With a few good friends
a life that was almost
gone
can be built again
Almost right again
with a few good friends

These might be the moments
we might try
to remember
the days we fight hard
not to fade
the smiles we are are glad
that we gave
freely
the moments that remind us
we were once
too young
too giddy
too brave.

the day
the moments
as always
lay easy
on my brain
and you
as always
lay chaos
upon my brain
this will never
be okay
just a cheap imitation
of the words
we used to
say.

I would like to give you tomorrow
fresh and fragrant
wrapped up in a bow
I would like to give you yesterday
rosy and pink
without any foe
I would like to give you today
smiling and new
I would like to give you forever
If only I knew

I throw my words at you
like hailstones
hoping they hurt
you receive them
like God
invisible
silent
barely
a nod

tears are just water
and we all need water
to live.

Don’t play games
with my heart
I am really not strong
it will break me apart

And then
there was nothing
and in that nothing
I realised
we could be everything

There is a newness about today
and I welcome it without delay
a brand new sun
of a brand new year
I will hear no bad of it
I will believe in it
I will welcome it
I will savour it
I will believe in it
no matter what
you say
I will believe in it
Today

The postman delivered
your letter
It’s just two hundred years
too late
and two hundred words
out of date

There is nothing I would rather do
right now
than sit right down
beside you
there is nothing than I shouldn’t do
right now
than sit
right down
beside you

How were you to know
this world
would so harsh
on you

There are not enough words
in the dictionary
that could make sense of
how much
you mean
to me
trust me
I have tried.

I give her to you
my love has died
give her everything
I would have
if only I had tried

You flit lightly
through your life
yet fall heavily
on mine

I was asleep
and then you shook me
awoken me
into life

There is nothing but
the outside of me
left
this face
this skin
the inside of me
has slowly begun to
wither
from within.

Do you ever think that
Poems
are just words
random thoughts
rearranged
everyday words
that people say
and think
casually
everyday
then a few of us
desperately
try to make a grab for them
capture them
and make them
more than they were ever meant
to be

always wondered
what it would be like
to be in love with someone
just as cool as you
never quite had the nerve
until now
how come it’s not all
us schoolgirls
dreamt
it would be

No one has lived here
For such a long time now
Sure, we all inhabit this house
But no one has actually lived here
or laughed out loud
for such  a long time
now

this strange
seldom seen
full moon
fills our room
with more light
that we could ever ignite
although god knows
we’ve tried.

I look in the mirror
and I see you.

Little tiny  pieces of yourself
petered out
at will
supposed to be enough
for me
you know
they never will

It is dense here
Rummaging around inside your mind
Let’s let a little light in
see what we can find

You said
leave me where you found me
and in the leaving
you will find
a better you.

Forgive me
for it
all
my heart
cannot

I know nothing
about nothing
but I know
I probably
love you more than
you could ever
love me back
and I am
more than  
all right
with that

Morning makes its entrance
throwing sunlight
on an unslept bed
I stand a few feet away
throwing bouquets
at  an unloved life.

You slip though my fingers now
like fine sand
although you grew to be you
beneath my hand
you are everyone
I ever wanted you to be
just better
than I hoped you could be
and you wear yourself
so easily
like you are exactly who you
were meant to be
you inhale the day
like it’s here to stay
or not
you make me smile
with pride
by living out loud.

I loved our love
the loudness of it
the laughing out loud of it
the easy fit of it
the we’re okay with it
the we didn’t care of it
the boldness of it
the badness of it
the airiness of it
the very sound of it
the endless song of it
the ***** the world of it
the world is ours of it
the very essence of it
the us being us of it
the loving  each other of it
I loved our love
I know you did too
when in world
did it happen
when did the us in us
become the end of us.

Leave your words here
scattered across the floor
its late
you’re tired
I will pick them up tomorrow
look at them
in the cold light of day
discard and throw away
the ones that might make you stay.

I will up my game
If you will too
I will  take the blame
Give it a name
I will up the stakes
acknowledge mistakes
I will up my game
If you will too

the world is on fire
with hurt and pain
bodies are building up
children getting lost in the mire
the world is on fire
with deceit and blame
the world is on fire
not a one amongst us
brave enough
clever enough
wise enough
enough enough
interested enough
to fan the flame.

When we were young
we said let it come
if it rained
we had an umbrella
if it snowed
we had a plough
If it iced
we had a ski
if it stormed
we had shelter
if it darkened
we had light
if it was fire
we had water
if it was old
we were young
if it was too much
we were one.

Love
is not a big enough
word
for this

I think I have fallen in love
with a thousand men
because I could
I think I have fallen in love
with this man
because I could not

You have left fingerprints
that I cannot erase
marks upon my skin
shadows
exposed by truth
memories
celebrated by youth.

Your love
makes me feel safe
enough to sleep
every night
without
locking
the world out

You already live your life
out loud
don’t stop
it will save you

Let the slow hand of
tomorrow
catch you in the palm of her
hand
because I can’t
anymore

Remember you said
you would rather be dead
than to live a life
without cause
God, how honourable then
I clung to your every word
like a long lost chalice
All I ever wanted to be was
the perfect daughter
perfect friend
perfect person
but you left
without telling me
how.

It’s just another Saturday morn
fading into Sunday
slipping into Monday
cruising into Tuesday
delving into Wednesday
diving into Thursday
dying into Friday
crying into Saturday
It’s just another Saturday mom

it may hurt to be me
but it hurts more
to be me
with you.

Can someone  teach me
how to be
the woman
my mother always said
I should be?

What  I wanted to say
what I meant to say
in all honesty was nothing like
the two thousand words that
spewed from my mouth
what I wanted to say
was that
in the end
I think we’ll be okay

I don’t know
whose life
I am living here
but if you ever come across her
do me a favour
please tell her
to call me
I would so like to
give it back to her.

My words can never be sweet
because
they weep
of intended deceit

I lost you just when the tailwinds started
God, they howled
Now I am swimming just a beat ahead of
the storm
I’m running for cover
and looking back for you
always.

America is ablaze
With heat
And feet
Running rapidly away
Sinking in deceit
Terrified of  defeat

sometimes
I regress
to a little sister
desperately
seeking your love
still