It is very cold in the world tonight
But not as cold as it could be
If you weren’t here
Standing slightly to the left
Holding out your hand
Silencing my howl

You think I can’t pay the price
You are wrong
I am rich in tears
Rich in years
Call in the tab
I am ready to pay
X

I am not who I pretend to be
Although I do it very  well
Don’t you agree?

Daylight fights to surrender
all of it’s precious light
Nighttime slowly wins
overcoming with all it’s might
daylight has to spend
each and every night
fighting to wake the world up
so we can rise and take flight

Tell me this
Do you think you can take
All that I am
When I’m awake

There are so many ways
to get it right
So how come we miss them
Each and  every
night?

I am instantly exhausted
by the thought
and the pain
of trying to explain
that your  thinking
Is inexcusably
and infuriating
flawed

The world is made up
Of tiny tiny moments
That didn’t exist
until we rose
to resist

I know your scars
And you know mine
We trace them in the dark
and celebrate
each mark

This sunrise
Is the best sunrise
Ever
And probably
the only sunrise
We will ever
see together

Let me drown
Slowly now
In my tears
Walk away
quickly now
makes it easier
To deny our
Fears

I see you
Really
When it feels like no one
ever does
and no one
ever will
I see you
And only you
For what it’s worth
At this late hour
I see you
And I always will

Do you believe in love
And death
And all the rest
If so
why do you fly
So far abreast from
the crest
Of the wave

This heart is not yours
To break
This girl is not yours
To forsake

There are two truths
Mine and
Yours
And in between
There are years and years of
Lies

If I had one wish
It would be that someone
someday
could really see me
feel me
touch me
hear me
If I had one wish
It would be that someone
someday
Could really know me
love me
hold me
just once
for once
If I had one wish
It would be that...........

I am absolutely nothing
Without the rest of you
Picking me up
Dusting me down
Carrying my pain
Propping me up
And keeping me
Sane

In your eyes
There are lies
in my soul
Something dies

You shined very bright in my life
For a beat
Dazzled me
Sunburnt I retreat
Still
I will always
remember
The brilliance
Of your sun

Yes, I will
Not sure for how long
Or for how good
Or for how much
Or for what for
But for now
For here
For tonight
For now
Yes, I will.

I wonder if I could write
A long poem
That says something
Instead of a short poem
That says nothing
Long poems seem
right
Short poems seem
trite
Rhyming poems seem light
Which poem is right?

Know this
If you know nothing else
In my life
You shined a light

I love that
You love me
And my family too
Makes life easier
And means
in the end
I won’t  have
to leave you
And us two

Everything I know
About being real
About being true
I learned from
You

A love is for life
not just
for Valentine’s Day !

If there is anything here at all
You want
Or desire
Take it
I am open
Like a war wound
On the battle floor
No one can reach
to save me
so I will lie here
forever
exposed
on this cold concrete floor

It is quiet now
The day has left
Shadows appear
As if by request
I am quiet now
My love has left
Ghosts appear
As if by bequest

One
single
word
could
change
the
world
write
it!

If it was just left to all of us
I think we could find a way
To live
And die
And pray
Each in our own way
I’m sure that  would be okay
With all of us
If only
We could find a way
To just let it be
Alone
With all of us.

I will stand up now
Although I am terrified by the feat
But I will stand up now
If you will too
Look over your shoulder
I am here now
Just behind the band
Passing time
In no mans land

Despair is growing on every tree
In the world tonight
no matter where we are
Or who we are
Everywhere
our gardens are overrun
With hate
With fear
And disbelief
Each one of us
Crippled by defeat

If there was anything I could do twice
Anything I could rewrite
It would be you two
because next time
I would be cool
er
ish!

I would surrender all of this
And my ambition
For just one last glimpse
Of the girl I should have been

I go to sleep each night
With the  faint shadow of the girl I used to be
And the sallow shadow of the girl I long to be
Sleeping safely
Either side of
Me

If this is tomorrow
I’ll buy a ticket
If what you’re selling is real
I’ll shake on that deal

Wombs for rent
Inquire within

Somewhere there is a void
Deep enough
That I won’t see you
Or touch you
Or want you
Somewhere there is a void
So dangerous and murky
Only people brave enough
Like me
Are allowed to swim with faces bared
Somewhere there is a void
But hear me,
please be scared
And very much aware
It’s very dark
and bleak there
Join me
If you dare

There are seven wonders of the world
And yet
Three of them are sitting here
Right here
Right now
Having dinner
At home
Alone
With me
Tonight

Listen to me now
I may say same words tomorrow
But not in the same way
Listen to them now
The cadence
The flow
Listen to them now
Their rhyming deep and low
Listen to my words
Beating deeper
Deeper
forever slow

Someone said that
some of us could do better
We all nodded and agreed
Someone said that
most of us know better
We all nodded and agreed
Someone said that
Someday we will regret it
We all nodded and agreed
Someone said that
We should stand up straight now
And be counted
Someone else said
Now is the time to leave

There is nothing in this world
more precious
to me
No metal
No stone
than your voice
on the other end of the phone

No one has lived here
For such a long time now
Sure, we all inhabit this house
But no one has actually lived here
or laughed out loud
for such  a long time
now

We all knew who Thaddeus was
The handsome boy from the wrong side of town
We all knew who Thaddeus was
Sweet of tongue  with an easy smile
We all knew who Thaddeus was
The day the Clement boys came to town
We all knew who Thaddeus was
When he stood in their way
To save young Miss Brown
We all knew who Thaddeus was
When the Clement boys put him in the ground
we all knew our silence would **** him
One way or the other
The Clement boys, Miss Brown
And the rest of us who inhabit
This global town

You cannot hate me
For what I believe
Just because my believe
Is different to your believe
You cannot break me
For the words I speak
Just because my speak
Is different to your speak
You cannot judge me
For the way I live
Just because my live
Is different to your live
You cannot hate me
When you can’t even see me
You cannot
You cannot
Because in the end
You cannot fail to see
that  I am just like you
Doing what I can
Passing through

Words and phrases swirling
Frantically
Inside my head
Given to me so freely
I want to return the gift
So they can dance to another tune
In another time
In another room
I want to set them free
So they can fly
And I can watch them
soaring way up high.

Freedom never comes free
It is paid for in tears
And blood
Bending on one knee
By the likes of you
And me

Do not whisper
Speak your truth out loud
Do not be silenced
By the crowd

Don’t look up
I’m leaving
Don’t catch my eye
We will surely cry
Don’t move
Don’t speak
Don’t flinch
Don’t catch my eye
Don’t look up
I’m leaving
Don’t look up
Don’t watch us die

If I was someone else
I would love you
Endlessly
And perfectly
Forever
Because you deserve
Nothing less
Than
Someone else

You are the song
I always wanted to sing
And the words
I could never quite begin
Late at night
Alone
amidst all this din