Why is nobody wandering
Lonely as a cloud
In my world
Why is about guts and pain and strain
Why are there no host of golden daffodils
Hovering
Just beneath my cloud?

If I had one wish
It would be that someone
someday
could really see me
feel me
touch me
hear me
If I had one wish
It would be that someone
someday
Could really know me
love me
hold me
just once
for once
If I had one wish
It would be that...........

This too will pass
He said
but the passing is slow
I said
look deep inside
He said
Too much to ask
I said

I am showered by words
Tonight
they  infiltrate my mind
refuse to ignite
hover
just a bit out of sight
they tempt me
delight  me
laugh at me
disappear on me
But mostly
strangely  
oddly
they will always
unexplainably
own me

What a shame
We never
Got to dance!

Know this
That I have tried
If you know nothing ever again
In your whole life
Believe this
Know this
That
I have honestly
desperately
tried

Let me be
one hundred percent honest
with you
I  have never
ever been
one hundred percent  honest
with anyone
including you
and that
my friend
is
one hundred percent true
honest
totally and completely
true
although I have never been
one hundred percent honest
or true
with anyone
including you.

I love you
means nothing
if it’s written
in sand
too close to the shore.

There is a small town girl
about me
that I lost
but still admire
when the lights go down
in New York City
is this really me
left out to dry
and for hire?

This house is way too big
for love
Our life
is way too busy for love
We need a place
smaller
Where we can
maybe find each other
a place
we feel safe
enough
To take a chance
on each other
again

I know you are
reaching out
I know you know
I am reaching too
It’s just our
reaching
is a bridge too far.

I was always a bit square
Desperately trying to fit into
A very round circle
I am still pushing
Seems like forever
Little square me
pushing
Exhausted
Into this very big
Too round
circle of life.

I know you said it didn’t matter
And I know I said that too
I know in grown up lives
It shouldn’t matter
But somehow that’s not true
I know you said we’d laugh about it
I think I said that too
So why can’t we raise a smile
as we sit here
Just we two?

Tell me what you you want me to say
And I will say it
on a loop
everyday
I guess it’s easier
This way
less pain
I’d say

Whoever you think I am
I am not
Whatever you think I say
I say not
Whenever you think you know
You do not
Whoever
Whatever
Whenever
Stop
turn the other side
Stop
Search
Listen

I would not buy this
Even if I had the money
Which I don’t
I would not buy you
Or you
Or you
I have no doubt
You would probably all sell yourselves
For the right amount of money
Even then
I would not buy you
I simply
Don’t have the stomach
For it

There is a dearth
Of good conversation around here
A lack of humor
A tumor
growing steadily
Can we cure it
Without insult?

nobody knew what the
question was
but they answered it
anyway.

You are fragrant
Because you are young
You walk through life
Like you belong
I want to stop you
Just for a beat
Tell you
The devil
Hovers
Beneath

Well
Thank you for asking
I would like to dance
Very much decoy
Lead on
sweet boy

If there is anything here at all
You want
Or desire
Take it
I am open
Like a war wound
On the battle floor
No one can reach
to save me
so I will lie here
forever
exposed
on this cold concrete floor

Tomorrow
we talk about
all the time
today slips
through our fingers
undefined,

Everything
I have ever said
Believe me
in all truth
I honestly
have
over said
to everyone else

I knew a girl who played a pink violin
So beautifully
That the world fell
Into time
with her uneven  tune
I knew a girl who played a pink violin
So violently
That the world stood still
And changed their mind
I knew a girl who played a pink violin
So silently
That the whole world
listened
heard unintentionally
Applauded gently
then quietly
peacefully
blissfully
Closed their eyes
And
universally
Fell into a
Very
Easy
Deep
And beautiful
Sleep

This sunrise
Is the best sunrise
Ever
And probably
the only sunrise
We will ever
see together

I think I can walk on water
I’m not Moses
I know
But still
Listen
I think I can walk on water
Fair enough
I haven’t tried yet
But still
Something tells me
That at a push
I think
I
could probably
Walk on water

There are so many ways
to get it right
So how come we miss them
Each and  every
night?

Every time you say goodnight
you take
Just another little
tiny bite
out of what could have been
and surely should have been
my total
and complete  
forever
hearts
Delight

I don’t know the answer
I don’t know if I should
I know the world will wound you
like I knew it always would
I want to run ten feet before you
Clear the way
Slay the scrub
But I don’t know which path you’re taking
Would you tell me if you could

Daylight fights to surrender
all of it’s precious light
Nighttime slowly wins
overcoming with all it’s might
daylight has to spend
each and every night
fighting to wake the world up
so we can rise and take flight

If I say nothing
and you say nothing
and we just  skim the outskirts of our
life
if we rise to a sun
we’re not brave enough to own
and we dance to a tune
we’ll never own
if we do it everyday
it might just be okay
if we dance long enough
if we dance
if we dance
convincingly
outrageously  
it may be
Yes it may be
maybe
It may be
just about
enough

Life won’t make you right
If anything
it will lead you
barefoot and ******
into a day
you are not yet ready to live
It won’t forgive
or allow any give
It will take you by the hand
then suddenly let go
disrupt the land
destroy your plan
Life won’t make you right
or alert you to the fight
It will push you
and push you
and keep pushing
until eventually
reluctantly
unsteadily
you take flight
fly well
fly straight
fly light.

The world fell apart today
I chose to stay together
It seemed safer
That way

I am more than this
and I think that
probably
You are
Too

My words are much too big
no one will receive them
so they bounce around the room
I certainly can’t retrieve them
so we sit and smile
eat cake
have tea
Ignore them
But they are out there now
*******
my big words
bouncing around
like mad things
Lovely
honest yet
Ignored

I love you
and I always always
probably will
I need you mostly
against my will
but still
I love you
and I always
always
probably
always
probably
will.

I refuse to allow
Yesterday
To stand in front of me
Today
And tell me
Who I should be
Tomorrow

Before the sun rises
You show me the
Light

Don’t try to save me
in truth
I’m sinking
faster than none
Don’t try to raise me
in truth
I’m screaming louder
than fun
spoiling your fun
Don’t try to reach me
In truth
We’re trying
Too hard
in truth
don’t try to save me
in truth
our time is
undeniably
undefinable
just about
heartbreakingly
done .

I have been diluted by life
I started out strong and concentrated
But bit by bit
I became a weird faint colour
of the paint I used to be
Okay for decoration
for year or two
But if you want longevity
Or consistency
Or value for money
Then honestly
I’m probably not the paint for you

If I was someone else
I would love you
Endlessly
And perfectly
Forever
Because you deserve
Nothing less
Than
Someone else

Clarity
Maybe just another word for
Shame
Reality
Maybe just another word for
Pain

Our land is rich in tears
cried from sorrow filled eyes
Our land is saturated in deep red blood
spilled for human lies
and battle cries
not worth the lies
Our land is sinking deeper
and deeper
into the abyss
Seduced and hypnotised
by the serpent’s gentle kiss

I will lay everything I try to be
Side by side
With everything you pretend to be
And defy anyone
to know the difference

Said he would build me
an honest home
and in fairness
he did

I
Want
To
Write
One
Word
For
You
And
Only
You
But
No
Word
Presents
Itself
As
Big
Enough

It is very cold in the world tonight
But not as cold as it could be
If you weren’t here
Standing slightly to the left
Holding out your hand
Silencing my howl