I never knew what it was like to have a brother
Until I meet my best friend
He likes to say he's my brother from another mother
And he practically is
We talk to each other about everything
But we don't judge each other
We have a bond like the brothers and sisters do in movies
Except ours is stronger
We've been through thick and thin
And when were together its like he's the sun and I’m the moon
We work together to get things done
He's the person I'd call to help me hide a body
He's my person

To the girl I think likes me
Why do you have to be so cute
From your cute little nose
To when your on your tippy toes
The way you call me out of nowhere to ask me whats a good movie to watch when your with your friends
To the way you tried to ask me on a date to which i said yes
It makes me feel important
But now I'm starting to worry because I'm beginning to think you forgot that we never set the date so we could go on our date
But maybe it's just my anxiety getting to me
I wonder if you think something happened to me since my phone broke
And the good morning and good night text I'd send you stopped
But don't worry as soon as I get a new phone I'll send you a message first
Because I don't want you to worry
So just keep smiling and don't worry
'Cause I'm going to find a way

I have a very christan friend who I've  known for 3 years now
and I have yet to tell him I like girls and boys
because he likes me but ive finally decided to tell him as soon as possible
but if he tries to freaking preach to me about how its wrong
I'm going to block him
there will be no second chance
he's just going to have to **** it up and deal with it
because he has no say i am me and i'm not going to hide anymore
boo-hoo i'm going to hell- i already know that
I've spent 4 years fighting my mom about me liking girl and she doesn't care now
so yeah i'm not going to hide
and no i won't feel bad if i have to block him
because I've put up with him for 3 years now and he's an *** so who cares

the words i love you are three words I can't bear to hear
for when someone says them they mean goodbye
because when someone says i love you
they begin to push me away
except my best friend because he knows I'm not easy to get rid of
I'm one of those people who are really shy and seem super nice
but there actually really weird and are very scary
I'm one of the people who would actually stab you if you take my food
but the second I hear the words i love you
I get worried because it means something is wrong
so instead of saying it i tap people three times
or type dot dot dot because I don't like that word
and I feel bad for these little love sick people i know
and no it's not that I'm scared of love
it's just I've seen what love can do to people

It’s time i let go
Of this silly fantasy
The one we created
So we’d be there for each other

We both know that we can’t keep this promise
So I’ll play the bad guy and call it off
So no one gets hurt

I’ve changed the plans
I’m turning the tables
So go after your dream
Even if it seems like a fable

Don’t worry we’ll still be friends
Were just going after different things
I’ll go to asia
And you’ll be in the states

I’ll be 14 hours ahead
7,498 miles away
I plan on working a few part time jobs
And you’ll be oh so busy

I’d rather end this now
Then it blow up in our faces later
I’d rather you be angry at me now
Then wonder what you did wrong later
Because it's not you who did anything
Its me who did
I shouldn’t have encouraged the impossible
Yes we’re young and naive
But we should think more thoroughly
About things that will affect us later in life

so its time to say goodbye