There are no shadows
quite as dark as yours
they dull my brightest day
they cast grey upon my stay
they follow me
everywhere
scare me with their power
every single
every each
every painfully
tortured
hour

I am not sure
what you want
of me
anymore
so
let me leave all
of me
laid out
bare
naked
upon your very
finely tuned
expensive
Manhattan
polished floor

I never told you
forever
I never promised
tomorrow
and for what
it’s worth
at this late stage
neither
did you.

I love the jagged edges
of you
they sometimes cut
but will always be
the best part
of you

I lost you just when the tailwinds started
God, they howled
Now I am swimming just a beat ahead of
the storm
I’m running for cover
and looking back for you
always.

Tomorrow is such a different
world
away
from me
and you
tonight

With a few good friends
a life that was almost
gone
can be built again
Almost right again
with a few good friends

I love everything about this
the opulence
is impressive
I love the deep lavish crimson
privilege
that surrounds us
if we fall
it will be on lush purple velvet
at least
that’s what we have been
led
to believe

Of all the people
I have ever met
You are probably the
best

I believe
this is it
I believe
we got there
I believe
this is enough
I believe
we know
I believe
the scars
won’t show
beneath our clothes
or our eyes
I believe
no-one will  ever hear
our cries

Every time we say
goodbye
a little bit inside. each
of us
becomes
totally
useless

Love
it comes
and glows
then disappears
like smoke
upon touch

Your love
is a love without danger
a love that
will make me laugh out loud
forever

Photographs
hidden in my bottom drawer
appear
uninvited
into my dreams
tonight
and suddenly I awake
right where
I started from

I think
I keep
our love young
Do you?

we all long to write a poem
full of wisdom and wit
Shakespeare did
full of words
just like this
love and betrayal
men and entrails
lips
ruby red
lust, rarely led
passion
emotion
hurt
rarely fed
by emotions
barely said

Forgive me
for it
all
my heart
cannot

If only the best part
of me
could be a little bit more
like the worse part of you
and you could see that too
then maybe
we could all make
it through

I see you
even now
after these long years
I know you
your tears
always
more visible
than your fears

This wasn’t a win
but it wasn’t a fail
we didn’t **** each other
no one’s in jail

I am no poet
truth be told
who amongst us is?
I am just rearranging words
to suit my mood

I’ve searched my whole life
for true love
woke up this morning
and there it was
asking if I wanted a bacon sandwich
or two
Who knew?

I knew lots of things
before I met you
Yet
day by day
hour by hour
minute by minute
second by second
they all left me
bled out of me
day by day
hour by hour
minute by minute
second by second
until eventually
I was just left
with me
and me.

You will so soon
be in the place of your dreams
you will lay your head
exactly where you schemed
your struggle
will be forgotten
your journey
ill begotten

My tears fall
like tiny glass memories
they do not  crash
upon the floor
a bit like me
they flow and ebb
and gently
dissolve into
another
not so good night

This is nice
I said
this is love
he said
No,
this just nice like
I said

I wish it was simple
I wish a word
could make it all go
away

I carry little bits of you
deep inside
the dark inside of me
mostly it’s okay
but sometimes they itch
and start to twitch
and interrupt my day
but  most days
deep inside
the dark inside of me
mostly
on those days
mostly
I’m okay.

This is not enough
I am lost
furious
incomplete
I am bored
with myself
and you
and this house
and this life
I am off
Yes
I am off
watch me go
watch me
and  know this
if you know nothing
else
I am going
nowhere
absolutely nowhere
without you!

When did you grow
into you
I must have been asleep
when did you get so brave
I must have been asleep
when did you start to behave
I must have.been asleep
when did you question the answer
I must have been asleep
when did you answer the question
I must have been asleep
when did you grow
into you

I am alive
in this company
my laugh
louder than most
my smile
if you take a second look
nice but
just a shadow of
a ghost

I will go down with this ship
or die
trying.

Good Evening!
you look well!
almost good
to see you
you are welcome
if you leave your dishonesty
at the door.

That was where you found me
Young
careless
stuffed full of my own importance
shining my personal halo
for the whole **** world to see
carrying my own pedestal
for someone to put me on
carrying my own cross
for someone to
crucifix me
upon

The day slowed down
and almost stood still
Silence creeped all around me
poised for the ****
The day slowed down
and almost stood still
Despair nipped at my ankles
devoured my will

I am not looking
Nor seeking
I am simply drowning in blame
I am not asking
Nor basking
I am simply absolving
Your pain

If I am in your way
a gentle nudge
will dislodge
my love

Perhaps
my soul
is too old
to be sold?

If your smile  did not make it
real
If your love did make me
Feel

There are three thousand miles
between us
three thousand reasons
not to believe that
this love
could be real

Nothing
let’s just sit here
and talk about
nothing

I am just about
And almost
A fully formed person
Thing is
When I am just about there
Either you
Or me
or they
Keep getting in my  way

You scattered
little bits and pieces
of yourself
across the floor last night
as you stormed off
to bed
indignant and in pain
I have gathered them up
will keep them safe
You will reclaim them
sometime
somewhere
hopefully from a
place
devoid of pain.

there must be something terribly
wrong with me
the song said
I agreed
and
promptly went to bed.

When we were young
we said let it come
if it rained
we had an umbrella
if it snowed
we had a plough
If it iced
we had a ski
if it stormed
we had shelter
if it darkened
we had light
if it was fire
we had water
if it was old
we were young
if it was too much
we were one.

Let’s dance
all night
let’s dance
all life!

You know I love you
probably always will
but just not
today
Is that okay?

You are the woman
I always wanted
to be

Stay where you are
and still believe you’re right
I’ll just pour us
another glass of life