Thank you
for seeing
me
when I am blind

I am patient
I am kind
but please know
I am two  minutes away
from not giving a **** .

Somewhere way above who I set out to be
unintentionally
I became me
No one I set out to be
or honestly am proud to be
genuinely stuck with me
wake up everyday with me
tried more than once to lose me
annoyingly
still wake up with me
constantly critical of me
randomly amused by me
desperately abused by me
always trying
unsuccessfully
to eventually
get the point
of me.

I am absolutely nothing
Without the rest of you
Picking me up
Dusting me down
Carrying my pain
Propping me up
And keeping me
Sane

Mediocrity
will be the death of me
and I suspect of you too
Mediocrity
Grows grows voraciously
Let’s give it it’s due

Meet me at the bar
next door
the neighbours are tired
of hearing us roar.

I knew lots of things
before I met you
Yet
day by day
hour by hour
minute by minute
second by second
they all left me
bled out of me
day by day
hour by hour
minute by minute
second by second
until eventually
I was just left
with me
and me.

No
I didn’t sign up for this
No
You got it wrong
Yes
I love the diamonds
Yes
I love the song
No
I didn’t sign up for this
Yes
I fell in love with you
No
I didn’t sign up for this
No
Yes......
No
Yes.....
Christ...
What a mess....,,

Of all the people
I have ever met
You are probably the
best

Your words have a beauty
A cadence
A joy
A realness
A sorrow
A sadness
A joy
Can I drink tequila
In Mexico
Instead?

Let’s pretend
no one ever broke our hearts
Let’s draw a line under yesterday
and wake up anew
with just me
and you.

There is a hole
right there
in the middle bit of me
like a Russian doll
a life within a life
barely breathing
don’t come too close
you could fall right in
deeply
into the empty of me
Others have.
Save yourself
Walk away..,,..

You left
just a beat
before midnight
and I
woke up
to a brand new day.

not sure when it happened
maybe last week
Tuesday or Wednesday
sometime midweek

I might as well
be someone else
for all the authenticity
left inside
of me.

There are three thousand miles
between us
three thousand reasons
not to believe that
this love
could be real

She rarely left her own mind
and when she did
the outside seemed
so unkind

I like your smile
you like mine
so far
it’s all sublime
don’t introduce your real self
in case
I have to find mine

Let us be quiet now
for a minute
Soften our minds
and our souls
Let us be blind now
for a minute
cherish our hearts
and our foes

I have missed
the very best parts
of you

Woke up this morning
and couldn’t find myself
Looked in the mirror
Nobody there
Searched high and low
No sign of anyone
Anywhere
Dialed 911
They didn’t care
Just hung around
Alone
All day
With nobody there

Even here
in the midst of our decay
I still have words
left to say

You have not mistaken me
for someone you used to know
You have mistaken me
for someone  I used to be

You haven’t mistaken me
for someone
you used to know
You have mistaken me for someone
I used to be

What do you want
he said
standing boldly in front of me
I’m not sure
I said
but for sure
just a  little bit more
than this

I wanted more
that’s for sure
a slow dance
a quick gin
I wanted more
that’s for sure
a romance
an easy grin
I wanted more
that’s for sure
a sunset walk
a little talk
I wanted more
that’s for sure
a few stars
maybe less bars
I wanted more
that’s for sure
the moon
if not the stars
I wanted more
that’s for sure
a bit more real
a bit less zeal
I wanted more
I needed more
and that my friend
well that , my friend
that’s for sure.

this
I know
is way more
important
than me.

We have always run
just a beat ahead
of the incoming storm
I have always loved you
just a beat ahead
of the rising morn

It’s just another morning
that looks a lot
like yesterday.

Morning makes its entrance
throwing sunlight
on an unslept bed
I stand a few feet away
throwing bouquets
at  an unloved life.

When I left you
I didn’t realise
there was a tiny morsel of you
sewn into my heart
forever

I carry little bits of you
deep inside
the dark inside of me
mostly it’s okay
but sometimes they itch
and start to twitch
and interrupt my day
but  most days
deep inside
the dark inside of me
mostly
on those days
mostly
I’m okay.

I miss you
god, here  it is.
now, at last
it’s been said
out loud
no words
no rhymes
can describe
how much I miss you
or
who I am
without you
or
the fact
that
I miss you
here it is
out loud
at last
I miss you
now it’s said.

Your words flow
effortlessly
from your perfectly
manicured mouth
your audience
guaranteed
your confidence
unbelieved
at least
by me

A child was born
And then another
I was paralysed by their beauty
And their power
I was paralysed by their being
Still am
And yet I held them
Still do
Although I have absolutely no idea
What the ****
I am supposed  to do

This is a love
that needs
no words

There is probably
not much
I wouldn’t do
except
perhaps
say goodbye
to you

and then
the music stopped
and so did we
who knew?
certainly, not me

You are a witch
from a long line
of witches
jump on your broom
and fly!

How many leaves
are on that tree
he said
God, I don’t know
six billion and sixty three
I said
Nah
Just two
he said.

No
Let’s leave it at that
Shall we?

he bought me
diamond rings
champagne
and other things
paid off my mortgage
it was quite an engage
for a moment
for a beat
I was there
until he said
you are amazing
what’s your name?

I am a book
without words
I am a song
without tune
I am a poem
without rhyme
I am a movie
without sound
I am a play
without plot
I am a painting
without colour
I am a sculpture
without stone
I am a woman
without name.

to be near you
sometimes
scares me

my voice is a burden
you don’t need
my words a worry
you don’t need
my serious about serious
you don’t need
my noisiness about noise
you don’t need
my simpleness about simple
you don’t need
my pureness about pure
you don’t need
my world upon yours
you really  really
don’t need
my version of love
you honestly don't need.

In all truth
I know my life started with you
no one else
has ever made sense of me
quite the way
I needed them
to

I don’t need to know
the way home
I might not be heading
that way

Tears
are just water
and we all need
water
to live

There is nothing bad
between us now  
all the bad has
been spilled from us
upon this  floor
gathered up
and flown away
by birds of prey
leaving us
lightheaded
and wanting
neigh