You make me laugh when I’don’t want to laugh you make me cry when I don’t want to cry you make me listen when I don’t want to hear you make it clear when you’re not even here you make it right in the dead of the night
of all the smiles ever given to me and there’s been a few the best smile was the one you gave to me in ‘94 as you ran to me arms outstretched love unattached straight into my arms with your love for me written all over the man I knew you would eventually be.
when my heart bled words I couldn’t voice somehow you found them in my garden or somewhere near wherever I had dropped them picked them up and made sense of them returned them to me late night in a song I had never heard before until your voice made perfect sense of me.
You hang over me Like a vague thought within a cloud Like a word never said out loud You hang over me Envelop me Devour me Like a vague thought within a cloud
I go to sleep each night With the faint shadow of the girl I used to be And the sallow shadow of the girl I long to be Sleeping safely Either side of Me
Somewhere way above who I set out to be unintentionally I became me No one I set out to be or honestly am proud to be genuinely stuck with me wake up everyday with me tried more than once to lose me annoyingly still wake up with me constantly critical of me randomly amused by me desperately abused by me always trying unsuccessfully to eventually get the point of me.
I knew lots of things before I met you Yet day by day hour by hour minute by minute second by second they all left me bled out of me day by day hour by hour minute by minute second by second until eventually I was just left with me and me.
No I didn’t sign up for this No You got it wrong Yes I love the diamonds Yes I love the song No I didn’t sign up for this Yes I fell in love with you No I didn’t sign up for this No Yes...... No Yes..... Christ... What a mess....,,
There is a hole right there in the middle bit of me like a Russian doll a life within a life barely breathing don’t come too close you could fall right in deeply into the empty of me Others have. Save yourself Walk away..,,..
you look at me like I am the only girl in the world but I’m not there are millions of us look around open your eyes there are millions of us just milling around !
Woke up this morning and couldn’t find myself Looked in the mirror Nobody there Searched high and low No sign of anyone Anywhere Dialed 911 They didn’t care Just hung around Alone All day With nobody there