Let’s dance
all night
let’s dance
all life!

You are the woman
I always wanted
to be

My elation
and pure joy
of giving birth to you
is an exact match
of having a grown up
real time
beautiful
now time
conversation with you

I am still here
in the same ‘ol place I have
always been
know it doesn’t quite
look the same
but I am still here
same as it as always been

I do not know
how to give myself
although I know I should
so let me give you this girl
who knows
just give her a whirl!

We can’t be lovers
We can’t quite be friends
We just flaunt around
Enemies
instead
dressed  up
like clowns
prancing about
dancing
endlessly
effortlessly
entertainingly
betraying
Challanging
the braying
crowd.

I know
Know this
if you know nothing else
know this
I know
and I think
I probably
always did

I can leave
that’s the easy bit
I can walk away
but can you
in your madness
ever stay away?

Let’s leave it now
there is no communion
Between you and I
Christ died
and we did too
Christ bled
and we tried too

There are more than one hundred ways
to get out of this
and more than a hundred  reasons to stay
I ponder both questions
each
and
every
single
day

Light a light for me
I will see it
eventually

She rarely left her own mind
and when she did
the outside seemed
so unkind

I might as well
be someone else
for all the authenticity
left inside
of me.

I will love you
‘till the feeling comes back
again.

This just might be what it’s really
All about
Not the great brilliant lights
Or the dark desperate lows
The rights
The wrongs
The lies
The unfolds
This just might be
all it’s about
Nothing more than
Sitting here
Being still
drinking gin
Alone
With you

You want to be stronger than me
you are
You want to be higher than me
you are
You want to be better than me
you are
You want to be taller than me
you are
You want to be richer than me
you are
You want to be smarter than me
you are
You want to be fancier than me
you are
You want to be more wanted than me
you are
You want to be heard more than me
you are
You want to be more revered than me
you are
You want to be funnier than me
Oooops
You are not !

We will have to dig deep
to find what is beneath
the random words
we throw
at each other
every day

My being is slipping
through your fingers now
like sand
the me I used to be
falling at your feet
tiny graduals of me
irritatingly present
transparent
incomplete

I will only ever
fall back
as  far
as you
you can
catch
me

Woke up early
and tripped over all the unkind words
left scattered on the floor
from last night
binned them
before either of us
have to claim them

My thoughts shatter
like bubbles upon touch
reigning droplets
upon my soul
an old soul
one that really should
know better
yet still
even at this late hour
a soul that
simply
doesn’t know how
To fair better

Your eyes suggest
a place we shouldn’t go
your winning streak
ended
at my feet.

When I was tiny
my father said
you have words at will
use them wisely
he said
they hold enough
power to ****

The best of you
bleeds effortlessly
into the worst of me
so that I wake up
refreshed
relaxed
resultant
resilient
and free.

Give me your heart
and I will put it with mine
away forever
secure in a safe
the combination known
only
to us

I paint words
until the colours
make no sense
You paint pictures
that make the world
make sense .

I had to listen
a little harder
to hear you
but still
you never raised
your voice

she cannot be
who she wants to be
so she spends her day
being who
she is expected
to be.

Some sixties songster once said
I will lay me down
I will say the same
right here
right now
in the middle of this
one horse town.

I wonder
will you ever say that out loud
that which you whispered
so freely in you sleep
last night

Can I just say
last night
I fell in love with you
all over again
and I suddenly remembered
when

Everyone says
truth sets you free
but
what if
truth is a lie

I left before
you
that was my only
crime

Why am I laughing ?
because I still can.

Well done!
You won
You got me
Bullseye!
arrow
straight through
my heart.

if by chance
I never make another friend
for the rest of my life
I think I’m okay  with that
I think maybe
you are enough friend
for the best of my life.

Do not drip feed me
your love
drown me in emotion
and over the top words
scare me with honesty
and silence

All right then
lets leave it now
lets park it at the door
you are right
And I
well, I am just the girl
who agreed
to park it at the door

Let me just settle
your presence
upon my skin
let me just understand
this is a begin.

Like my smile
and let me like yours
honestly,  it’s so much easier
than all the love
and adores

We are so close to happy now
It’s almost obscene
We are so close to happy now
We may never have to come
clean
We are so close
to
happy
now

Here is a truth I know
I was never quite good enough for you
I will never say it out loud
and nor will you
we will just laugh outloud
and pretend
it’s not true

Your beauty
is your honesty
it lies deep  beneath those
sapphire
blue eyes
that never blink
unless  someone
questions why
or perhaps
a random fly!

Every wound has a culprit
Every scar knows exactly who they are
You are mine
You hurt
You scarred
Deeply
Inside my heart
Then you moved
As I bled
And bled
Into the dead grey night
Eventually
I made it home
Staggering
Slowly
And lowly
Battle weary
And exhausted
Into
my newly
very well made
Empty
And now ridiculously
Ambitious
Bed.

I am slow
to the table of love
I am always
a beat behind
beautiful
but less inclined.

Merry Christmas guys!
Thank you for the reads in 21
See you in 22!

You are exhausted
trying to find your truth
I am exhausted
pointing out the truth
in between
everyone has fallen
asleep

and then
we laughed out loud
albeit a bit too loud
we just
didn’t know what else to do

Are we just
two people
who have given up
on each other ?

Thank you
for seeing
me
when I am blind