if you will let
the words you
say
stand still
and strong
then
so will I
I will dance with
my words
deep into tonight
and way into
our unknown
tomorrow

There is no safe rock
No sane mind
There is no easy route
do not look behind
There is no solid block
No ticking clock
There is no way forward
Do not break the lock

Do not let anyone
ever
tell you
you are not okay
you talk too loud
you have too much to say
you live in a cloud
maybe you do
what’s the taboo?
but do not let anyone
ever
wherever
ever
tell you what to do
or you have too much to say
except
sometimes
maybe me!

I will stay with you
in the dark
because
at other times
and in other days
in other ways
you showered me with
your  light
when you had it.

I think
I am so completely lost now
without your face
Your embrace
too far away
your smile distant
your words
nonexistent
your presence
forever
Omniscient

I hailed a taxi
to take me two blocks away
from my life
then realised
you were waiting there
and
everywhere

I used to question God
and he didn’t answer
now I question you
and you don’t answer
does that mean
I am the one who found God
on earth ?

I see you now
in the cold light
of day
and I remember
how much
we have
forgotten

I loved you
way before I met you
I still love you
way after you
walked away and
left me

I would surrender all of this
And my ambition
For just one last glimpse
Of the girl I should have been

I am laughing out loud
this much is true
Please know
I am dying inside

Last one to leave
switch the lights off
one thing for.sure
it will never
be
me

Sometimes
love
disguises itself
like someone
you used to trust
but in between
you grew up

I am just a girl
standing in front of a boy
and asking him
to wake the ****
up

Nothing
Will
Ever
Compare
With
Sitting
Here
Just
Being
Totally
Square

these are the days
I know you don’t believe it
in all honesty
neither do I
yet still
somehow
is it possible that
these are the days?

Can I fall in love with you
again
can I turn the last page back
again
can I take last night back
again
can I rewrite tomorrow
again
can I unsay my words
again
can I play happy ever after
again
can I remember who we are
again
can I see you anew
again
can I be me for you
again
can I fall in love with you
again

Tonight
I would like to topple the world
so we all fell out
into the abyss
together
and we were all scared
together
no colour no creed
in the mist of all that fear
I would grab your hand
I know I would
and I know
You would grab mine
too

we speak the same language
yet can’t understand
a single word
we are trying to say
to each other.

stay exactly
as you stand
today
for me
you are perfect
and I know stuff!

Something in my heart
and a little bit my head too
tells me
this is absolutely the wrong thing
to do
the B road
the wrong road
I hear my Momma’s warning
I see myself
tomorrow morning
but I’m going  in anyway
and I’m going in deep
see you on the other side
of the wrong thing to do

I love you
mostly
because of
who I am
when you hold my
hand.

and then
just as I dressed
in an unusual style
flicked my tongue
over my newly bought smile
looked in the mirror
thought
okay. this ain’t a trial
you called
like I always knew
you would.

All I can do
as the red *** sun rises
is smile
at the night we just had
even  given
it’s guises

Where in the world
could someone find someone like you
who needs to be applauded for simply
getting out of bed
in the morning
Where in the world
could someone find someone like you
who needs to be adored from
midnight till dawning
Where in the world
could someone find someone like you
who when people are talking
replies with loud yawning
Where in the world
could someone find someone like you
Where in the world
Where in the world?

You are the song
I always wanted to sing
And the words
I could never quite begin
Late at night
Alone
amidst all this din

We stood there
You and I
on the cusp of everything
Two beautiful blond children
each on either side
Even then
I wanted to jump off
as we stood there
On the cusp of everything

don’t wake me up
unless
you have something
new
to say

I tell them everyday
Be careful who you give your heart to
But they give it anyway
I can’t complain
I did the same

Yes , okay
I failed you
and everyone
we ever knew
according to you
yes, okay
I failed you
does that make me
less than you
or just a little more
dishonesty honest
than everyone
we ever knew
including you?

I’ve searched this house
ten times or more
every cupboard
every  door
I just can’t find us
anywhere.

I need a moment
to collect my thoughts
breath in
collect my thoughts
I certainly don’t want to speak
out of sorts
okay, I’m there
I am calm
so here is what I have
to say
let me breath in
and calmly
and zen like
almost Buddhism  like
say to you
could you just do me a favour
and
**** the *******!

Do not fear
do not rise
I will not linger
beyond sunrise
my words are spent
our  life unkempt
my love for you
religious
and
redempt

When there is nothing else left
I suspect
I will see you
Exhausted but still breathing
Trudging wearily
Over the precipice
To find us again
Know this
I will be here
Still breathing too

I know you think
the shadows are
falling upon you now
but if you turn your head
right to left
left to right
maybe they fall
different upon you now
perhaps they are not
shadows
just falling lights
yet to be lit.
falling upon you now

I have no plan
neither do you
at our age
everyone has a plan
it’s  the least we can do
to prove
it was worth
the laughter and the pain
and yet
we have no plan
what’s going on
tricky to explain
for god’s  sake
someone
anyone
make a ****** plan!

don’t write me a letter
you know
I never learned how to read

when you came
to take me home I
went willingly
took your hand
easily
then you made
too many left turns
led me down
too many
blind alleys
left me more lost
that I was before
you came and said
let me take you
home.
I am safe
and so are you
you are home.

you left
and then
I left
there was probably
only
five minutes
anger between
us

He didn’t ask
And I didn’t say
I didn’t play
and he didn’t stay
our life fell into
unfolding
dismal
decadent
desperate
soul destroying
Decay

oh my god,
you are so self assured
even at this late hour
let me say something
even at this late hour
I know
nothing
I have learnt
nothing
even at this late hour
I still
know nothing but
oh my god
you are so self assured
how do you do that
even
at this late hour.

The winds are gale force
as they have been
before
but this time
they are heading right
to our door
I am ready
I think
I can handle the ride
know where to hide
do you?

It is the eve of reckoning
I fear
Speak now
Speak out
Speak loud
or quietly
suffocate in your brothers
sighs

somebody
pour  me a drink
pour me a life
pour me a lie
somebody
tell me
it’s okay to cry.

Let my weakness
make you
strong

Happy new year to those of you on this site
who have read and encouraged me this year
and more importantly thank you for writing words that I have loved
and will remember
and on we go!
Here’s to 2024!
See you on the other side!

inky sunsets
and a sun so high
girls that fly
and a  tense goodbye
unfulfilled promises
dreams let down
waves on the shore
souls that feel sore
pain in your heart
a struggle to part
I know the words
that make a poem
go high
just can’t write them
tonight
it would probably make
me cry.

I tried
you lied
you tried
I lied
between
the trying
and
the lying
somehow
somewhere
in between
the lying and
the trying
somehow
somewhere
love
started
dying.