I miss you
god, here  it is.
now, at last
it’s been said
out loud
no words
no rhymes
can describe
how much I miss you
or
who I am
without you
or
the fact
that
I miss you
here it is
out loud
at last
I miss you
now it’s said.

There are so many words
inside me
dormant
To light a match
might ignite
and burn
the whole world
down
tonight

Pour me another life
I will drink
to that
all night
and deep into
tomorrow
I suspect
you probably will too
Cheers!

I am free falling into winter
summer echos
in my head
I cannot cling on
to sunny days
dusty evenings
romantic haze
I cannot prevent the chill
the hail crashing over the hill
I am free falling into winter
crying ice tears
against my will.

when the party was over
and the balloons hit the floor
when yet again
there was just me and you
I was glad as always
that you were just you
and I was just me
annoying as that can be
to the masses
in all honesty
Who the **** else would
we  ever want to be?

I’ve searched this house
ten times or more
every cupboard
every  door
I just can’t find us
anywhere.

let love go
and I will too
let go of me
and
I promise
I can also
let go of you.

Evening calls
But not for me
It creeps in gently
almost silently
to comfort the lost
and lonely
Speckled navy blue caresses
ease the worried mind
arms so gentle and secure
they leave the sad behind
Evening calls
envelops the mind
with soft silky silhouettes
of saner settled times
Evening calls
each one of you
forward
faintly
to sunnier safer times

don’t wake me up
unless
you have something
new
to say

Whoever you think I am
I am not
Whatever you think I say
I say not
Whenever you think you know
You do not
Whoever
Whatever
Whenever
Stop
turn the other side
Stop
Search
Listen

and in the blink of an eye
we lived
that  same old lie

This house is way too big
for love
Our life
is way too busy for love
We need a place
smaller
Where we can
maybe find each other
a place
we feel safe
enough
To take a chance
on each other
again

I would surrender all of this
And my ambition
For just one last glimpse
Of the girl I should have been

I once knew a boy
Who laughed out loud
That’s how I found  him
In a dreary crowd!

There is a small town girl
about me
that I lost
but still admire
when the lights go down
in New York City
is this really me
left out to dry
and for hire?

Almost everyday
A million words tumble off my tongue
A million smiles
I give out to everyone
I come home exhausted
Overwrought
And overcome
Completely overdone
trying to pretend
I can be someone
To everyone

Sometimes when we talk
I am lost
In the joy
That you are
And always will be
The better part of me

this life is a privilege
but my god,
we pay for it
in tears.

words are just words
letters strung together
that someone sometime
said made sense
and no one disagreed
so someone else
sometime , somewhere
decided
if they fit together
in an agreeable fashion
its poetry
its not , my loves,
it’s just words
letters strung together
that someone , sometime
said
made sense and
no one
disagreed
and that , my friends
is all this is
letters strung into
words .

I think I know the
meaning of No
when stakes are high
and morale is low
I think I know
the pain of resist
when lights are high
and pain exists
I think I know
how far people go
when desperation hits
And your core is in bits

Is this it then
Is this
the best we can do?
Me and you
Come on now
Dig deep
we can do tomorrow
way better than
we did  
today.

I am absolutely nothing
Without the rest of you
Picking me up
Dusting me down
Carrying my pain
Propping me up
And keeping me
Sane

when dawn
broke
so did I

These words mean nothing
Unless read
By you

I have so much time
for those who are not
afraid
they live out loud
while I whisper my truth
from somewhere behind the
cloud.

when someone says
I love you
take it
embrace it
silence the questions
in your heart
when someone says
I love you
silence
the young child
within
you have lost.

I am showered by words
Tonight
they  infiltrate my mind
refuse to ignite
hover
just a bit out of sight
they tempt me
delight  me
laugh at me
disappear on me
But mostly
strangely  
oddly
they will always
unexplainably
own me

This is your tomorrow
please
live it with me.

If there was anything I could do twice
Anything I could rewrite
It would be you two
because next time
I would be cool
er
ish!

I have too much to explain
I cannot
For if I did it would spill out onto this table
Too much
For you
My blood
Bright red
Oozing through the Waterford glass and silver
People would think it red wine and laugh
I would see
My life
Spread out
Before me

stay exactly
as you stand
today
for me
you are perfect
and I know stuff!

There is a dearth
Of good conversation around here
A lack of humor
A tumor
growing steadily
Can we cure it
Without insult?

I love my boy
I love my girl
Just not sure who I am cheering for
tonight!

every word
in this conversation
has been said before
they fall exhaustingly
at the door
verbs
dying of boredom
on the floor
vowels
wishing  they were dead
sentences
refusing to finish
pronouns
dying at our sound
adjectives
don't even show up
every word
in this conversation
my love
has all been said
before.

One
single
word
could
change
the
world
write
it!

This too will pass
He said
but the passing is slow
I said
look deep inside
He said
Too much to ask
I said

I would not buy this
Even if I had the money
Which I don’t
I would not buy you
Or you
Or you
I have no doubt
You would probably all sell yourselves
For the right amount of money
Even then
I would not buy you
I simply
Don’t have the stomach
For it

Tell me what you you want me to say
And I will say it
on a loop
everyday
I guess it’s easier
This way
less pain
I’d say

You will always be
the missing piece
In our three piece
jigsaw family.

Oh hello
Sorry
Who are you looking for?
No trouble
Do come in
Who are you looking for ?
Oh yes...... I know who you mean
No.........sorry
She left here years ago
nobody really knows
whatever
Became of her .....

I know you
but
you don’t know me
I know every thought going through your
head
You know me
but
I don’t know you
you know every though going through my
head

Tomorrow
we talk about
all the time
today slips
through our fingers
undefined,

I think I can walk on water
I’m not Moses
I know
But still
Listen
I think I can walk on water
Fair enough
I haven’t tried yet
But still
Something tells me
That at a push
I think
I
could probably
Walk on water

I refuse to allow
Yesterday
To stand in front of me
Today
And tell me
Who I should be
Tomorrow

Everything
I have ever said
Believe me
in all truth
I honestly
have
over said
to everyone else

Know this
That I have tried
If you know nothing ever again
In your whole life
Believe this
Know this
That
I have honestly
desperately
tried

Why is nobody wandering
Lonely as a cloud
In my world
Why is about guts and pain and strain
Why are there no host of golden daffodils
Hovering
Just beneath my cloud?