it’s a long walk back
I said
we walked here earlier
you said
I know but
the  grass looked greener
then

In all these years
we have given
a million smiles
to each other
surely
we  have one more left
between us

you don’t need to ask
the answer is
yes
but what the ****
ask it
anyway!

Yes, I will
Not sure for how long
Or for how good
Or for how much
Or for what for
But for now
For here
For tonight
For now
Yes, I will.

I loved you
yesterday
or at least
I tried
but you were you
yesterday
or at least
you tried

You think this is the end
this is it for you
my god
You’re twenty five years old
buckle up , my lovely
the worst is yet to come
and the best.

My love for you
is so unattended
yet still so
attendably
here

You left
without
conversation  
walked away
without
persuasion

I look in the mirror
and I see you.

And though I tried to hide
my smile
you found it

I am not easy to
love
this much I know
I have let go of
love
this much I know
I have laughed at
love
this much I know
I have cried for
love
this much I know
I have screamed for
love
this much I know
I would die for
love
this much I know
I have loved for
love
this much I know
I have missed out on
love
this much I know
I  have known true
love
this much I know

It’s difficult to find
anything in this world
to love
I’ve managed to find two
first one is me
second one is
you.

nothing creates
nothing
yet somehow
I found you

you speak words
the world cannot
stand

I don’t know anyone
who is seventy
and thanks be to ****
neither do you !

I am swimming in a  sea of you
I am drowning in too much of you
I am climbing the Everest of you
I am delving into the deep of you
I am inhaling the worst of you
I am crying for the loss
and the best of you

I wonder
if anyone
has ever been
as wrong
about someone
as I have been
about you

When you left
you were right

Most of you
is gone from me now
snippets remain
your smile
your brown eyes
the way you saw the world
your indifference
your belief in me
your difference
to me
your belief in strange
I was not brave enough
even though we both
wished me so.

What do people do
when they don’t have
you?

I have lived here now
for such a long time
on the outskirts
of you

You are the song
I always wanted to sing
And the words
I could never quite begin
Late at night
Alone
amidst all this din

I think
I keep
our love young
Do you?

of all the boys
I have
ever regretted
and there have been a fewl
I only ever
regretting
resisting
You!

John Lennon said
Let it be
But there are so many ways to
Let it be
Truth is
John Lennon  never met
You and me

You have left fingerprints
that I cannot erase
marks upon my skin
shadows
exposed by truth
memories
celebrated by youth.