Know this
If you know nothing else
In my life
You shined a light

Somewhere there is a void
Deep enough
That I won’t see you
Or touch you
Or want you
Somewhere there is a void
So dangerous and murky
Only people brave enough
Like me
Are allowed to swim with faces bared
Somewhere there is a void
But hear me,
please be scared
And very much aware
It’s very dark
and bleak there
Join me
If you dare

I can stand up
But I will never stand tall
I can speak out
But I will never reach all
I can stack bricks
But it will never be a wall
That we can stand against
so nothing matters
At all

I can write two hundred poems
and more
each one fine
I can write two hundred poems and more
All in the quest
Of writing just one
not just fine
but to you
and me
totally sublime
Perfectly in time
And without
A perfectly
predictable
******
rhyme

Every single day I am away
From all of you
Is twenty four hours
One thousand four hundred and forty
Minutes
Eighty six thousand four hundred
Seconds
Wasted
Whistling
Wishing
Myself
Back
Home
Again
With all of
You

Yes, I will
Not sure for how long
Or for how good
Or for how much
Or for what for
But for now
For here
For tonight
For now
Yes, I will.

Nothing here is of interest to me
Is there something terribly wrong with me?
I pick up my things
and sneak back home
Desperately hoping
I will never hear from
anyone of you
ever
again

Everything I know
About being real
About being true
I learned from
You

I wonder if I could write
A long poem
That says something
Instead of a short poem
That says nothing
Long poems seem
right
Short poems seem
trite
Rhyming poems seem light
Which poem is right?

You hang over me
Like a vague thought within a cloud
Like a word never said out loud
You hang over me
Envelop me
Devour me
Like a vague thought within
a cloud

Wombs for rent
Inquire within

We stood there
in the rain
Neither moving
Neither noticing
Neither caring
All I could think was
Gene Kelly
Danced in the rain
Why can’t we.?

This heart is not yours
To break
This girl is not yours
To forsake

I will stand up now
Although I am terrified by the feat
But I will stand up now
If you will too
Look over your shoulder
I am here now
Just behind the band
Passing time
In no mans land

We are nothing
Without a flame
Just lonely lost
darkness
desperately
Seeking the light

I will walk every step forward
with you
and more
if you will just walk one step
back
with me
every
now
and
then

The answer is no
Although
If you continue to ask
all through tonight
and into tomorrow
if you say things
and bring things
Then
Maybe ....
Yes
Maybe... all right
Okay
Maybe
if you continue to say things
then okay
somehow
maybe
somehow
you can make it
alright

I see you
Really
When it feels like no one
ever does
and no one
ever will
I see you
And only you
For what it’s worth
At this late hour
I see you
And I always will

Mediocrity
will be the death of me
and I suspect of you too
Mediocrity
Grows grows voraciously
Let’s give it it’s due

The conversation around here
is such a long time dead
banality reigns
triumphantly
Instead

In your eyes
There are lies
in my soul
Something dies

I am sorry
after this long time
you realized that
I am not  Cinderella
or a fairy tale
anywhere close to that
I am sorry
after this long time
You realized  
I am simply
just another
ordinarily girl
who  somehow
late in the night
haphazardly
lost
her
shoe
again!

Hmmmmm........see. .....here’s the thing
I’m not sure I  am the one you should be crying for
I think others might deserve it more
It’s not that I don’t like the attention
You know I do
Maybe a bit too much
But even I
have to admit
There are a lot more people out there
Worth  the crying
For

New York City is ablaze with fame
Totally saturated in  blame
New York City can absorb
Your Pain
For one night
Only
but she will never
Ever
remember your
Name

Ahhh there you are
You came back
Unexpectedly
Suddenly there you are
How good to see you
God, how I have missed you
How glad I am you came back
Intact
Battle scars
Yes, I can see
Fainter
Than when you left me
still
I can touch them now
And help you heal
You came back to me
Perfectly
Imperfectly
And
beautifully
Intact

You ask if I really see you
In all honesty
No
With you
I will always be blind

Well now
There is no need to
Say
These words
Out loud
We have said them all
Before
no need to say
These words are
just for you
We’ve done all that ten score
A hundred times or more
I will write them now
instead
Because I love the
Honest
Simple
Sublime
Sound of them
Inside my head
I love you
I miss you
And truth be known
What I feel now
I  will
Feel
Today
Tomorrow
And intensely
Forever more

I don’t actually live here
Anymore
Whoever you see
is definitely not me
I live elsewhere
In my head
Whoever you see
Sitting here
In my chair
Trust me
it’s definitely
Not
Me

I wanted to write you a love poem
Better than any love poem ever written
By anyone
Ever before
But I couldn’t
I wanted to say words to you
Better than any words that were ever  said by anyone
anywhere
ever before
But I couldn’t
In the end we settled for a drink
And Billy Joel
And that was good enough
At least
That’s what you said

If I had to see
Right through
Anyone
In the world
Tonight
Without doubt
It would be
You

As the days fade into hours
and the hours
into minutes
when seconds
beckon
like lifelines
and suddenly become precious
I will be there
to remind you that
our every second
together
has always
felt like a lifetime

Freedom never comes free
It is paid for in tears
And blood
Bending on one knee
By the likes of you
And me

Someone said that
some of us could do better
We all nodded and agreed
Someone said that
most of us know better
We all nodded and agreed
Someone said that
Someday we will regret it
We all nodded and agreed
Someone said that
We should stand up straight now
And be counted
Someone else said
Now is the time to leave

A child was born
And then another
I was paralysed by their beauty
And their power
I was paralysed by their being
Still am
And yet I held them
Still do
Although I have absolutely no idea
What the ****
I am supposed  to do

You know what they say
Last one to leave
Switch the lights off
I will never
Be the one
to switch the lights off
On us.

The world is still spinning
That much is true
But God, I have never felt so dizzy
Trying to keep it true

Let me drown
Slowly now
In my tears
Walk away
quickly now
makes it easier
To deny our
Fears

John Lennon said
Let it be
But there are so many ways to
Let it be
Truth is
John Lennon  never met
You and me

This is enough
For me
Now
Let’s stop
And breath
This is enough
For you
now
I know it
To be true
So stop
Honesty
Let’s stop
Now
And breath

You said there was nothing
You wouldn’t do
I said there was nowhere
I wouldn’t go
So between us there was nothing
We wouldn’t chase
Let’s get on with it then
Blatantly
Between you and me
There is nothing
We can’t face.

Good God , did you see the news today?
Two people died in
Misery
Not sure how far that is from here
Ten hundred miles away
For sure
Maybe more
Surely, it can’t be too close
From those
We hold
Close
and love
The most?

I go to sleep each night
With the  faint shadow of the girl I used to be
And the sallow shadow of the girl I long to be
Sleeping safely
Either side of
Me

I loved you yesterday
I will love you tomorrow
However
Right here
Right now
We are deep into
Today

I am throwing a rope here
Grab it
If you can
Not sure if
I am strong enough to hold us
But God knows I will try
Who cares
We will go down together
Or rise
Phoenix like
Into tomorrow
And one more glorious day