My suitcase is packed
my belongings are safe
just need to zip myself in there
and make my escape

Excuse me
Hello
I think this is yours
and I think
you dropped it
very conveniently
the very  first time
we said
Hello

I am exhausted
by the thought
that I might write
another line
transfixed by the man
who will no doubt
be my
decline

It doesn’t take a lot
just a universal will
that we will not allow
history
to repeat
itself
at least
not
on our watch
not a one amongst us wants
war
why has one man
got so much
power

I am not sure
what you want
of me
anymore
so
let me leave all
of me
laid out
bare
naked
upon your very
finely tuned
expensive
Manhattan
polished floor

Thanks

I will say goodnight
but
with a smile
that tells you
it could have been
worthwhile

In a sea
Of sameness
I would
Always
Choose you!

Here’s the thing
The world knows
right from wrong
and all of you do too
How did you all get so clever
While I’m still sitting here
Wondering
what to do?

Here is
a  very tiny small part of me
take if you will
just promise
to toss it back
before you leave
so I can catch it
mid air
and save
the little tiny best bits
of me

Sundays and
sun downs
sad days
and being arounds
always makes me feel
like better not
to be around
right not.

come and live with me
in my world
for a bit
I promise you
it will only change the bits
of you
that no longer fit

The tiny bits of youth
you dripped fed
into me
on warm Manhattan nights
with laughter and wine
hit home
I am better now
actually
I know more than you now
Try me?

I am no longer interested
in the pain of truth
But I sleep easy with deceit
It is by far
the easier feat

I didn’t know
that I needed to know
so much
to be your Mum

Photographs
hidden in my bottom drawer
appear
uninvited
into my dreams
tonight
and suddenly I awake
right where
I started from

The glam squad
at a push,
can make me look sixteen
inside
I am
honestly
not that
keen

Everyone says
in a New York Minute
I’ve been here forever
trust me
it takes
ten years!

Sisters
Always
Balance

I am not who I pretend to be
Although I do it very  well
Don’t you agree?

I never told you
forever
I never promised
tomorrow
and for what
it’s worth
at this late stage
neither
did you.

Have you seen me recently?
Have you seen me anywhere?
Just can’t seem to find myself
Anywhere
Listen, no pressure
no problem
But
if you happen to see me
anywhere
anytime
please call
Seriously
you have my number
Just call
Honestly
I am seriously looking
for me

And then
When there was no one
left in sight
I put out my cigarette
and said
Good Night!

Life
reigns heavy
upon our life
but your heart
sits lightly
upon mine
enough said.

Your hand slipped
from mine
when you were fifteen
our grasp was weak
today it is
within
reach

I am not saying that you lie
or calling you a liar
but I think
truth
might like a quick word
with you.

Here’s the thing
I never missed you
Not a one of you
I hardly noticed you were gone
until
suddenly
yesterday

Don’t worry
I’ve gathered up all  your bad bits
they were scattered across the floor
I liked that you walked away
And never looked back
did you already know
I would,d keep them
temporarily
in my heart

You think this is the end
this is it for you
my god
You’re twenty five years old
buckle up , my lovely
the worst is yet to come
and the best.

Your love
is a love without danger
a love that
will make me laugh out loud
forever

I have already forgotten
every face that I knew
I have already forgotten
what was wrong
between me and you

You left
just a beat
before midnight
and I
woke up
to a brand new day.

I am knot  in love
but I am knot
not in love.

My tears fall
like tiny glass memories
they do not  crash
upon the floor
a bit like me
they flow and ebb
and gently
dissolve into
another
not so good night

There are no shadows
quite as dark as yours
they dull my brightest day
they cast grey upon my stay
they follow me
everywhere
scare me with their power
every single
every each
every painfully
tortured
hour

It’s just the flame
that interests me.

I paint words
until the colours
make no sense
You paint pictures
that make the world
make sense .

When did you grow
into you
I must have been asleep
when did you get so brave
I must have been asleep
when did you start to behave
I must have.been asleep
when did you question the answer
I must have been asleep
when did you answer the question
I must have been asleep
when did you grow
into you

It’s impossible to love everyone
believe me
I have tried
and failed
so now
I just love the ones
who make me laugh
and those
who no longer know how
to laugh

I will take your words
and make them better
I will decipher your language
letter by letter.

We all knew who Thaddeus was
The handsome boy from the wrong side of town
We all knew who Thaddeus was
Sweet of tongue  with an easy smile
We all knew who Thaddeus was
The day the Clement boys came to town
We all knew who Thaddeus was
When he stood in their way
To save young Miss Brown
We all knew who Thaddeus was
When the Clement boys put him in the ground
we all knew our silence would **** him
One way or the other
The Clement boys, Miss Brown
And the rest of us who inhabit
This global town

If I am in your way
a gentle nudge
will dislodge
my love

The day slowed down
and almost stood still
Silence creeped all around me
poised for the ****
The day slowed down
and almost stood still
Despair nipped at my ankles
devoured my will

I never won anything
in my life
no sport
no quiz
no battle
late at night
I never won anything
in my life
until
both of you
little ones
grew up
and turned out
to be
alright!

afterwards
I regretted the words
that I had said
but not half as much as
I regretted
the life
that I had led.

I love the jagged edges
of you
they sometimes cut
but will always be
the best part
of you

Tell me how
to do better
as me
I promise
I will listen

I love everything about this
the opulence
is impressive
I love the deep lavish crimson
privilege
that surrounds us
if we fall
it will be on lush purple velvet
at least
that’s what we have been
led
to believe

Every time we say
goodbye
a little bit inside. each
of us
becomes
totally
useless

Beautiful
is misinterpreted
everyday
Beautiful
is strived for
everyday
Beautiful
is cried for
everyday
Beautiful
is before you
everyday
Beautiful
is lost to you
everyday
Reach!