I will leave now
Quietly
Without fuss
But I want you to know
I am leaving
Just for us

Let me lie in between us
so I don’t have to
become one of
us

the power of us
the joy of us
the precious of us
the pure good of us
the easy of us
the lovely of us
the worth of us
the best of us
has somehow
become lesser
tangled
confused
and lost
somewhere deep in
the complicated and confused effort of
trying to be
just the two of us .


but still
I’m going nowhere
pour me another song
and I’ll sing you another heartache!

if it all fell apart tomorrow
and why wouldn’t it
I would still applaud  the
fact
that we tried

Everything faded
info shades of blue and grey
like the song
somehow we went wrong
everything faded
we forgot
the people who had
made us.
us

I used to be
your favourite drunk
What happened?

talk me gently
into tomorrow
make today
a vague memory

Your eyes suggest
a place we shouldn’t go
your winning streak
ended
at my feet.

I love everything about this
the opulence
is impressive
I love the deep lavish crimson
privilege
that surrounds us
if we fall
it will be on lush purple velvet
at least
that’s what we have been
led
to believe

Your voice
I don’t hear
Your breath
is not clear
Your love
no longer dear

There’s a voice
deep inside all of us
we can’t name it
although we blame it
for telling us
our everyday
truth

Buyer Beware
Is void
When you buy
In a sale

Why?

don’t wake me up
unless
you have something
new
to say

Do not drip feed  me
your love
I am not an infant
I can walk.

google
something interesting to say
or
here’s an idea
just walk
the **** away!

You walk away so
easily
makes me wonder why
you don’t just keep on
walking

I can stand up
But I will never stand tall
I can speak out
But I will never reach all
I can stack bricks
But it will never be a wall
That we can stand against
so nothing matters
At all

I caught your tear
mid fall
before it exploded
and soaked
our fortified wall .

I will pick up the pieces
sweep the pain away
decorate the hall
just as it was before
wallpaper over the feelings
clean the horror from the ceiling
but I can’t promise
there will be
a speedy
healing

I don’t know how to say the words
I want to say
so I offer you
these three million
that I should never say

You want to be stronger than me
you are
You want to be higher than me
you are
You want to be better than me
you are
You want to be taller than me
you are
You want to be richer than me
you are
You want to be smarter than me
you are
You want to be fancier than me
you are
You want to be more wanted than me
you are
You want to be heard more than me
you are
You want to be more revered than me
you are
You want to be funnier than me
Oooops
You are not !

all I want
is to find you
to know you
to be you
to understand you
to hear you
to have space for you
all I want
is for you
to understand me
to find me
to hear me
to know me
have space for me
all I want
is to know you
and for you
to know me too
and then
I think
we would never wage war.

The world is at war
With children
They are small
We are big
They are weak
We are strong
We will most likely
Win
Which one of us will lead
In triumphant song?

It doesn’t take a lot
just a universal will
that we will not allow
history
to repeat
itself
at least
not
on our watch
not a one amongst us wants
war
why has one man
got so much
power

We are
an
unvarnished
masterpiece
We are
an untuned
piano
We are
an unfinished
script
We are
an abandoned
novel
We are
an unsung
melody
We are
A love story
never told.

I will leave your love here
in the graveyard of regret
because I cannot take it with me
the burden
the memory
the joy
the pain
the  love
the almost
the lovely
too heavy
for my already
heartbroken
weakened heart.

my words weep
tears
my tears weep
words

Don’t be that weird person
we always promised each other
we would never
ever
be.

we have overstayed
our welcome
in each other’s lives

Come on now
you said you would sweep me off my feet
that was the deal
on a  late night New York City street
so why am I still standing here
feet firmly planted
right here
on 127 West 88th Street?

I know you said it didn’t matter
And I know I said that too
I know in grown up lives
It shouldn’t matter
But somehow that’s not true
I know you said we’d laugh about it
I think I said that too
So why can’t we raise a smile
as we sit here
Just we two?

I love you
whatever that means.

If I have been untrue
please know
it had nothing whatsoever
to do with you
it was all about me
absolutely nothing
whatsoever
to do with
You

Can I just say
last night
I fell in love with you
all over again
and I suddenly remembered
when

I lost you
just can’t remember where
somewhere in between last night
and here
or maybe somewhere
in between last year
and there
just can’t remember
when
or where........

Do you recall when love was lost?
not too sure myself
that country weekend with friends
comes to mind
we left the lovely pub to walk home
everyone was jolly
the route was dark but not for the first time
to the idilic cottage
with the lamps on
just before we went in you said
hang on
have I forgotten something
I’m missing something
for sure
were you missing her
I was.

When did those little boy arms
that ran to me
full of joy and laughter
and wild abandon
straight into my arms
unquestionable love
when did those little boy arms become
strong enough to hold me
and save me?

when dawn
broke
so did I

You said our love
would
make a difference
I believed
but when
does that
kick in?

when there was nothing
it still felt  like
something

Where in the world
could someone find someone like you
who needs to be applauded for simply
getting out of bed
in the morning
Where in the world
could someone find someone like you
who needs to be adored from
midnight till dawning
Where in the world
could someone find someone like you
who when people are talking
replies with loud yawning
Where in the world
could someone find someone like you
Where in the world
Where in the world?

Where do you go when
you leave me?
to a land of clear and clarity
is that honestly
so much better
that sitting here
totally
confused
and cluttered
with me?

Where are you
when you’re not here
beside me
Is it so much brighter
elsewhere?

I do not know
how to give myself
although I know I should
so let me give you this girl
who knows
just give her a whirl!

Let’s live out loud
or at least
let’s try
at the moment
we are just a whisper

Just sorting through
the thrash
this morning
saw you there
from the corner of my eye
at this early hour
my goodness
who in the world
put you there?

I’ve searched my whole life
for true love
woke up this morning
and there it was
asking if I wanted a bacon sandwich
or two
Who knew?

I never thought I would end up here
with someone
like you
someone
almost too good to be true
Who knew?