Will never be praised

"Mum."
Is what they say
Crying out for there families
In this day so grey

"I am here."
He is too badly damaged
The boys whom I used to endear
Boys once so fragile

They are toys of war
Crying out for there mothers
They are on deaths door
Looking for their mothers

Tears leak from my eyes
As I look upon his passing
The strength gone from his eyes
In every passing

Standing up
The boy is dead
His last words a mumble
For his mother he pled

I want to flee
But if life was so nice only
As the sun sets among the trees
I realize that Reality Is so Lonely

in the sweetness of the morning air
and the light that touches the garden
i look at you as your calm smile
says all the words that need to be said

corruption is an old song we've been singing in harmony
a cancer that grows steadily for the last couple of century
politicians play around making a foolery of democracy  
every proclamation and deliberation left a print of legacy  
to which our people live in division and poverty
amendments and changes are need to solve this hypocrisy
the young sacrifice themselves for liberty and equality
lets not fallout of virtue and devoid ourselves of honesty
When we challenge those who abuse their duties and authority

War does not determine who is right... only who is left

War is a deep whole of despair
Trying to find the answer
Of what's right and wrong
But when nothing is right
Then what is left.

Where should I go
To the right where nothing is left
To the left where nothing is right
Up where everything Is down
Or down where everything is up

If there is nothing left to the right
Then it would be pointless going there
Go left, fight to make things right

To the middle,
To save what is left
And to judge what is right

If the reason why I fight is behind me, I go forward to protect it

If the reason why I fight is in front of me,
I rush forward to save it

Walk backwards so you can see
What we have loved won and lost

Forward into the horizon
Where there is still hope of a better future

Close your eyes. Embrace that moment,
And dissolve into everything at once.
Be in all directions at once

Become part of all that is up down left right.
Around front behind above and below
Flow in and out and through it all
Only then can we find peace

But we are all just stuck in one circle
So choose whether to go to any direction
If it’s up or down left or right
It doesn't even matter does it?

In the end were just going the same way... Don't we?
In a mad world with endless and pointless roads ahead

empty canvas that's all there is
none to write to paint or give
to a world that often looks
too far to see what beauty is
and what lies within

what I see are amber hue
waltzing in a violet haze
swirling and falling brightly
with petals of golden glaze
yet you don't see what I view

in the vastness of the dark abyss
to which it is not the appearance hostility
that gives us the tense uneasiness
but the indifference it shows to us
as we solider on to its unknown abysmal lair

summer heat and fresh breeze
that comes once again to greet
wishing for the days of autumn leaves
where golden brown trinkets that slowly fall
as each leaf dies as autumn calls
it blooms once more like spring enthralls

underneath the pale moonlight
i can't help myself to stare than fall asleep
watching the stars twinkle so bright
where constellation play around in cosmic paradise

oh sweet midsummer dream
drifts in a cool evening breeze
my soul barely even sober
you kiss me awake only to tease

Days has never felt so long
I smile alone like nothing's wrong
Yet I wish you didn't wanna stay
cause all you do is look the other way

smelling the scent of your perfume
I could stare at you all day and afternoon
but all you did was look the other way
you make me feel so helpless that I stay

instead of glass shards in my head it feels like powerful aching in my heart.
my only problem is that I can't do it myself, I lack the guts and the selfishness.
it pains me everyday to wake and walk but as well as painful to tear you apart.

What you hear
That which you see
They are different out here
Far beyond the sea...

We know the same
Our thoughts are contradicting
Who can we blame?
Why are we arguing?

Is this just?
How can you say?
How do you know?
Where the truth's hidden away?

What you know
What you see
It goes to show
An illusion to be

Now we can say
We can agree
That what is truth one way
Can be lies to thee.

how can you give such a sweet smile
with such sorrowful and tired eyes
how do you walk in a cheery style
while hiding the truth among lies

Never let me go,
We'll soar to new heights.
Because your love keeps me on the ground,
Yet flying with the kites.

Mornings come, and mornings go.
But they'll never be the same.
Because I've won you in life,
When life becomes a game.

So whatever your love does to me,
My heart, I'll always let you borrow.
Because you belong to me,
Even if you left me in sorrow.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
And every second I waste is more than I can take!

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

You were never really mine yet
I wished and hope you were
I cared so much to pretend
That we were more than just this

I played along with this thought
That it coiled my mind and into madness
Thinking that I had a chance
To hold you more than anyone can

That you felt the same as I did
And I often forget as always
That we will just be this
And nothing more, nothing after

Fresh scent of pure air
sweet spring wind swirl
as to you my lady fair
natures spirits bloom unfurl

Those leaves did grow
From branches overgrown
Drifting slowly down
Resting in the snow.

Like empty, fallen souls
Looking for a home.
Little soldier boy
Thought that he could soar.

Only to sadly fall
Such as ash in the snow
From warm flames to fragile, broken hearts
Now cold and all alone
With no place to go.

Let's dance the night away.
Forget our troubles.
Forget those around us for few seconds.
Hold my hand don't be afraid.
I will lead and guide. Don't be shy.
You're all I ever dreamed of and ever wanted.
Let's let this moment Last for ever.
Just say you'll be mine...
and I'll be yours

has this love we had run out and die
will you remember the love we used to call
is our life just one more bittersweet lie
will you shed a tear as we watch it all fall
as the days we shared now gone by

as I look into the future
with hope and anxiety
I still see noble deeds
from past until now
and to the coming times
I give into that darkness

I was taught to obey
The god I am to worship
To the tones of the hymn I sway
To spread lies on my kinship

I devoted my life
And became His messenger
Cared little of the strife
Of families and their avengers

Women and children died
To spread a religion
Their bodies beaten and tied
To beat them into a descision

I was His
As was everything
In this world I used to remiss
Quite a merry thing

I should be an example
Of ideas and beliefs
They should not trample
I should help in times of grief

Yet I cause them
As they spread far and wide
Infidels we called them
Because they ran away to hide

Yet He always beckons
And I come to his aid
I have killed thousand; I reckon
To their graves they were laid

I feel as if I must break free
Before the final nail on my coffin
To run away and flee
Before I corrupt more of my offspring

A heart of trust
Comes with faith in one
For breaking one's trust
Comes with harsh consequences

A heart of harmony
With balance within me
Like the trees in the forest
And the singing birds outside

A heart of peace
With nothing to worry
But can peace exist in this world
In today's perilous terms

A heart of loyalty
Never leaving one's side
Staying true no matter what
Even on the verge of quitting

A heart of love
To care for each other
With a heart so pure
With no trace of hate.

To you beautiful stranger
Captivating yet lonely
I wonder what they say about you
Would you mind if I sit
At the back of my mind I picture us
Me and you
Sharing the same cup of coffee
But would you really do
I am what they label an alien
Not the kind of weirdness they make movies about
Not the kind of alienated they would write songs about
I'm just an illusion that drifts by
A welcoming scent
A crooked smile
Awkward baby steps
So would you mind
If you got the time and enjoy
The little things for awhile

I've watch her in this pedestal stand,
And touching her has bless my hand,
Did my heart loved with bliss till now?

I swear to heaven for with my sight,
I had never known beauty till tonight,
Temptations of the flesh, a blessed sin.

Ecstasy upon such dreams I've dreamt,
Oh fruit of Eden such luring sweet scent,
How you wisp my words away...

Such youthful beauty that lies awake
In smiles that hide such a frail pale heart
Grows a shadow around a glowing radiant face
Weary gentle golden eyes knows no escape

Many questions have been eagerly ask
Yet answers come so slow to even pass
Misty country fields and wondrous night sky
As crackling ember ashes scattering light

Oh my tender kind simple fellows
Such hearts are glaze and mellow
Moonbeams rays touches the darken house
Serene and silent as a church mouse

Painted portraits with palettes of black and blue
Starry is the nights that only few have viewed
To stay awake with life so endlessly grey
Knowing well the world is a chaotic fray

Dreamers tear their mournful souls away
Lover’s passions fades like summers day
Swirling winds flow through the grassy plains
Twinkling stars that kisses my sorrowful pain

If people were rain,
I was drizzle
and she was the storm,
the calm before the hurricane.

the morning air that breathes of life
the warm rays that break the mist of night
the smell of coffee mixing in its vibrant rousing aroma
makes it a perfect day to rise

forget me for i am not that of gold
forget the words and verses i once told
forget the flowers i had tended to
let it be forgotten as ashes blew
i shall fade like a flame to the air
forget the memories we  used to share
leave me nameless and forgotten
I am another stranger in the autumn
i was but a shadow in your dream
if you ask i am a ghost by the stream
i shall not be missed shed no tear
yearning melodies whispers of yesteryear

i try my best to just forget
i try to get over and move on
i worked hard to get a good life
i finally have a good home

yet every night i hear it knock
in the silence i can hear the bombs
i see flashes and smoke in the dark
it feels as if i'm back from that terrible start

though try as i might to dream
but no man is truly born to be free
i try so hard to make sense of it all
i am but a prisoner with no walls

i just wish it never happened
i wish it would just stay buried
i pray that i won't be sober to know
the things i did and the things i saw

forever bonded by its chains
that drives any man insane
to the core of its soul shattered
full of horrid trauma and scars

no matter what you try to do
accepting it or forgetting it
you can try to let go of the past
yet the past will never let go of you

Don't you harden your heart,
don't you walk away,
Don't you hide from the sins you made,
Cause we're here too help you change

Don't you act like your strong,
Don't you act like you care nothing at all,
We are here to hold onto you,
so don't you dare let go

Cause when the storm rages and you lose all control,
We are here if you need a home
so take my hand it won't be too long

The thoughts are prodding within my mind
Constantly attacking.
Desiring.
Wishing.
I try not to think about it,
But my mind just can't get enough of it
My mind always seems to wonder towards the same thing...
Over and over again, a cycle of endless thoughts.
Feeling the feelings welling up
Knowing that i am unable to escape

Obsession.
It feels as though i am obsessed with it.
My fingers tingle, almost begging for more
Like a drug, i take my thoughts
And i allow them to overtake me
For a moment, it can almost be euphoria
Filled with regret and pain, but also happiness and buzzing

Trying to stop these thoughts
Trying to stop them from entering my head
Trying to let go of that obsession

Can one be obsessed with multiple things at once?
With multiple thoughts and feelings, unable to let go
To quit them like cold turkey.

Money does not bound me to quit
Its all in my head...
Its not an addiction like the drugs you buy
I don't go to someone else to strive for it
To bargain and beg for more
It feels different than that

The feelings can be so overwhelming
Only knowing those feelings in that moment
Wanting it back, even listening
Because for a moment...
The mind didn't drift.
It only wanted its obsession
It was completely focused on that obsession

I could be obsessed with sadness
Feeling the water drifting down my face
Thinking of the things happening in my life
Addicted to the sting of pain it gives me
Addicted to almost wanting to be alone
Addicted to the way the muscles on my face moving down, the smile almost hurting my face

I could be obsessed with joy
Feeling the laughter erupting from my mouth
Making hard to breath, an almost sweet pain coming over my chest
My heart rushing
My head numb from no air
And then able to calm down,
Obsessed with the feeling that happened in a moment
When nothing was in my mind but that joy

I could be obsessed with anger
Feeling the warm, boiling feeling overcome me
Allowing it to burst out
Raising my voice so that i know others can hear me
The look on their faces when i know they are listening
Because it seems like no one is listening unless i raise my voice and let it all out
It can be addicting, allowing that feeling to overtake you

It might be easier if i was obsessed with an object...
Then maybe then...
I could let it drop.
Let go of my obsession.
Allowing it to break into a million pieces.
Feeling all the negative feelings at once, causing me to fall onto the ground, my mind regretting it
My mind wanting it back so bad my heart aches
And then relieve can come over me
Maybe it will take a long time for relieve to come,
Or I would become 'Obsessed' with that feeling

Is it possible to be obsessed with a person?
Or perhaps i am obsessed with the feelings that come with them?
Feeling the tingling and the warmth when they are nearby
Feeling my breath hitch when i hear their voice
Addicted to those feelings
That desire can overtake someone so easily
The desire to be around that person
Obsessed with their everything
It can be as quick as the snapping of the fingers
Addiction to the obsession inevitable
One moment you are normal and like them...
And the next moment, obsession can overtake you

Obsession can almost be a breaking point
Our minds are constantly buzzing
Absorbing new information
But we can come to that point...
When our minds 'break' and we become addicted
When we become obsessed,
And desire nothing else but that feeling that we are obsessed with

You're my special flame
Yet this fire's gone cold
I lost the sense to this game
our past are stories we told
now ashes to the unknown

if i could hold and kiss you
even just once more in the night
before the light takes you away
from my dreams and from this life

There were bells on a hill
But I never heard them ringing
No I never heard them at all
Till I felt my heart as I saw you there

if all souls are beautiful and warm
why does mine feel a coldness
to which cracks and shards
rip my being in painful forms

i fade like my name
in the eons of time
i am but dust to life
though i have lived
i know i am forgotten
by those who love me not

i have nothing to write
for i have nothing to say
yet i stay awake in the night
for my mind is cluttered
with unclear verses anyway

He stood eyes transfixed upon the hill,
The world below gave him no mind
As he smiled his last and let his heart melt,
The shadows engulfed his weeping eyes.

The flap of a birds’ wing echoed
In the valley below
Then went silent as the sun
Bid the world good night.

He had once stood there with a smile,
His name was hero but now in death
He’s unremembered, all denied
And the snow flakes that fall
Mark his grave alone.

He who once had a name,
Now his tombstone unknown.

I hope this feelings never fades
I pray even as the seasons change
and our lives move pass from today
will we still be together as we age

I see gentle waters and silence
more dangerous than those disturb
it is often the quiet that brings out the terror
the anxiety that drowns as in anticipation
of our own despair and unknowing sorrows
even if I drift and float by the safe shores
Its wave will carry me away to the depths
even if I struggle I will eventually sink

artist are tortured souls
manic emotions left to ink and paint
transforming pain of their mundane tormented life
into ecstatic beauty expressed so vividly
that leaves us all in speechless and awe

what do we have left for ourselves
but to do good upon others and to ourselves
and to strive to be better
even if we must suffer
in silence and solitude
must we hurt ourselves further
must we torture ourselves and be disgusted
upon a cycle of toxicity we present ourselves with

Tired and weary this sentinel be
yet defiant he stands with arms drawn
unwavering spirit that hold him still
as the blood the drips and boils

it shall not be the end till he folds
the beats of his heart resound loud
as the thunder of the hallow skies
noble be his duty till the final relief

striving till the final strength fades
death may come and steal him now
yet never his glory neither his honor
as he who hold the helm against the odds

he has sowed his seed to this free land
to which he toiled its grand fertile soil
that no tyrant invader may trample
where no importer may reap its wealth

vanguards of the deep and high
your name shall echo clear
your acts shall ring out to history
legacy eternal forever shall be told

leave not a rose in my grave
need not sing my praise and memory
tributes mean nothing to the dead
so save your tears for i am gone
for time has devoured me