I am not saying that you lie
or calling you a liar
but I think
truth
might like a quick word
with you.

come and live with me
in my world
for a bit
I promise you
it will only change the bits
of you
that no longer fit

Sorry
is not big enough
for this
I know

Let me take your broken dreams
and put them back together
bit by bit
crack by crack
and if we can’t find the missing bit
let’s learn to miss it
heart by heart

I believe you are brave enough
to love me
you carry a. weapon
to even up.the score

I love you almost
and I know you almost love me too
how many more years
do we have  to make it through
to make us
almost true.

You slip though my fingers now
like fine sand
although you grew to be you
beneath my hand
you are everyone
I ever wanted you to be
just better
than I hoped you could be
and you wear yourself
so easily
like you are exactly who you
were meant to be
you inhale the day
like it’s here to stay
or not
you make me smile
with pride
by living out loud.

I will say goodnight
but
with a smile
that tells you
it could have been
worthwhile

You think this is the end
this is it for you
my god
You’re twenty five years old
buckle up , my lovely
the worst is yet to come
and the best.

Little tiny  pieces of yourself
petered out
at will
supposed to be enough
for me
you know
they never will

You cannot hate me
For what I believe
Just because my believe
Is different to your believe
You cannot break me
For the words I speak
Just because my speak
Is different to your speak
You cannot judge me
For the way I live
Just because my live
Is different to your live
You cannot hate me
When you can’t even see me
You cannot
You cannot
Because in the end
You cannot fail to see
that  I am just like you
Doing what I can
Passing through

You wake me
when I sleep
stop me
before I leap

Everyone loves you
your light shines on everyone
except
me

I am knot  in love
but I am knot
not in love.

I am exhausted
by the thought
that I might write
another line
transfixed by the man
who will no doubt
be my
decline

nothing creates
nothing
yet somehow
I found you

the world is on fire
with hurt and pain
bodies are building up
children getting lost in the mire
the world is on fire
with deceit and blame
the world is on fire
not a one amongst us
brave enough
clever enough
wise enough
enough enough
interested enough
to fan the flame.

I don’t know how to say the words
I want to say
so I offer you
these three million
that I should never say

Do you ever think that
Poems
are just words
random thoughts
rearranged
everyday words
that people say
and think
casually
everyday
then a few of us
desperately
try to make a grab for them
capture them
and make them
more than they were ever meant
to be

It’s impossible to love everyone
believe me
I have tried
and failed
so now
I just love the ones
who make me laugh
and those
who no longer know how
to laugh

I am no longer interested
in the pain of truth
But I sleep easy with deceit
It is by far
the easier feat

I will take your words
and make them better
I will decipher your language
letter by letter.

I remember the room
where we first met
I remember the room
hard to forget
I remember the room
your smile matched mine
I remember the room
perfectly in line
I remember the room
the feeling of fine
I remember the room
your heart leaving mine
I remember the room
the sharp decline
I remember the room
slow
sad
somehow
sublime .

And then
after a hundred years of exception
I opened my eyes
and there was
nothing
there

And then
When there was no one
left in sight
I put out my cigarette
and said
Good Night!

Morning makes its entrance
throwing sunlight
on an unslept bed
I stand a few feet away
throwing bouquets
at  an unloved life.

Life
reigns heavy
upon our life
but your heart
sits lightly
upon mine
enough said.

I have nothing to declare
except
my very bright red
lipstick

I didn’t know
that I needed to know
so much
to be your Mum

There is a whole world out there
that simply doesn’t care
about your words
or mine
And a big world in here
desperately trying
to write the next
line

always wondered
what it would be like
to be in love with someone
just as cool as you
never quite had the nerve
until now
how come it’s not all
us schoolgirls
dreamt
it would be

Here’s what I know
for sure
I know that I know
nothing
Are you okay
knowing that you know
nothing
too?

Life asked
I answered
right question
wrong answer

If
I could be a
superpower
I would probably
or maybe
definitely
at least sometimes
if not most times
most likely
I would probably
I guess
I would choose
you
If I could be a
superpower
Yeah
I think I would
probably
maybe
choose
You

Here is
a  very tiny small part of me
take if you will
just promise
to toss it back
before you leave
so I can catch it
mid air
and save
the little tiny best bits
of me

Everyone says
in a New York Minute
I’ve been here forever
trust me
it takes
ten years!

I miss the girl I used to be
she got lost somehow
in between the crying
and the trying
to be the girl
I desperately thought
I needed to be

it may hurt to be me
but it hurts more
to be me
with you.

Love was never meant
to be easy
I can’t remember who
told me that
and I am not yet sure
they got it quite
right

I love you
more than I have words for
so I will hush now
let silence
take the lead
for once.

I understand why
You don’t understand
Why I don’t
understand
You
Do you?

I have such a million words
inside my head tonight
forgive me if I just throw them
on a page tonight
I can’t make sense of them
tonight
I can’t make them fly
like they deserve
tonight

I started at nine
I left at five
I rarely smiled
There is no exception to the rule
Yes,
life really
can
be that cruel

Where are you
when you’re not here
beside me
Is it so much brighter
elsewhere?

not sure when it happened
maybe last week
Tuesday or Wednesday
sometime midweek

Tell me how
to do better
as me
I promise
I will listen

The bits I love about you  
are the little
grey bits
that fall from your designer suit
as the cameras shine
your eyes in mine
as you smile on time
I know I am playing too
but in all honesty
only for
you

What  I wanted to say
what I meant to say
in all honesty was nothing like
the two thousand words that
spewed from my mouth
what I wanted to say
was that
in the end
I think we’ll be okay

There are no shadows
quite as dark as yours
they dull my brightest day
they cast grey upon my stay
they follow me
everywhere
scare me with their power
every single
every each
every painfully
tortured
hour

I think I have fallen in love
with a thousand men
because I could
I think I have fallen in love
with this man
because I could not