Well done!
You won
You got me
Bullseye!
arrow
straight through
my heart.

You know I love you
probably always will
but just not
today
Is that okay?

There are seven wonders of the world
And yet
Three of them are sitting here
Right here
Right now
Having dinner
At home
Alone
With me
Tonight

Light a light for me
I will see it
eventually

Know this
if you know nothing
I was always
on the right side
of real

This wasn’t a win
but it wasn’t a fail
we didn’t **** each other
no one’s in jail

Good Evening!
you look well!
almost good
to see you
you are welcome
if you leave your dishonesty
at the door.

There are three thousand miles
between us
three thousand reasons
not to believe that
this love
could be real

You want to be stronger than me
you are
You want to be higher than me
you are
You want to be better than me
you are
You want to be taller than me
you are
You want to be richer than me
you are
You want to be smarter than me
you are
You want to be fancier than me
you are
You want to be more wanted than me
you are
You want to be heard more than me
you are
You want to be more revered than me
you are
You want to be funnier than me
Oooops
You are not !

how strange
between us now
that silence
shouts

Like my smile
and let me like yours
honestly,  it’s so much easier
than all the love
and adores

You scattered
little bits and pieces
of yourself
across the floor last night
as you stormed off
to bed
indignant and in pain
I have gathered them up
will keep them safe
You will reclaim them
sometime
somewhere
hopefully from a
place
devoid of pain.

That was where you found me
Young
careless
stuffed full of my own importance
shining my personal halo
for the whole **** world to see
carrying my own pedestal
for someone to put me on
carrying my own cross
for someone to
crucifix me
upon

and then
yet again
as usual
it was
just us

we all long to write a poem
full of wisdom and wit
Shakespeare did
full of words
just like this
love and betrayal
men and entrails
lips
ruby red
lust, rarely led
passion
emotion
hurt
rarely fed
by emotions
barely said

I will leave my words here now
scattered upon the floor
as I have
so many times before
gather them or discard them
reject them or suspect them
scorn them or pity them
love them or lose them
or simply dismiss them
as you have done
so many times before

I understand why
You don’t understand
Why I don’t
understand
You
Do you?

After all these years
I honestly couldn’t bear
to celebrate
my wedding anniversary
with anybody else
but you!

words drip
easily
like melted ice
from my lips
drown
the words
I am so desperately
trying
to say.

the power of us
the joy of us
the precious of us
the pure good of us
the easy of us
the lovely of us
the worth of us
the best of us
has somehow
become lesser
tangled
confused
and lost
somewhere deep in
the complicated and confused effort of
trying to be
just the two of us .


but still
I’m going nowhere
pour me another song
and I’ll sing you another heartache!

When I was tiny
my father said
you have words at will
use them wisely
he said
they hold enough
power to ****

You are exhausted
trying to find your truth
I am exhausted
pointing out the truth
in between
everyone has fallen
asleep

I want to
give you
the world
on a plate
strangely
the world says
No !

somewhere in the the depths of this
I saw myself
drowning in pain
it was a distant and silent view
somewhere lost in tomorrow
I saw myself
desperately reaching for the surface
it was exhausting and harrow
somewhere in the shadow.of this
I see myself
swimming  desperately swimming
desperately searching for the shore

My thoughts shatter
like bubbles upon touch
reigning droplets
upon my soul
an old soul
one that really should
know better
yet still
even at this late hour
a soul that
simply
doesn’t know how
To fair better

All right then
lets leave it now
lets park it at the door
you are right
And I
well, I am just the girl
who agreed
to park it at the door

Woke up early
and tripped over all the unkind words
left scattered on the floor
from last night
binned them
before either of us
have to claim them

Everyone says
truth sets you free
but
what if
truth is a lie

I have no words left
Seriously
I used them all up
Before I was three
Now they tell me
Be careful what you say
you are too old now
Be careful what you say
No one told me that
I would use all the free words
up
before
the age of three

Let’s leave it now
there is no communion
Between you and I
Christ died
and we did too
Christ bled
and we tried too

I see
who
you are
while you
are
busy
being
who you
always
thought
you should
be

If your smile  did not make it
real
If your love did make me
Feel

love me
if you will but
that includes all the
jagged cutting  edges
of me
not easy
I know but
they have been a part of me
for so long now
I don’t know how
to be me
without them.

This is not enough
I am lost
furious
incomplete
I am bored
with myself
and you
and this house
and this life
I am off
Yes
I am off
watch me go
watch me
and  know this
if you know nothing
else
I am going
nowhere
absolutely nowhere
without you!

I have such a million words
inside my head tonight
forgive me if I just throw them
on a page tonight
I can’t make sense of them
tonight
I can’t make them fly
like they deserve
tonight

There are more than one hundred ways
to get out of this
and more than a hundred  reasons to stay
I ponder both questions
each
and
every
single
day

New York
you were always
too much
or was that just
me?

Thank you
for seeing
me
when I am blind

We will have to dig deep
to find what is beneath
the random words
we throw
at each other
every day

all I want
is to find you
to know you
to be you
to understand you
to hear you
to have space for you
all I want
is for you
to understand me
to find me
to hear me
to know me
have space for me
all I want
is to know you
and for you
to know me too
and then
I think
we would never wage war.

you said you
didn’t mean it
I guess
that makes it
all okay.

If I had two thousand words
with which to describe you
I would ask for two hundred
to lessen my task
and still flounder
let me use two instead
uniquely beautiful.

I am a long way away
from your pain
I know that
I can’t share it
I know that
I am such a long  way away
from your pain
I know that
yet somehow
I feel it anyway.

I have had a missing person alert
out for you
for most of my life
so don’t show up all shiny
this late
without a decent
excuse

I will leave now
Quietly
Without fuss
But I want you to know
I am leaving
Just for us

Ask me
honesty
I will do my best
to answer
But we both know
my best will never
honestly
Be enough
for you
Or me too

It’s just another morning
that looks a lot
like yesterday.

Your eyes suggest
a place we shouldn’t go
your winning streak
ended
at my feet.

You are
I am
some
where
in between
it
became
no mans
land,

if by chance
I never make another friend
for the rest of my life
I think I’m okay  with that
I think maybe
you are enough friend
for the best of my life.