Everyone loves you
your light shines on everyone
except
me

You have left fingerprints
that I cannot erase
marks upon my skin
shadows
exposed by truth
memories
celebrated by youth.

No one has lived here
For such a long time now
Sure, we all inhabit this house
But no one has actually lived here
or laughed out loud
for such  a long time
now

this strange
seldom seen
full moon
fills our room
with more light
that we could ever ignite
although god knows
we’ve tried.

Let me take your broken dreams
and put them back together
bit by bit
crack by crack
and if we can’t find the missing bit
let’s learn to miss it
heart by heart

We grew up together
you and me
husband and wife
reaching out
for something
beyond strife
beyond  life
beyond  smile
beyond house
beyond kids
beyond ideal
beyond anyone
could ever hope to be
congrats !
we got there
we are now
after this long time  
beyond anyone  
anywhere
in this universe
could ever hope to be
Well done us!
lets not talk about
the price.

Your beauty
is your honesty
it lies deep  beneath those
sapphire
blue eyes
that never blink
unless  someone
questions why
or perhaps
a random fly!

America is ablaze
With heat
And feet
Running rapidly away
Sinking in deceit
Terrified of  defeat

even when
I wasn’t in love
with you
when I couldn’t
catch the feeling
even when
the two of us
were lost in
a New York evening
even when
we were drowning in
noise and confusion
even when
we saw life
in different colours
even when
you were big
and I was small
even when
I was big
and you were small
even when I was here
and you were gone
even when you were there
and I was gone
even then
even then
I knew we’d get here
arrival times may differ
check with your carrier
but I knew we’d get here
even then
somehow
I knew we’d get here
and against the odds
*******
here we are
have we got there
are we here?

My elation
and pure joy
of giving birth to you
is an exact match
of having a grown up
real time
beautiful
now time
conversation with you

Dream big
if you still believe you can dream
otherwise
there is no point
and I have failed you.

Where are you
when you’re not here
beside me
Is it so much brighter
elsewhere?

I only stopped speaking
when you choose
not to hear.

What  I wanted to say
what I meant to say
in all honesty was nothing like
the two thousand words that
spewed from my mouth
what I wanted to say
was that
in the end
I think we’ll be okay

Don’t be that weird person
we always promised each other
we would never
ever
be.

There are times
when life invades
our thoughts
Assuages
our best
intentions
falls away
from who we want to be
There  are times
When life
Shouts louder
Than
Who we set out
originally
desperately
set
out
to
try
to
Be
Sorry

I loved our love
the loudness of it
the laughing out loud of it
the easy fit of it
the we’re okay with it
the we didn’t care of it
the boldness of it
the badness of it
the airiness of it
the very sound of it
the endless song of it
the ***** the world of it
the world is ours of it
the very essence of it
the us being us of it
the loving  each other of it
I loved our love
I know you did too
when in world
did it happen
when did the us in us
become the end of us.

You desperately search my eyes for answers
I don’t have
I’m just not that girl
but I will offer you this
it will honestly
seriously
inevitably
one way or the other
turn out all right
or at least
the way it’s supposed
to turn out
for you
one way or the other
Believe.

and then
we laughed out loud
albeit a bit too loud
we just
didn’t know what else to do

I would rather wait
for you
all night long
than
take the first man home

When you left
you were right

I will love you
‘till the feeling comes back
again.

Here’s the thing
The world knows
right from wrong
and all of you do too
How did you all get so clever
While I’m still sitting here
Wondering
what to do?

Excuse me
Hello
I think this is yours
and I think
you dropped it
very conveniently
the very  first time
we said
Hello

Every time you walk away
we lose
another day.

Forgive me
for it
all
my heart
cannot

In a world of over stated words
over exposed sentiments
written in too many paragraphs
for people who honestly don’t care
I lost interest when
God, I can’t even remember
when
that’s how quickly
I lost
interest

I lost you just when the tailwinds started
God, they howled
Now I am swimming just a beat ahead of
the storm
I’m running for cover
and looking back for you
always.

Sundays and
sun downs
sad days
and being arounds
always makes me feel
like better not
to be around
right not.

My being is slipping
through your fingers now
like sand
the me I used to be
falling at your feet
tiny graduals of me
irritatingly present
transparent
incomplete

Let your love
carelessly
flow over me
let your words
make no difference to me
let your smile
make a fool out of me
let someone else
anyone but you
let someone else
anyone but you
let someone else
dear God
let someone else
take me home
tonight

and then out of nowhere
there was you.

Love was never meant
to be easy
I can’t remember who
told me that
and I am not yet sure
they got it quite
right

Everyone says
in a New York Minute
I’ve been here forever
trust me
it takes
ten years!

It doesn’t take a lot
just a universal will
that we will not allow
history
to repeat
itself
at least
not
on our watch
not a one amongst us wants
war
why has one man
got so much
power

You wake me
when I sleep
stop me
before I leap

Boys and girls
are rushing
way too soon
into men and women
who can’t consume
the reality
that this world was
not made purely
and solely
for
their amusement

I don’t know
whose life
I am living here
but if you ever come across her
do me a favour
please tell her
to call me
I would so like to
give it back to her.

Sorry
is not big enough
for this
I know

always wondered
what it would be like
to be in love with someone
just as cool as you
never quite had the nerve
until now
how come it’s not all
us schoolgirls
dreamt
it would be

Here is
a  very tiny small part of me
take if you will
just promise
to toss it back
before you leave
so I can catch it
mid air
and save
the little tiny best bits
of me

If I could write the word
To make you fall in love with me
again
I would write it today
And tomorrow
Again
I would scream it from the treetops
Scrawl it on the walls
Again
If I could write the word
I’d be free as a bird
today
If I could write the word
to make you fall in love
With me .........again......

Sisters
Always
Balance

I am not sure
what you want
of me
anymore
so
let me leave all
of me
laid out
bare
naked
upon your very
finely tuned
expensive
Manhattan
polished floor

I am exhausted
by the thought
that I might write
another line
transfixed by the man
who will no doubt
be my
decline

My suitcase is packed
my belongings are safe
just need to zip myself in there
and make my escape

Here’s the thing
I never missed you
Not a one of you
I hardly noticed you were gone
until
suddenly
yesterday

it may hurt to be me
but it hurts more
to be me
with you.

The bits I love about you  
are the little
grey bits
that fall from your designer suit
as the cameras shine
your eyes in mine
as you smile on time
I know I am playing too
but in all honesty
only for
you

And then
When there was no one
left in sight
I put out my cigarette
and said
Good Night!