Those were long languid days
Sparkling wines
and beautiful children
overhanging trees
and flowering baskets
And there we were
living amongst this
beauty
and light
and sunshine
Easy days that lingered into the night
Blond dogs that caught the light
You were easy to love
I was restless
I was stormy
And I was always
fighting
against
being
yours.

Do not drip feed  me
your love
I am not an infant
I can walk.

There’s a whole lot of nothing
happening in this house
Tonight

I was happy
deep in my heart
the first night I knew you
the knew of you
still
flows
effortlessly
all over me

I wondered what we'd do
when the words ran out
now it’s  run out
almost on cue
I wondered what we’d do
when the light began to fade
now it’s dark in here
makes me afraid
I wondered what we’d do
when we couldn’t rise
now we’re sinking
like a stone in the muir
I wondered what we’d do
when we couldn’t smile
now it’s looking
now it’s looking
like we need another
mile

Do not let anyone
ever
tell you
you are not okay
you talk too loud
you have too much to say
you live in a cloud
maybe you do
what’s the taboo?
but do not let anyone
ever
wherever
ever
tell you what to do
or you have too much to say
except
sometimes
maybe me!

You were never
a party
worth staying up for.

Why?

You left
without
conversation  
walked away
without
persuasion

The day fell away from us
glistened slightly
before decent
Into a murky blue night
Lit by the not too distant lights
of a city
that tempted
strange delights
We held firm
In our murky blue light
Far away
From the city
that tempted
us
each and
every night

Read it and weep
or don’t read it
and weep
anyway

I know you feel like
you are falling
and failing
and you might be right
but you have such a long way
to go
I won’t reach out
and bring you home
yet….

if you will let
the words you
say
stand still
and strong
then
so will I
I will dance with
my words
deep into tonight
and way into
our unknown
tomorrow

I have a gift
a superpower if you will
I can cry
without tears.

Something in my heart
and a little bit my head too
tells me
this is absolutely the wrong thing
to do
the B road
the wrong road
I hear my Momma’s warning
I see myself
tomorrow morning
but I’m going  in anyway
and I’m going in deep
see you on the other side
of the wrong thing to do

I overheard you phone
conversation
turned quickly so
not to hear
things I shouldn’t
but I still heard
all the bad about
me

If I die young
which we both know can’t happen now
do me a favour
lie to everyone
tell them
I died too young
nobody will disagree
do t for fun
do it just for me!

Who in the world
gets to sit and watch
the sun go down
in their own back yard
light glistening on the sea
and their love go down
with every move
of the money market
just me
I guess

how will I remember
what love feels like
when days are too long
devoid of song
and sound
how will I remember
what touch feels like
when rooms are dark
the light too stark
how will I remember
what real feels like
when words are few
and I don’t have you

In someone’s eyes
I am just a girl
ordinary
in your eyes
I am extraordinary
I will resist the question
Why

It is quiet now
The day has left
Shadows appear
As if by request
I am quiet now
My love has left
Ghosts appear
As if by bequest

Do not inch towards me
if you cannot fight for me
I have been here
too many
times
My boundaries well defined
my edges sharp and fine
Do not inch towards me
Unless you are certain
you are prepared
To bleed before you dine

Let my weakness
make you
strong

New York City
never scared me
it just asked
a little too much
of me

Sometimes I do wonder
Who you are
Where
You are
Imagine if we could just
meet
for a beat
I think our flesh
would refresh
Our
minds
And leave our
many doubts
Behind

This is a hand
I never wanted to play
these are the  words
I never wanted to say
you are the human
I never
ever  sought to shame
and yet…….

I don’t know where
I’m going
but I know
I can’t leave you
behind

Where do you go when
you leave me?
to a land of clear and clarity
is that honestly
so much better
that sitting here
totally
confused
and cluttered
with me?

I am instantly exhausted
by the thought
and the pain
of trying to explain
that your  thinking
Is inexcusably
and infuriating
flawed

You do know
don’t you?
that all of this
means nothing
if we don’t both love it
if we are both not
in all honesty
true
you do know that
don’t you?

If i could scream
out loud
like i scream
inside
Maybe some random
passerby
might not dismiss
the noise
as a weird animal
cry

this
I know
is way more
important
than me.

I have no plan
neither do you
at our age
everyone has a plan
it’s  the least we can do
to prove
it was worth
the laughter and the pain
and yet
we have no plan
what’s going on
tricky to explain
for god’s  sake
someone
anyone
make a ****** plan!

I
seriously suspect
this is what love
is supposed to be
you and me
No questions
No answers
I seriously suspect
this is what love
was always meant to
be
If only
they knew

when you came
to take me home I
went willingly
took your hand
easily
then you made
too many left turns
led me down
too many
blind alleys
left me more lost
that I was before
you came and said
let me take you
home.
I am safe
and so are you
you are home.

I never thought I would end up here
with someone
like you
someone
almost too good to be true
Who knew?

Nothing
Will
Ever
Compare
With
Sitting
Here
Just
Being
Totally
Square

let me hear you laugh
let me hear you cry
let me watch you die
into another evening
without try
let me cry
without voice
with no invoice
in the post
let me try.

I went to sleep last night
with someone
I hardly know
I woke up this morning
with someone
I don’t want to know
I went to sleep last night
like I always do
alone.

I love that
You love me
And my family too
Makes life easier
And means
in the end
I won’t  have
to leave you
And us two

we speak the same language
yet can’t understand
a single word
we are trying to say
to each other.

The world is
not about
you and me
Much as we try to make it be
It’s bigger
and better
and about way
more important things
Than
simply
You
And
Me
and who we are desperately trying to
be

I know you think
the shadows are
falling upon you now
but if you turn your head
right to left
left to right
maybe they fall
different upon you now
perhaps they are not
shadows
just falling lights
yet to be lit.
falling upon you now

I am a mother
You are a son
Isn’t it about time
Our life begun?

Let me speak
before you leave
at least let me tell you
who I really am.

Don’t judge me too harshly
for staying up  a bit too late
I have seen tomorrow
and it don’t look that
great

After all
the love was cleared  away
the laughter and the joy
two hundred people
sweeping
all our dreams away
into black plastic sacks
smiling as they worked
never knowing the slack
yet smiling  knowingly
at our lack
even  after all that
we still
drove home
celebrated our success
Yes
unbelievably
even
knowing all that
we celebrated our success.

You do know
the best I can give you
is a bad reputation

and then
just as I dressed
in an unusual style
flicked my tongue
over my newly bought smile
looked in the mirror
thought
okay. this ain’t a trial
you called
like I always knew
you would.