I am swimming in a  sea of you
I am drowning in too much of you
I am climbing the Everest of you
I am delving into the deep of you
I am inhaling the worst of you
I am crying for the loss
and the best of you

Please don’t get lost in
yesterday
join us
celebrate
today

Hey
I get it
We are going nowhere
Who cares
Let’s go there

Such a deep pond, this
but nobody pushed me in
I dived with joy
I thought it would be
such cooling water
endorsing my joy
I never thought
never realised
I would end up
gasping for air.

I  am not sure
and I have travelled
a lot
met every version
of us
and me
and you
and more
and still
I am not sure

You are
too close
to my heart
Back the
back off!

I still believe
somewhere
very deep on the inside
of you
lives the someone
I once knew

remind me tomorrow
what I said last night
give me a chance
before you get inhale the pain
man up
and love me again.

Evening falls like navy blue silk
sublimely gentle
upon our skin
Touching gently
the person within
Seeking answers
we could never
Begin

There are seven wonders of the world
I sat here tonight
and had dinner
with three of them.

Can you honestly
still love me
when you don’t quite get the point
of me
anymore

This might just be the end
hold your breath
we’re sinking fast
hold your breath
we’re going down
hold your breath
and pray

In a world of indifference
you made a difference
at least
to me
and that
is worth the
difference

I see you
and you look like home
I turn away
but home is always where
the heart is.

There is a man in my life
says he knows who I am
even knows my name
calls me by it everyday
how strange
I don’t know his name
although
I might have
maybe even would have
probably could have
if………

Let the phone ring
let the dog bark
let the sun rise
then sink
let the day dawn
let the youths yawn
let my mind spawn
too far
let the birds sing
let the drunk get
to his car
let this mistake
only take us
so far

What are you talking about
It doesn’t matter
You said
What are you talking about
It’s all that matters
I said
What are you both shouting about
Our child said.

I should forget
but I haven’t
I should remember
but I don’t
I should see
but I’m blind
I should hear
but I’m deaf
I should go
but I stay
I should know
but I don’t.

I am a tourist
in your life but
I lost my map
and my appetite
at the last beauty spot

nothing
before
has ever
been
quite
as
clean
as this team

words drip
easily
like melted ice
from my lips
drown
the words
I am so desperately
trying
to say.

This should be beautiful
and real
instead
it’s difficult
and steel

None of the love you gave me
was good enough
I know you tried
you know I cried,
but none of the love
you gave me
was ever good
enough

Thank you for
the ‘likes’
the ‘loves’
the ‘reposts’
Would you like to know me
instead
or would that be a little too real
inside your head?

There is a long queue
behind me
and a huge pain inside me
difference is
I loved you
unlike most of those behind me
I believe
the sadness is
you called this one
too early

You are everyone
and everything
I ever wanted to be
it would always be a reach
for someone like me
but just living with you
elevates me

our love
which was once
an event
a waterfall
a crescendo
splendid enough that
people would queue
for hours
just to to see it
I get it
I would queue too
to see
our love
our love
is now just
a trickle
that no one
is interested enough
to get out of bed for
it’s just not
that special
anymore
in all honesty
it’s just not that interesting
to anyone
not even to
to you and me
anymore

and after we slept
we awoke
as is the path
to a tomorrow
of division
same species
all human
growling at each other
in the dark

I remember
the unrelenting chill
and freeze
of that cold December snow
as we trudged on together
through bitter biting winds
you tried to tell me
your burden was too heavy
you had to set it down  
I  couldn’t hear you
my burden was too heavy
too
and the winds howled
hurling horrific blows
and the cold sold my soul
as we trudged on together
one step after another
through that final awful too cold
December snow.

I have missed
the very best parts
of you

I think our love
a little bit saggy now
no dancing beneath the stars
no hanging in late night bars
more sunrise
than sunset
but still
I’m hanging with
you!

I remember
that deep New Jersey
December snow
my burden was too heavy to carry
I tried to lay it down
as we
trudged thru the snow
pick up your feet
you said
we have a long way to go .

I ask you to say something
anything will do
throw me a bone
but I suspect
your words
are torn
like your life
autumnal leaves
scattered
and torn

afterwards
I regretted the words
that I had said
but not half as much as
I regretted
the life
that I had led.

My fingertips
tell me
how much I miss
human touch

I loved you
yesterday
or at least
I tried
but you were you
yesterday
or at least
you tried

to be near you
sometimes
scares me

There is nothing bad
between us now  
all the bad has
been spilled from us
upon this  floor
gathered up
and flown away
by birds of prey
leaving us
lightheaded
and wanting
neigh

Leave all of your love
strewn carelessly
across the floor
anything else
I would abhor

In a sea
Of sameness
I would
Always
Choose you!

I used to question God
and he didn’t answer
now I question you
and you don’t answer
does that mean
I am the one who found God
on earth ?

I walk in in
as you walk out
I speak loud
as you fade out

I see you
in all honesty
it’s murky
but if I move slightly
to the right
and squint my eyes
I think
I see you
albeit
slightly a
a bit too much
to the right.

Maybe you found me
just to show me
how good I could be
or
to give me a reason
to not be
so much like me

Eventually
the lies disappear
like smoke upon touch
the truth appears
without warning
that it could ever mean so much
eventually
morning dawns
from a night filled with tears
eventually
without the fanfare
life starts again
to everyone’s surprise
we awake
again
a little embarrassed
again
to a glorious
and  unexpected
sunrise.

I will stay with you
in the dark
because
at other times
and in other days
in other ways
you showered me with
your  light
when you had it.

Imagine
what we could have been
if we had only
tried

Your love is
like tiny shards of broken glass
it will pierce  my heart
eventually