Daylight
makes its entrance
through small familiar cracks
Today announces it’s arrival
uninvited
but loudly
none the less
Reality joins the chorus
banality holds up the back
Together they defeat me
I have no answer back

I can do this dance all night
And deep into tomorrow
My feet refuse to give in
But my soul
My soul
God, my soul
Is just about
Done in

There is
A strange rope around
My soul
Please don’t pull
I will break
into tiny pieces
Of human glass
Fragile
Easily shattered
Please don’t pull
I will
Break
I am fragile
I am lost

I know your scars
And you know mine
We trace them in the dark
and celebrate
each mark

I am light
I think I was born this way
I’ve tried the dark
embraced the pain
but it doesn’t sit easy in my brain
I  am light
almost breezy
I want  easy
I am light
I think I was
Probably
born this way

If this is tomorrow
I’ll buy a ticket
If what you’re selling is real
I’ll shake on that deal

I am sitting here
wondering
If it is worth the effort
To go to the lovely neighbour’s  barbecue
And also why I spell the word barbecue
With a C and not a Q
probably
I think
most likely
It’s probably
just for
You

I am not now
who  I used to be
that  girl has died
I am not now
who I want to be
that girl has tried
I live here
in between
who you are
and we are
I live in the shadow
in the shade
ashamed
Yet unafraid

You don’t have to look like me
Or be like me
Or think like me
You don’t have to dance like me
Or laugh like me
Or cry like me
You don’t have to do anything at all like me
To love me
Or have me love you back
You just have to know
like me
that differences
They paper up the
Cracks

This is deeper than I ever
wanted to go
I can take real
Delve into the unknown
I can swim to the surface
When the  waters are unknown
But seriously
This
Even for me
Is way deeper than I
Ever wanted to
be

I am more lost now
Than when you found
me

Your words pour over me like silk
smooth
easy
gentle to the touch
no matter they may be untrue
right here
right now
they flow like music
heavy intoxicating musk
smoldering like  lust

You will always be
the best  piece
in our three piece
jigsaw family

I will give you truth
because I can
It is a light
grey
white
silvery
beautiful
pearl like
pure
precious
rare
colour
Don’t make it black
Or I will take it back.

I believe
at some point
you’ve  got to decide
Whether to shout out loud
Or run home and hide

Despair is growing on every tree
In the world tonight
no matter where we are
Or who we are
Everywhere
our gardens are overrun
With hate
With fear
And disbelief
Each one of us
Crippled by defeat

Don’t look up
I’m leaving
Don’t catch my eye
We will surely cry
Don’t move
Don’t speak
Don’t flinch
Don’t catch my eye
Don’t look up
I’m leaving
Don’t look up
Don’t watch us die

Don’t look to me for honesty
For honestly
Not sure if I can give it
Don’t look to me for truth
For truthfully
Not sure if I can do it
Don’t look to me for trust
For trust me
Not sure if I can find it
Don’t look to me for faith
For faithfully
Never seem to find it
Don’t look to me for love
For lovingly I’ll decline it
For everything else
I’m your woman !

Baby steps, she said
My sweet dying Mother
Upon her unmade bed
Baby steps, she said
instead
I take huge wide dangerous
Leaps
Into the world
ahead

We have such a journey
yet to go
We lost the map
years  ago

She is old now
And says things she doesn’t mean
Although I remember when she was younger
And said things that were mean
She is old now
And calls me late at night,
Although I remember when she was younger
And scared me with her might
She is old now
And tells me she loves me
Although I remember when she was younger
and said no one would ever love me

I see you flying
You think I am lying
Have I ever?
I see you
Flying
Do you think
I am lying?

Every single moment I spend with
You
is like
a really bright moon
and
a brilliant bright sun
coupled together
and crushed
into one.

You shined very bright in my life
For a beat
Dazzled me
Sunburnt I retreat
Still
I will always
remember
The brilliance
Of your sun

It was a freezing cold
New York  city night
you laid my love down on the sidewalk
in Chelsea
it was too heavy
to carry home
I get that
we hailed a taxi
and bundled it into the back

No
I didn’t sign up for this
No
You got it wrong
Yes
I love the diamonds
Yes
I love the song
No
I didn’t sign up for this
Yes
I fell in love with you
No
I didn’t sign up for this
No
Yes......
No
Yes.....
Christ...
What a mess....,,

Don’t write the words
just  for the writing
or for yourself
or anyone else
Touch them first
Feel them
hold them
cherish them
for a beat
Caress them
carefully
feel them
own them
love them
a little
then choose
very carefully
very cautiously
which ones
you choose
to release
and write

I am not who I set out to me
That much i will agree
is true
The rest about me is
purely fallacy
I am not that girl
I wouldn’t dare
and honestly
in truth
I actually
wasn’t
even
there
Truth is I was
at home
washing my hair
So there!

This love is good enough for me
this love will more than see me through
I’m pulling up the shutters
taking off my shoes
this love
your love
totally
hands down
this love
is
way
way
good enough
for me.

I could say Goodbye to you
Without pain
One time and ten score
If you could promise me
Our next hello
Will  even up the score

Shall we just lay it all down here
I can wrap it up in a bow
So it looks good
You know that’s my gig
That’s the easy bit
The difficult bit
Twofold
Shall we just lay it all down here
And if we do
What colour bow?

The world is made up
Of tiny tiny moments
That didn’t exist
until we rose
to resist

I see
Two hundred steps before me
And three hundred steps behind me
Question is
Do you?
Do you see
Anything
At all?

Let me leave you
as I found  you
happy and
unscarred

Was there a warning bell I missed?
A buzzer
A loud shrill
To alert me
An alarm bell
to tell me
Of impending pain?
Incoming missile
Lie low
Danger afoot
Go slow
Was there a warning bell
I missed
Don’t trust
Go slow
Be alert
Lie low

Buyer Beware
Is void
When you buy
In a sale

Dark stars fly above me tonight
the light ones
have all taken flight
they soar
to happy places
embracing the hearts delight
I long to reach for them
again
and feel their warm sun
upon my skin
their magic
igniting
from within

If it was just left to all of us
I think we could find a way
To live
And die
And pray
Each in our own way
I’m sure that  would be okay
With all of us
If only
We could find a way
To just let it be
Alone
With all of us.

I am scared
There it is
There’s the truth
This is me
Laid  bare
I am scared
Why aren’t you?

Let’s take the long way home
For sure it’s darker
And a lot unknown
But who knows what we might discover
Under cover
Of the darkness
On the long way home

There is no messiah
here tonight
Jesus left
What more did you
Expect ?

My life fell away from me
last night
I saw it fall
but didn’t reach to call
I watched it
tumble
and fall
crumble
stumble.
before stall
but
never once
did I ever
ever
feel the need
To catch
it
mid fall

You are perfect for me
just promise
you will never
ever
tell me
don’t say it out loud
Don’t say
that knowledge
is absolute and
way way
too much
For a little old fashioned
small time girl
Like me
Or maybe.........

Do you believe in love
And death
And all the rest
If so
why do you fly
So far abreast from
the crest
Of the wave

Somewhere there is a void
Deep enough
That I won’t see you
Or touch you
Or want you
Somewhere there is a void
So dangerous and murky
Only people brave enough
Like me
Are allowed to swim with faces bared
Somewhere there is a void
But hear me,
please be scared
And very much aware
It’s very dark
and bleak there
Join me
If you dare

There are no right words to say here
So I will just use mine instead
And hope they echo
Something someone once said
That made sense
for a minute
deep inside your head

So
this I know
for sure
I know absolutely nothing
about nothing
But I will jump
bare faced and brave
into my knowing of nothing
and say
it feels really good
knowing absolutely
nothing
about you