There is
A strange rope around
My soul
Please don’t pull
I will break
into tiny pieces
Of human glass
Fragile
Easily shattered
Please don’t pull
I will
Break
I am fragile
I am lost

Your words pour over me like silk
smooth
easy
gentle to the touch
no matter they may be untrue
right here
right now
they flow like music
heavy intoxicating musk
smoldering like  lust

I miss you
not so much
the being with you
more the noise of you
the look of you
the late night nights with you
the carelessness of you
the talking out loud of you
the who gives a **** of you
the silence of you
the lovely of you
the truth of you
the I don’t want to be
anywhere else
of you
I guess
in all honesty
I miss the very
precious
and beautiful
essence of
you.

I
Want
To
Write
One
Word
For
You
And
Only
You
But
No
Word
Presents
Itself
As
Big
Enough

Baby steps, she said
My sweet dying Mother
Upon her unmade bed
Baby steps, she said
instead
I take huge wide dangerous
Leaps
Into the world
ahead

People often ask me
Where am I actually from
think I was born right here
right now
in this moment
Unsure
where
I hailed from.

She is old now
And says things she doesn’t mean
Although I remember when she was younger
And said things that were mean
She is old now
And calls me late at night,
Although I remember when she was younger
And scared me with her might
She is old now
And tells me she loves me
Although I remember when she was younger
and said no one would ever love me

No
I didn’t sign up for this
No
You got it wrong
Yes
I love the diamonds
Yes
I love the song
No
I didn’t sign up for this
Yes
I fell in love with you
No
I didn’t sign up for this
No
Yes......
No
Yes.....
Christ...
What a mess....,,

The world is made up
Of tiny tiny moments
That didn’t exist
until we rose
to resist

I am more lost now
Than when you found
me

What a shame
We never
Got to dance!

It was a freezing cold
New York  city night
you laid my love down on the sidewalk
in Chelsea
it was too heavy
to carry home
I get that
we hailed a taxi
and bundled it into the back

It is very cold in the world tonight
But not as cold as it could be
If you weren’t here
Standing slightly to the left
Holding out your hand
Silencing my howl

I could say Goodbye to you
Without pain
One time and ten score
If you could promise me
Our next hello
Will  even up the score

Let me leave you
as I found  you
happy and
unscarred

I am sitting here
wondering
If it is worth the effort
To go to the lovely neighbour’s  barbecue
And also why I spell the word barbecue
With a C and not a Q
probably
I think
most likely
It’s probably
just for
You

My life fell away from me
last night
I saw it fall
but didn’t reach to call
I watched it
tumble
and fall
crumble
stumble.
before stall
but
never once
did I ever
ever
feel the need
To catch
it
mid fall

We have such a journey
yet to go
We lost the map
years  ago

I believe
at some point
you’ve  got to decide
Whether to shout out loud
Or run home and hide

Buyer Beware
Is void
When you buy
In a sale

This love is good enough for me
this love will more than see me through
I’m pulling up the shutters
taking off my shoes
this love
your love
totally
hands down
this love
is
way
way
good enough
for me.

Don’t write the words
just  for the writing
or for yourself
or anyone else
Touch them first
Feel them
hold them
cherish them
for a beat
Caress them
carefully
feel them
own them
love them
a little
then choose
very carefully
very cautiously
which ones
you choose
to release
and write

I can do this dance all night
And deep into tomorrow
My feet refuse to give in
But my soul
My soul
God, my soul
Is just about
Done in

I see you flying
You think I am lying
Have I ever?
I see you
Flying
Do you think
I am lying?

I am not who I set out to me
That much i will agree
is true
The rest about me is
purely fallacy
I am not that girl
I wouldn’t dare
and honestly
in truth
I actually
wasn’t
even
there
Truth is I was
at home
washing my hair
So there!

Don’t look up
I’m leaving
Don’t catch my eye
We will surely cry
Don’t move
Don’t speak
Don’t flinch
Don’t catch my eye
Don’t look up
I’m leaving
Don’t look up
Don’t watch us die

Shall we just lay it all down here
I can wrap it up in a bow
So it looks good
You know that’s my gig
That’s the easy bit
The difficult bit
Twofold
Shall we just lay it all down here
And if we do
What colour bow?

So
this I know
for sure
I know absolutely nothing
about nothing
But I will jump
bare faced and brave
into my knowing of nothing
and say
it feels really good
knowing absolutely
nothing
about you

You are perfect for me
just promise
you will never
ever
tell me
don’t say it out loud
Don’t say
that knowledge
is absolute and
way way
too much
For a little old fashioned
small time girl
Like me
Or maybe.........

We stood there
You and I
on the cusp of everything
Two beautiful blond children
each on either side
Even then
I wanted to jump off
as we stood there
On the cusp of everything

There is no messiah
here tonight
Jesus left
What more did you
Expect ?

Just sorting through
the thrash
this morning
saw you there
from the corner of my eye
at this early hour
my goodness
who in the world
put you there?

I can write two hundred poems
and more
each one fine
I can write two hundred poems and more
All in the quest
Of writing just one
not just fine
but to you
and me
totally sublime
Perfectly in time
And without
A perfectly
predictable
******
rhyme

If it was just left to all of us
I think we could find a way
To live
And die
And pray
Each in our own way
I’m sure that  would be okay
With all of us
If only
We could find a way
To just let it be
Alone
With all of us.

There are no right words to say here
So I will just use mine instead
And hope they echo
Something someone once said
That made sense
for a minute
deep inside your head

Was there a warning bell I missed?
A buzzer
A loud shrill
To alert me
An alarm bell
to tell me
Of impending pain?
Incoming missile
Lie low
Danger afoot
Go slow
Was there a warning bell
I missed
Don’t trust
Go slow
Be alert
Lie low

Everything I know
About being real
About being true
I learned from
You

Don’t look to me for honesty
For honestly
Not sure if I can give it
Don’t look to me for truth
For truthfully
Not sure if I can do it
Don’t look to me for trust
For trust me
Not sure if I can find it
Don’t look to me for faith
For faithfully
Never seem to find it
Don’t look to me for love
For lovingly I’ll decline it
For everything else
I’m your woman !

Let’s take the long way home
For sure it’s darker
And a lot unknown
But who knows what we might discover
Under cover
Of the darkness
On the long way home

Nothing here is of interest to me
Is there something terribly wrong with me?
I pick up my things
and sneak back home
Desperately hoping
I will never hear from
anyone of you
ever
again

Do you believe in love
And death
And all the rest
If so
why do you fly
So far abreast from
the crest
Of the wave

He didn’t ask
And I didn’t say
I didn’t play
and he didn’t stay
our life fell into
unfolding
dismal
decadent
desperate
soul destroying
Decay

I am about
two minutes away
from falling in love
with you

I see you
Really
When it feels like no one
ever does
and no one
ever will
I see you
And only you
For what it’s worth
At this late hour
I see you
And I always will

You hang over me
Like a vague thought within a cloud
Like a word never said out loud
You hang over me
Envelop me
Devour me
Like a vague thought within
a cloud

I love you
means nothing
if it’s written
in sand
too close to the shore.