Tomorrow is such a different
world
away
from me
and you
tonight

When everyone said
dust yourself down
get up
wake up
don’t wear a frown
you said
take my hand
lay down
tomorrow
you’ll own this town

This is your tomorrow
please
live it with me.

Don’t judge me too harshly
for staying up  a bit too late
I have seen tomorrow
and it don’t look that
great

I refuse to allow
Yesterday
To stand in front of me
Today
And tell me
Who I should be
Tomorrow

I am too many thoughts
for my little
brain.

Love clipped me
didn’t **** me
but God……
love came right up in my face
and asked way too much
of me

I heard what you said
about the end of me
and you
I still love you
enough
to never
tell anyone
it
simply
is
not true
but
we both know  
that
you know that
too.

I know you are
reaching out
I know you know
I am reaching too
It’s just our
reaching
is a bridge too far.

I know how much you love the sun
I think you would follow it
anywhere
perhaps you did
and now
your scorched skin
is forever
Tender to my touch

Love
it comes
and glows
then disappears
like smoke
upon touch

Nothing means as much
as your touch
when the  world has deserted
me

I am a tourist
in your life but
I lost my map
and my appetite
at the last beauty spot

Some sixties songster once said
I will lay me down
I will say the same
right here
right now
in the middle of this
one horse town.

I am looking in your eyes
and smoking  a cigarette
I don’t know which one
is more toxic
you
or the cigarette

I will trade you
my sadness
for your smile

If I had to see
Right through
Anyone
In the world
Tonight
Without doubt
It would be
You

I am trapped
By my secrets
Silenced by my guilt
Disappointed by my lies
Deceived by your eyes

she tried to hide
the boredom on her breath
but he caught it anyway
she tried to hide
the loneliness in her heart
but he felt it anyway.

Know this
That I have tried
If you know nothing ever again
In your whole life
Believe this
Know this
That
I have honestly
desperately
tried

I seek beauty
this I know is true
I seek truth
I seek joy
I seek cigarettes
I seek yesterday
this I know is true
I seek me
I seek free
I seek we
but
I will never
ever again
seek you
this I know is true .

I trust my words
and I trust me
if only I knew someone
who  felt the same way

I am searching for
myself
and those I do not know
deep in a world
where truth is not
the enemy

I am no poet
truth be told
who amongst us is?
I am just rearranging words
to suit my mood

Here is a truth I know
I was never quite good enough for you
I will never say it out loud
and nor will you
we will just laugh outloud
and pretend
it’s not true

You are exhausted
trying to find your truth
I am exhausted
pointing out the truth
in between
everyone has fallen
asleep

I am not saying that you lie
or calling you a liar
but I think
truth
might like a quick word
with you.

there must be something terribly
wrong with me
the song said
I agreed
and
promptly went to bed.

You asked for truth
I tried .

I will give you truth
because I can
It is a light
grey
white
silvery
beautiful
pearl like
pure
precious
rare
colour
Don’t make it black
Or I will take it back.

I am not
you
and you are are
not me
no matter how much
or how hard
or how high
or how low
or how out loud
we endeavour to be.

let me hear you laugh
let me hear you cry
let me watch you die
into another evening
without try
let me cry
without voice
with no invoice
in the post
let me try.

Your words
hit  my brain
like a ten ton lorry
too big
too sure
too clever
for me
to ever
ever
be brave enough
to
ask you
to
explain

There are
two of us here
and one of us
is seriously missing
the point.

I am not now
who  I used to be
that  girl has died
I am not now
who I want to be
that girl has tried
I live here
in between
who you are
and we are
I live in the shadow
in the shade
ashamed
Yet unafraid

After all
the love was cleared  away
the laughter and the joy
two hundred people
sweeping
all our dreams away
into black plastic sacks
smiling as they worked
never knowing the slack
yet smiling  knowingly
at our lack
even  after all that
we still
drove home
celebrated our success
Yes
unbelievably
even
knowing all that
we celebrated our success.

I understand why
You don’t understand
Why I don’t
understand
You
Do you?

Photographs
hidden in my bottom drawer
appear
uninvited
into my dreams
tonight
and suddenly I awake
right where
I started from

if you will let
the words you
say
stand still
and strong
then
so will I
I will dance with
my words
deep into tonight
and way into
our unknown
tomorrow

let our love fly
let the gentle breeze
ruffle
feathers I didn’t know I had
until I saw you

If your smile  did not make it
real
If your love did make me
Feel

I inhale  you
your love
oxygen to
my weary bones

I am not who I set out to me
That much i will agree
is true
The rest about me is
purely fallacy
I am not that girl
I wouldn’t dare
and honestly
in truth
I actually
wasn’t
even
there
Truth is I was
at home
washing my hair
So there!

Unwritten
Unread
Unsaid

I am just a girl
standing in front of a boy
and asking him
to wake the ****
up

I loved our love
the loudness of it
the laughing out loud of it
the easy fit of it
the we’re okay with it
the we didn’t care of it
the boldness of it
the badness of it
the airiness of it
the very sound of it
the endless song of it
the ***** the world of it
the world is ours of it
the very essence of it
the us being us of it
the loving  each other of it
I loved our love
I know you did too
when in world
did it happen
when did the us in us
become the end of us.

the power of us
the joy of us
the precious of us
the pure good of us
the easy of us
the lovely of us
the worth of us
the best of us
has somehow
become lesser
tangled
confused
and lost
somewhere deep in
the complicated and confused effort of
trying to be
just the two of us .


but still
I’m going nowhere
pour me another song
and I’ll sing you another heartache!