I’m pulling up outside
our bags are packed
kids in the  back
I’m reeving the engine
lets go
don’t look back

I wake
to a noisy Manhattan morning
while my children wake
to a boring boarding school
yawning
on the other side of this morning
on the other side of the world
every bit of mother in me
knows I should save them
be on the next flight from Newark
I could make it before nightfall
I could scoop them up
I could save their souls.

You are not
me
or anything like me
You are just a strange alien
a sweet likeable person
who honestly
inexplicably
undeniably
unbelievably
gets
the point of me

When my world
is too desperately dark
I do what you said
I go to sleep
wake up early
and call you

Ahh
and then
so it happened
that there was no one
left
except
us two
me and you
Christ
who knew?

Leave it now
at this late hour
leave it at the door
in the morning
the sunrise will
surely scourge its power

It’s late
and we.both know
the stakes are high
the loser
cries.

Let me lie in between us
so I don’t have to
become one of
us

Every step I take
leads me one step
closer
away
from
you

It’s difficult to find
anything in this world
to love
I’ve managed to find two
first one is me
second one is
you.

Nothing means as much
as your touch
when the  world has deserted
me

my heart
is buried deep
in yesterday

I got home
still full of your smile
its been a while
that’s true
but now at least
I know
we can walk
another
mile
together

Time
falls heavy upon us now
where once
it was forever
Time
will make fools of us now
make small
our best endeavour

Here’s the truth
I’ve switched the truth
to make you look bad
it’s a small twitch
but enough
to help me sleep well
and happy.
Night all!

I lost myself
the minute and moment
I surrendered
my soul
to you

Thank you for listening
to the ten billion words I cough up
each day
and only hearing
the ones
I mean
and still
staying around
and loving me
all the same

Let it lie
I know
I hear you
trust me
or not
what do I know
but just
for now
please
maybe
for a minute
let it go
let it lie
and fly.

Tell me
what to do
with the
bits
you
you left
behind

When autumn reigned
and blew golden bronze tumble leaves
right to my door
it reminded me
of how you loved
golden bronze tumble leaves
at the door
Do you
still?

We have been here
so many times before
in the name of sanity
and more
please let’s not choose to go
here
anymore

when my heart bled words
I couldn’t voice
somehow you found them
in my garden or somewhere near
wherever I had dropped them
picked them up
and made sense of them
returned them to me
late night
in a song
I  had never heard before
until your voice made
perfect sense of me.

What do you want
he said
standing boldly in front of me
I’m not sure
I said
but for sure
just a  little bit more
than this

I love you
my love is a little bit off centre
that much I know is true
but still
I love you
a little bit off centre
It’s the best I can do.

You grew up
in a haze of yellow sun
champagne glasses
and endless fun
and then you
painfully
excruciatingly
became
You,

Let’s choose
happy

and just when there was
nothing left to say
you spoke

sometimes
love stumbles
and sometimes
I stumble after it.

Happy now?
you ask
yeah, a little bit
at last
no regrets
about two million and twenty three
still, even so
it’s been a blast

Can I take you home?
Absolutely !
If you can help me find one
I can call my own.

I was born
yesterday
but I do my best
to live
today

The words
I love you
flow from me
gushing from the heart of me
freely
Yet
sadly
catching
just the side of you

There is nothing
yet everything
wrapped up tightly
about to explode
lives will implode
right here
right now
bang in the centre
of this room

The words that fall from my mouth
should only be for me
yet they rain upon your head
like an untuned symphony
and somehow
you turn my words
into a tune

I have no
regrets
about who we were
just one or two
about
who we are

I wonder how it feels
to know
I was always only and ever
in love
with you

Your words flow
effortlessly
from your perfectly
manicured mouth
your audience
guaranteed
your confidence
unbelieved
at least
by me

I am exhausted
I know you are too
let’s lie down
beside each other now
catch a breath
or two

I have been such
a stranger here
deep inside
the  inside of me
did not know
what to say
did not know
who to pay
I have been
such a stranger
here

and then
everything stopped
I don’t remember the day
or the hour
or the month
or the year
but I remember
the silence
it was weird
tell me you remember
that too.

Life kicked in
around nine o ‘clock
last night
don’t know why I am
surprised
my father told me
it would happen
someday
still
it took me unawares
it took me
totally
by surprise

don’t listen
to my words
I lie
better than anyone
you have ever tried to love
ever
before.

Take my toxic words
and turn them
into wine.

I have read
Yeats and Kavanagh
Oscar too
How can they write beautiful
while I flounder here
bereft of a phrase
or two

of all the boys
I have
ever regretted
and there have been a fewl
I only ever
regretting
resisting
You!

You have all the best lines
but no melody.

I am glad
you are the one
who ended up
knowing me
the best

Don’t fret
go to sleep
I will write
all our wrongs.

There are not enough words
in the dictionary
that could make sense of
how much
you mean
to me
trust me
I have tried.

Don’t play games
with my heart
I am really not strong
it will break me apart