This is your tomorrow
please
live it with me.

this life is a privilege
but my god,
we pay for it
in tears.

I will pick up the pieces
sweep the pain away
decorate the hall
just as it was before
wallpaper over the feelings
clean the horror from the ceiling
but I can’t promise
there will be
a speedy
healing

I am absolutely nothing
Without the rest of you
Picking me up
Dusting me down
Carrying my pain
Propping me up
And keeping me
Sane

I will forget my words for tonight
the heavy in my heart
for at least one night
I will dance with you
barefoot
although it feels like broken glass
still
for at least one night
I will dance with you
tonight

I once knew a boy
Who laughed out loud
That’s how I found  him
In a dreary crowd!

I ask you to hear me
you say you do
and I believe you try
but you listen
with light ears
so the weight of my words
don’t keep you awake
all night.

Clarity is everything
When you can see clearly
When you can’t
It is simply a word
Tumbling around on someone else’s
Tongue

There’s a whole lot of nothing
happening in this house
Tonight

She reminds me everyday
of who I used to be
and how much I had
to say
What joy!

We have a little strand of
paradise
fragile
silvery
beautiful
rare
barely ours
hardly touch it
don’t strain
do not breath
or it will surely
break
into tiny fragments
of what our paradise
was supposed to
be

Yesterday fuels
Tomorrow
no matter how we fight
today excuses yesterday
no matter how we fight
every day
lays claim to both
No matter how we fight

I wondered what we'd do
when the words ran out
now it’s  run out
almost on cue
I wondered what we’d do
when the light began to fade
now it’s dark in here
makes me afraid
I wondered what we’d do
when we couldn’t rise
now we’re sinking
like a stone in the muir
I wondered what we’d do
when we couldn’t smile
now it’s looking
now it’s looking
like we need another
mile

and then
the music stopped
and so did we
who knew?
certainly, not me

I
seriously suspect
this is what love
is supposed to be
you and me
No questions
No answers
I seriously suspect
this is what love
was always meant to
be
If only
they knew

I need a moment
to collect my thoughts
breath in
collect my thoughts
I certainly don’t want to speak
out of sorts
okay, I’m there
I am calm
so here is what I have
to say
let me breath in
and calmly
and zen like
almost Buddhism  like
say to you
could you just do me a favour
and
**** the *******!

You left
without
conversation  
walked away
without
persuasion

you look at me
like I am the only girl
in the world
but I’m not
there are millions of us
look around
open your eyes
there are millions
of us
just milling around !

I have so much time
for those who are not
afraid
they live out loud
while I whisper my truth
from somewhere behind the
cloud.

this dance
has not been easy
you are heavy
on your feet
and I
too light sometimes
and yet
I will dance
this awkward dance
with you
a hundred times
and more
and then
a hundred times
again
and still more.

I know you feel like
you are falling
and failing
and you might be right
but you have such a long way
to go
I won’t reach out
and bring you home
yet….

and then
out of nowhere
he said
I like the thought
of loving you
forever
and I liked
the thought
of that too
maybe
someday
I might like
that thought
enough
to make it
just a little bit
true.

Sometimes when we talk
I am lost
In the joy
That you are
And always will be
The better part of me

the dark skies and gloom
you say are
in front of you
look like fairy tales
and sunny skies
to me
so put your happy hat on
jump outside
capture a cloud
and if you can’t
just put your
happy hat on
anyway
in case
I am right
and
you are wrong

we flit around
like  butterflies
feelings
like circles of smoke
disappear upon touch
emotions
like breath on a freezing morning
visible but unwelcome
we flit around
from table to table
words
like confetti at a wedding
abundant but never heard.

You are
exactly
where
you deserve
to be

The world is
not about
you and me
Much as we try to make it be
It’s bigger
and better
and about way
more important things
Than
simply
You
And
Me
and who we are desperately trying to
be

I have a gift
a superpower if you will
I can cry
without tears.

Just sorting through
the thrash
this morning
saw you there
from the corner of my eye
at this early hour
my goodness
who in the world
put you there?

I don’t want to say
goodbye
before I have left you
don’t want to see you
cry
before I die
   .

Who in the world
gets to sit and watch
the sun go down
in their own back yard
light glistening on the sea
and their love go down
with every move
of the money market
just me
I guess

Why?

Read it and weep
or don’t read it
and weep
anyway

After all
the love was cleared  away
the laughter and the joy
two hundred people
sweeping
all our dreams away
into black plastic sacks
smiling as they worked
never knowing the slack
yet smiling  knowingly
at our lack
even  after all that
we still
drove home
celebrated our success
Yes
unbelievably
even
knowing all that
we celebrated our success.

There is an unbreakable chain
between your heart
and mine
sometimes it strains
beneath the pain
then shows us out loud
the meaning
and power
the glory
of owning
the world  renowned
always sought after
unbreakable chain

you speak words
the world cannot
stand

The first little humans
who taught me that  I could
love
anyone
anywhere
anytime
anyhow
either way
whatever way
forever stay
it was you
all five of
you
so
Thank you

I tried
you lied
you tried
I lied
between
the trying
and
the lying
somehow
somewhere
in between
the lying and
the trying
somehow
somewhere
love
started
dying.

You will always be
the missing piece
In our three piece
jigsaw family.

I am not easy to
love
this much I know
I have let go of
love
this much I know
I have laughed at
love
this much I know
I have cried for
love
this much I know
I have screamed for
love
this much I know
I would die for
love
this much I know
I have loved for
love
this much I know
I have missed out on
love
this much I know
I  have known true
love
this much I know

Don’t judge me too harshly
for staying up  a bit too late
I have seen tomorrow
and it don’t look that
great

New York City
never scared me
it just asked
a little too much
of me

If there was anything I could do twice
Anything I could rewrite
It would be you two
because next time
I would be cool
er
ish!

if I lived
in a wide and expansive
field of cherries
I would wade out
walk the field
cut the cud
stay out all night
until I found
my friend laurence
there are bunches of cherries
everywhere
but , come on
let me be honest
Laurence's
are a little bit more
rare

Your words have a beauty
A cadence
A joy
A realness
A sorrow
A sadness
A joy
Can I drink tequila
In Mexico
Instead?

Let me speak
before you leave
at least let me tell you
who I really am.

when everybody left
you stayed
I like that
in a human

I miss you
not so much
the being with you
more the noise of you
the look of you
the late night nights with you
the carelessness of you
the talking out loud of you
the who gives a **** of you
the silence of you
the lovely of you
the truth of you
the I don’t want to be
anywhere else
of you
I guess
in all honesty
I miss the very
precious
and beautiful
essence of
you.

when the party was over
and the balloons hit the floor
when yet again
there was just me and you
I was glad as always
that you were just you
and I was just me
annoying as that can be
to the masses
in all honesty
Who the **** else would
we  ever want to be?