I lost myself
the minute and moment
I surrendered
my soul
to you

I am sorry
after this long time
you realized that
I am not  Cinderella
or a fairy tale
anywhere close to that
I am sorry
after this long time
You realized  
I am simply
just another
ordinarily girl
who  somehow
late in the night
haphazardly
lost
her
shoe
again!

I am more lost now
Than when you found
me

we laugh
the loudest
and fall the loudest
and hurt the loudest
and rise the loudest
of anyone I know

There is nothing in this world
more precious
to me
No metal
No stone
than your voice
on the other end of the phone

Just give a little
he said
dear god I’m trying
I said
just speak louder
he said
just look twice
I said
I’m dead

Leave all of your love
strewn carelessly
across the floor
anything else
I would abhor

I am slow
to the table of love
I am always
a beat behind
beautiful
but less inclined.

the girl is not not in love
she is just not  totally
in love in love
either.

I see your love
It stands starkly before me
I can’t reach your love
It hides hidden behind me.

Love is amazing but
love is waking up the next day
and not feeling quite
so sure  about yourself.

I love you
mostly
because of
who I am
when you hold my
hand.

I will not drop our love
I may not love our love
tonight
or want our love
tonight
or seek our love
tonight
or need our love
tonight
or know our love
tonight
or like our love
tonight
but still
I will not drop our love

I
seriously suspect
this is what love
is supposed to be
you and me
No questions
No answers
I seriously suspect
this is what love
was always meant to
be
If only
they knew

I love you
Out
loud

our love
which was once
an event
a waterfall
a crescendo
splendid enough that
people would queue
for hours
just to to see it
I get it
I would queue too
to see
our love
our love
is now just
a trickle
that no one
is interested enough
to get out of bed for
it’s just not
that special
anymore
in all honesty
it’s just not that interesting
to anyone
not even to
to you and me
anymore

If I could send you
two thousand bouquets
or more
I surely would
instead
what I can send
is
one word
Love.

You make
me
laugh
out loud
if thats not love
tell me
what is?

I wonder how it feels
to know
I was always only and ever
in love
with you

I will take this love
and I will run with it
as far as it will take me
as high as it will make me
I will take this love
and I will run with it
and I will never look back
for fear
reality will overtake me

Let us leave our love here
where it began
where it was pure
where we were sure
that we knew better
let us leave our love here
where it is safe
and untainted
from the people
we have both
become,

I see
you want me to applaud
your love
but
sadly I can’t
on this occasion
happily
I’m all clapped out

I am
so in love. with myself
that
when you said you loved me
I thought
I was talking to
myself

I love that
You love me
And my family too
Makes life easier
And means
in the end
I won’t  have
to leave you
And us two

I lost love today
was  sure I put in my pocket
before I left home
wrapped up and tight
saw it when I found my keys
smiling at me
reliable and bright
parked the car
and it was there
secure and steady
always made me heady
had it thru the day
because I was light
and a little gay
came back home without a care
now I can’t find it anywhere

Your words pour over me like silk
smooth
easy
gentle to the touch
no matter they may be untrue
right here
right now
they flow like music
heavy intoxicating musk
smoldering like  lust

I am living
in a life of luxury
I don’t recognise
anymore.

I can leave
that’s the easy bit
I can walk away
but can you
in your madness
ever stay away?

You make me laugh
when I’don’t want to laugh
you make me cry
when I don’t want to cry
you make me listen
when I don’t want to hear
you make it clear
when you’re not even here
you make it right
in the dead of the night

I am
totally
and
completely
in love
with
the man
you
used
to be

Everyone says
in a New York Minute
I’ve been here forever
trust me
it takes
ten years!

I know I lost you
That’s true
I’m sorry
It’s  true
It’s Manhattan
you know.
the score!

It’s complicated
and I am too
there was a map here
yesterday
lost it
somehow
somewhere
Can’t find it
anywhere
Can you?

when my heart bled words
I couldn’t voice
somehow you found them
in my garden or somewhere near
wherever I had dropped them
picked them up
and made sense of them
returned them to me
late night
in a song
I  had never heard before
until your voice made
perfect sense of me.

When did those little boy arms
who depended so much on me
when did those little boy arms
become strong enough
to hold me

of all the smiles
ever given to me
and there’s been a few
the best smile
was the one you gave to me
in ‘94
as you ran to me
arms outstretched
love unattached
straight into my arms
with your love for me
written all over
the man I knew
you would eventually be.

Love
is not a big enough
word
for this

We have such a journey
yet to go
We lost the map
years  ago

when you said
nothing matters
I didn’t know
you
meant me too.

you are halfway
into my heart
well done
it’s more than anyone
ever
has ever managed to do
and it’s a feeling
I could get used to
maybe !

Maybe you found me
just to show me
how good I could be
or
to give me a reason
to not be
so much like me

You hang over me
Like a vague thought within a cloud
Like a word never said out loud
You hang over me
Envelop me
Devour me
Like a vague thought within
a cloud

maybe
let me not be the last ember
in your fire
I still have a flicker
within
that could ignite
to a higher power

Clarity
Maybe just another word for
Shame
Reality
Maybe just another word for
Pain

I go to sleep each night
With the  faint shadow of the girl I used to be
And the sallow shadow of the girl I long to be
Sleeping safely
Either side of
Me

Read my words
and know
in the simplicity
and confusion
of them
you
have a chance
to know me

Last one to leave
switch the lights off
one thing for.sure
it will never
be
me

There is nothing but
the outside of me
left
this face
this skin
the inside of me
has slowly begun to
wither
from within.

Thank you
for seeing
me
when I am blind