You have left a stain
on my soul
and my home
like blood
it seeps endlessly
effortlessly
freely
into my bones

You scattered
little bits and pieces
of yourself
across the floor last night
as you stormed off
to bed
indignant and in pain
I have gathered them up
will keep them safe
You will reclaim them
sometime
somewhere
hopefully from a
place
devoid of pain.

words drip
easily
like melted ice
from my lips
drown
the words
I am so desperately
trying
to say.

If you are not sure where I am
can’t find me anywhere
not sure who I am
anymore
read my words
I’m in there
somewhere
swimming for the surface
Read.

I see you
in all honesty
it’s murky
but if I move slightly
to the right
and squint my eyes
I think
I see you
albeit
slightly a
a bit too much
to the right.

Thank you
for seeing
me
when I am blind

You and I
are going nowhere
I say
fair enough
you say
let’s go there
anyway.

Are we just
two people
who have given up
on each other ?

I will leave now
Quietly
Without fuss
But I want you to know
I am leaving
Just for us

It’s just another morning
that looks a lot
like yesterday.

you said you
didn’t mean it
I guess
that makes it
all okay.

I am slow
to the table of love
I am always
a beat behind
beautiful
but less inclined.

You left before me
but
you didn’t take me with
you

Can I just say
last night
I fell in love with you
all over again
and I suddenly remembered
when

Night is closing in
I see that
yet I have ten thousand words sill
inside my head
what do I do with them?

I love
the little bits of life
that present themselves
to me
unexpectedly
in a carpark
on a rainy
Tuesday night

Leave all of your love
strewn. carelessly
across the floor
anything less
you know
I would abhor

Evening falls like navy blue silk
sublimely gentle
upon our skin
Touching gently
the person within
Seeking answers
we could never
Begin

I went to sleep last night
with someone
I hardly know
I woke up this morning
with someone
I don’t want to know
I went to sleep last night
like I always do
alone.

I know you couldn’t leave me
if you tried
You know I couldn’t leave you
if I tried
and so the golden ink
of trying
burns sacred scars
upon our souls.

I lost love today
was  sure I put in my pocket
before I left home
wrapped up and tight
saw it when I found my keys
smiling at me
reliable and bright
parked the car
and it was there
secure and steady
always made me heady
had it thru the day
because I was light
and a little gay
came back home without a care
now I can’t find it anywhere

words are just words
letters strung together
that someone sometime
said made sense
and no one disagreed
so someone else
sometime , somewhere
decided
if they fit together
in an agreeable fashion
its poetry
its not , my loves,
it’s just words
letters strung together
that someone , sometime
said
made sense and
no one
disagreed
and that , my friends
is all this is
letters strung into
words .

I know I see things
differently
I live in a paler shade
of grey
where it’s not quite so important
what you have to say

Look at your father
laugh a bit
if you will
but know this
if you know nothing else
ever
as long as you live
this
is the purest
most honest
love
you
for the rest
of your life
will ever
know!

Hello!
Hello!
Hello Miss
hang on
Hello Miss
hang on
Sorry
so sorry
hang on
I think you dropped this
as you disembarked the train
I usually wouldn’t have bothered
except
I think it might be your
heart.

You are
I am
some
where
in between
it
became
no mans
land,

I used to wake up
slightly alive
now I wake up
go straight
to your cot
and silence both our cries

Tonight
Right here
Right now
I miss you
Probably more than I will miss you
yesterday
more than I missed you
tomorrow
right here
Right now
I miss you
I miss you
but
I quieten my screams

Stop
bleeding all over me
Stop
crying tears I can’t see
Stop
asking me
to belong to you

I am a long way away
from your pain
I know that
I can’t share it
I know that
I am such a long  way away
from your pain
I know that
yet somehow
I feel it anyway.

The best of you
bleeds effortlessly
into the worst of me
so that I wake up
refreshed
relaxed
resultant
resilient
and free.

I ask you to say something
anything will do
throw me a bone
but I suspect
your words
are torn
like your life
autumnal leaves
scattered
and torn

the power of us
the joy of us
the precious of us
the pure good of us
the easy of us
the lovely of us
the worth of us
the best of us
has somehow
become lesser
tangled
confused
and lost
somewhere deep in
the complicated and confused effort of
trying to be
just the two of us .


but still
I’m going nowhere
pour me another song
and I’ll sing you another heartache!

I am drowning in your
laughter
saturated by your
love
amazed by your joie de vivre
enchanted by your
dance
impressed by your last
stance
weakened
by your glance

Why am I laughing ?
because I still can.

Listen to me now
I may say same words tomorrow
But not in the same way
Listen to them now
The cadence
The flow
Listen to them now
Their rhyming deep and low
Listen to my words
Beating deeper
Deeper
forever slow

we laugh
the loudest
and fall the loudest
and hurt the loudest
and rise the loudest
of anyone I know

I watch my girl
claw herself upward
slowly and painfully
on the greased pole
of her dreams
while others
take the stairs.

Thanks
lovely but
honestly
not  quite enough

I love the bits of  you
you can’t see
because
I suspect
you shield
the world
from seeing them too

It seems too easy to say
I love you
I want to say I love
the total uniqueness of you
the difference of you
the boldness of you
the look of you
the laugh out loud of you
the kindness of you
the difference from me of you
the sameness of me of you
the I will do it anyway of you
the **** the world of you
the arrogance of you
the humility of you
the soft spaces of you
the late  night tears of you
it seems too easy to say I love you
the perfect perfectness of you
but hey
I want to say it anyway!

we have overstayed
our welcome
in each other’s lives

I will only ever
fall back
as  far
as you
you can
catch
me

I am offering my hand
and even now
I know it is not enough
to save us
but still
I am offering my hand
reach out
know this
I will lose it
before
I will deny this

the  garnish glittery
golden bits of me
faded effortlessly into
the subtle serious
silver bits of you
smelted for a bit
and became
slowly solid
indestructible undefinably
bronze.

Let me just settle
your presence
upon my skin
let me just understand
this is a begin.

I will leave your love here
in the graveyard of regret
because I cannot take it with me
the burden
the memory
the joy
the pain
the  love
the almost
the lovely
too heavy
for my already
heartbroken
weakened heart.

the conversation around here
is a long time dead
no one mourned it’s passing

We are so close to happy now
It’s almost obscene
We are so close to happy now
We may never have to come
clean
We are so close
to
happy
now

This is not about
you and me
but more about
who
we think we should
be