A love is for life
not just
for Valentine’s Day !

I don’t miss you being here
telling me
what to do
I miss you being here
showing me
how to be

Can you honestly
still love me
when you don’t quite get the point
of me
anymore

I will loosen my hold on you
no questions
no answers
if you will too
imagine
we could both fly free
imagine
the people we could
be

I’m not so impressed with
the big parts of you
but I am totally and completely
in love
with the little bits of you
the crumbs of you
left scattered on the ground
when the world
decides
it is done with you

You left before me
but
you didn’t take me with
you

In a world of indifference
you made a difference
at least
to me
and that
is worth the
difference

We all knew who Thaddeus was
The handsome boy from the wrong side of town
We all knew who Thaddeus was
Sweet of tongue  with an easy smile
We all knew who Thaddeus was
The day the Clement boys came to town
We all knew who Thaddeus was
When he stood in their way
To save young Miss Brown
We all knew who Thaddeus was
When the Clement boys put him in the ground
we all knew our silence would **** him
One way or the other
The Clement boys, Miss Brown
And the rest of us who inhabit
This global town

Hey
I get it
We are going nowhere
Who cares
Let’s go there

give me back my smile
I am miserable without it
you took it with you
by mistake
at least
that’s what you said

Please don’t get lost in
yesterday
join us and
celebrate
your today

nothing
before
has ever
been
quite
as
clean
as this team

I am not who I pretend to be
Although I do it very  well
Don’t you agree?

If I could just
for one minute
truly be myself
and pour me into the world
undiluted
I would poison
everyone I touched
I would ****
the pure
and obscure
I would flood the world
with truth
and pictures
and memories
of their youth

This is not about
you and me
but more about
who
we think we should
be

I am swimming in a  sea of you
I am drowning in too much of you
I am climbing the Everest of you
I am delving into the deep of you
I am inhaling the worst of you
I am crying for the loss
and the best of you

When did the
snow
turn into pain?

I still believe
somewhere
very deep on the inside
of you
lives the someone
I once knew

Thank you for
the ‘likes’
the ‘loves’
the ‘reposts’
Would you like to know me
instead
or would that be a little too real
inside your head?

Can any one of us
write words that
truly
mean anything
to someone else
or are we destined to
only write words
selfishly
for ourselves

My fingertips
tell me
how much I miss
human touch

I am a tourist
in your life but
I lost my map
and my appetite
at the last beauty spot

There is a long queue
behind me
and a huge pain inside me
difference is
I loved you
unlike most of those behind me
I believe
the sadness is
you called this one
too early

I  am not sure
and I have travelled
a lot
met every version
of us
and me
and you
and more
and still
I am not sure

Stop
bleeding all over me
Stop
crying tears I can’t see
Stop
asking me
to belong to you

Such a deep pond, this
but nobody pushed me in
I dived with joy
I thought it would be
such cooling water
endorsing my joy
I never thought
never realised
I would end up
gasping for air.

I walk in in
as you walk out
I speak loud
as you fade out

Evening falls like navy blue silk
sublimely gentle
upon our skin
Touching gently
the person within
Seeking answers
we could never
Begin

Beautiful
is misinterpreted
everyday
Beautiful
is strived for
everyday
Beautiful
is cried for
everyday
Beautiful
is before you
everyday
Beautiful
is lost to you
everyday
Reach!

This should be beautiful
and real
instead
it’s difficult
and steel

I ask you to say something
anything will do
throw me a bone
but I suspect
your words
are torn
like your life
autumnal leaves
scattered
and torn

You are everyone
and everything
I ever wanted to be
it would always be a reach
for someone like me
but just living with you
elevates me

I’ve just realised
that nobody talks in rhyme
and nobody  walks in time
words are never sublime
nobody told me
nobody said
nobody knew
I care
too much
inside my head

I have no words left
Seriously
I used them all up
Before I was three
Now they tell me
Be careful what you say
you are too old now
Be careful what you say
No one told me that
I would use all the free words
up
before
the age of three

There are seven wonders of the world
I sat here tonight
and had dinner
with three of them.

I should forget
but I haven’t
I should remember
but I don’t
I should see
but I’m blind
I should hear
but I’m deaf
I should go
but I stay
I should know
but I don’t.

This might just be the end
hold your breath
we’re sinking fast
hold your breath
we’re going down
hold your breath
and pray

It’s a fine thread
Between
Your heart and mine
silken and fine
like rich red wine
don’t break the line
and nor
will I
trust in me
and we will never die

None of the love you gave me
was good enough
I know you tried
you know I cried,
but none of the love
you gave me
was ever good
enough

I think our love
a little bit saggy now
no dancing beneath the stars
no hanging in late night bars
more sunrise
than sunset
but still
I’m hanging with
you!

You remind me
of who I should
have been
before life
got in my way.

I have missed
the very best parts
of you

we laugh
the loudest
and fall the loudest
and hurt the loudest
and rise the loudest
of anyone I know

Happy ending presented itself
at my door last night
I recoiled at the sight
I would much prefer
to howl into the night
Isn’t that right?

Nobody actually
made it out alive
those who survived
stifled  our children’s
cries

My love
was always worth
more
and a little more respect
than the
end
of us

I see you
and you look like home
I turn away
but home is always where
the heart is.

You are
too close
to my heart
Back the
back off!

Most of you
is gone from me now
snippets remain
your smile
your brown eyes
the way you saw the world
your indifference
your belief in me
your difference
to me
your belief in strange
I was not brave enough
even though we both
wished me so.

my heart has not yet missed a beat
if it ever were to
it would only be
because you three
were out of arms reach
to me