I have said the words now
I have said the words
and I have watched them bleed
out loud
I have said the words now
I have said the words
and I have watched you leave
out loud

I have a hundred dreams
that didn’t happen
take them all
now
You are welcome
I have no use
for them
anymore

Roll the dice then
I’ll take my chances
we both know
only one of us
can win

Your words
hit  my brain
like a ten ton lorry
too big
too sure
too clever
for me
to ever
ever
be brave enough
to
ask you
to
explain

If I were you
I wouldn’t bet on me
the odds are stacked
against the pureness
of your heart

The fine cobweb threads
that bind your heart to mine
are old now
difficult to define
I rarely move
these days
for fear of their decline

You will always be
the missing piece
in our weird
little
three piece family
jigsaw

are you the one?
you are singing the song
dancing the dance
talking the talk
walking the walk
you might just be in
with a chance
except
from the corner of your eye
I detect
a lie

Oddly
as we sit here
at the dying of another day
I remember little
except
the words we didn’t
say

You dug deep
into the heart of me
to find your gold
then claiming your treasure
laughed out loud
and sailed away.

And though I tried to hide
my smile
you found it

of all the boys
I have
ever regretted
and there have been a fewl
I only ever
regretting
resisting
You!

Your love is like
navy blue silk
that everyone adores
but few can afford

The most beautiful sand ever
beneath my feet
the most beautiful people
eyes could ever meet
India
her sons
her daughters
laid out
today
sacrosanct
and
sacrificed
for slaughter

Don’t play with me
or perhaps do
just know
fair warning
I was born with
a hand full of aces

I am
totally
and
completely
in love
with
the man
you
used
to be

word on the street
is you’ve been looking
for my heart
truth be told
it’s not that hard to find
in fact
I wear it on my sleeve
most Monday afternoons
Tuesday evenings
yes, those too.

Yep,
I ****** up
I lost my head
you can either
blame me
hate me or
forgive me
leave me
or still love me
instead.

Let’s live out loud
or at least
let’s try
at the moment
we are just a whisper

The flames are climbing high now
out of control
they are burning our life down
we stand
paralysed by their power
and not a one around us
invested enough
to pass a bucket of water

Let your sorrow fall
like acid rain
upon your palms
it will burn
right through
and ignite your soul.

You want all of me
you say
but you already have my heart
What is left of me ?
my limbs ?
take them if you will
but know then
I can never
ever
dance
with you
again.

The children are all
gone now
just me and you
left
to haunt these halls

We have always run
just a beat ahead
of the incoming storm
I have always loved you
just a beat ahead
of the rising morn

I loved you
for about an hour
on a random beach in Dublin
sometime around 1979
or there about
friends say it never happened
I was too young
but it did
I know
I loved you
for about an hour
on  a random beach
sometime, somewhere , somehow
I loved you
for about an hour
on a random beach in Dublin
around 1979 or just before.

Do not ask
for answers buried deep within
my heart
they have laid  there
for so long
unattended
and forgone

If someone almost
loved me
you did

I don’t fit you anymore
truth be told
you don’t fit me either
we are weird jigsaw pieces
at the edge of the puzzle
the ones you can’t quite work  out
where to put
for ages
then suddenly
out of the blue
you see it
that’s where they go
the puzzle complete!!

I will leave it now
I will let it lie
I will close my eyes
if you admit the lie

Your love
makes a fool
out of my love
your love
walks ten miles more
than my love
your love speaks sonnets
my love mumbles
your love screams
my love whispers
your love
fills the room
my love
locked in a tomb

You make me

a little
less
like real

When the lights
go out
is there any doubt
where we both
should  be?

The winds are gale force
hold the line
and I will too

let our love fly
let the gentle breeze
ruffle
feathers I didn’t know I had
until I saw you

Come on now
you said you would sweep me off my feet
that was the deal
on a  late night New York City street
so why am I still standing here
feet firmly planted
right here
on 127 West 88th Street?

What’s your super power Mummy?
said my beautiful blue eyed boy
mine is ‘ I can fly’
I can live without love
promise me
you will never try
to fly that high.

Don’t call it
not now
unless you are absolutely sure
don’t try
Don’t call it
not now
because we have a hundred other ways
to make it fly

I don’t know.alone ness
although I am touching the edge of it
It’s sharp but
oddly soft
it’s cold but
strangely warm
it’s alien but
somehow feels like home

I cannot mop up
all your sadness
but I will try
I cannot laugh loud enough
to silence your cry
I cannot dance long enough
to make you fly
but trust me
I will try.

This is nice
I said
this is love
he said
no
this is just nice
like
I said.

Do you love me
he said
I will try
I said

The end came quicker
than either of us expected
I would have marked it
somehow
if I had known
not quite a party
but maybe
an inappropriate balloon?

Everything now depends
on your very next answer
may seem like pressure to you
trust me
my insides are on fire

There is a slight cry in your voice
when you say
that you love me
is that about
love
or doubt
or just not being sure enough
of what we are
all about

I love you
Inside and out
have no doubt
I love you
rights  and wrongs
late night songs
and all
I love you
short nights and long
I have loved you
all along

when you left
you left no trace
as if
you were never here
at all

You asked for truth
I tried .

I am living
in a life of luxury
I don’t recognise
anymore.

Your flowers arrived
before you
you always like
to guarantee
a smile.

You are not stupid
you know
there are roughly 267 questions
scattered on the floor
go now
I will sweep them up
I will put them somewhere safe
away from you
where they
will only have meaning
to those of us
who
know enough
to
sweep the floor.