you are my steady
**** knows
I needed
something steady

I am about
two minutes away
from falling in love
with you

oh my god,
you are so self assured
even at this late hour
let me say something
even at this late hour
I know
nothing
I have learnt
nothing
even at this late hour
I still
know nothing but
oh my god
you are so self assured
how do you do that
even
at this late hour.

I know
that you are
the absolute and
total
better part of
me
someone I could only
ever ever
aspire to be
let’s leave it there
where I started
you are the absolute
absolute absolute absolute
and total
better part of me.

when you said
nothing matters
I didn’t know
you
meant me too.

I never won anything
in my life
no sport
no quiz
no battle
late at night
I never won anything
in my life
until
both of you
little ones
grew up
and turned out
to be
alright!

to me
you are perfect
or as close as I have
ever been to
perfection
and I
am a perfectionist
so
what does that mean?

this
is a beautiful life
and my bit in it
is divine
and way more than
I deserve
in any currency
so why can I not see me
and life
from the
outside
and those who are looking in?

I want to
give you
the world
on a plate
strangely
the world says
No !

Is this it then
Is this
the best we can do?
Me and you
Come on now
Dig deep
we can do tomorrow
way better than
we did  
today.

this dance
has not been easy
you are heavy
on your feet
and I
too light sometimes
and yet
I will dance
this awkward dance
with you
a hundred times
and more
and then
a hundred times
again
and still more.

love me
if you will but
that includes all the
jagged cutting  edges
of me
not easy
I know but
they have been a part of me
for so long now
I don’t know how
to be me
without them.

I ask you to hear me
you say you do
and I believe you try
but you listen
with light ears
so the weight of my words
don’t keep you awake
all night.

You said our love
would
make a difference
I believed
but when
does that
kick in?

this
I know
is way more
important
than me.

I can’t apologise
for being me
but I can feel sorry
that you ever
ever ‘ ever fell in love
with me
I can do that
for you.

let love go
and I will too
let go of me
and
I promise
I can also
let go of you.

Ambition fades
with age
yet, I  know
if I have one shred left
inside me
it would be
to be
a little bit more
like you.

You do know
the best I can give you
is a bad reputation

New York
you were always
too much
or was that just
me?

stay exactly
as you stand
today
for me
you are perfect
and I know stuff!

I never asked
for tomorrow
I think
That was you

Just sorting through
the thrash
this morning
saw you there
from the corner of my eye
at this early hour
my goodness
who in the world
put you there?

I am a long way away
from your pain
I know that
I can’t share it
I know that
I am such a long  way away
from your pain
I know that
yet somehow
I feel it anyway.

Pour me another life
I will drink
to that
all night
and deep into
tomorrow
I suspect
you probably will too
Cheers!

I love you
means nothing
if it’s written
in sand
too close to the shore.

when you tell me
you are happy
I will close my eyes
until them
I am wide awake

words are just words
letters strung together
that someone sometime
said made sense
and no one disagreed
so someone else
sometime , somewhere
decided
if they fit together
in an agreeable fashion
its poetry
its not , my loves,
it’s just words
letters strung together
that someone , sometime
said
made sense and
no one
disagreed
and that , my friends
is all this is
letters strung into
words .

I am thankful
you are
who you are
are you ?

don’t wake me up
unless
you have something
new
to say

Here are
my broken thoughts
and overthinking mind
late at night
desperately trying
to make a sentence
that makes sense
to myself
and maybe
someone
else
help me
if you can !

your smile came back to
me today
unexpectedly
in the shower
still can’t believe
you are a liar .

you are halfway
into my heart
well done
it’s more than anyone
ever
has ever managed to do
and it’s a feeling
I could get used to
maybe !

This is your tomorrow
please
live it with me.

I know you think
the shadows are
falling upon you now
but if you turn your head
right to left
left to right
maybe they fall
different upon you now
perhaps they are not
shadows
just falling lights
yet to be lit.
falling upon you now

You do know
don’t you?
that all of this
means nothing
if we don’t both love it
if we are both not
in all honesty
true
you do know that
don’t you?

this life is a privilege
but my god,
we pay for it
in tears.

Do not let anyone
ever
tell you
you are not okay
you talk too loud
you have too much to say
you live in a cloud
maybe you do
what’s the taboo?
but do not let anyone
ever
wherever
ever
tell you what to do
or you have too much to say
except
sometimes
maybe me!

I love this
not sure of anything else
but sure of this
I love this
I love the this is us ly ness
of this
and us,

I miss you
not so much
the being with you
more the noise of you
the look of you
the late night nights with you
the carelessness of you
the talking out loud of you
the who gives a **** of you
the silence of you
the lovely of you
the truth of you
the I don’t want to be
anywhere else
of you
I guess
in all honesty
I miss the very
precious
and beautiful
essence of
you.

when everybody left
you stayed
I like that
in a human

I will let
the little lies lie
if you will too
just can’t take
any big ones
don’t surprise me
it will end
me and you.

google
something interesting to say
or
here’s an idea
just walk
the **** away!

this river runs deep
whatever you say
I almost drowned
whatever you say
this river runs deep
you walked away
whatever you say
this river runs deep
you have long legs
I’d say
this river runs deep
I almost drowned
no matter what
or why
or when
this river runs deep
I’d say
this river runs deep
well done
those long legs
helped you walk
away
no matter what I say
but still
this river runs deep
I say
but maybe
I am totally wrong!

and then
the music stopped
and so did we
who knew?
certainly, not me

You were never
a party
worth staying up for.

you don’t need to ask
the answer is
yes
but what the ****
ask it
anyway!

Yes , okay
I failed you
and everyone
we ever knew
according to you
yes, okay
I failed you
does that make me
less than you
or just a little more
dishonesty honest
than everyone
we ever knew
including you?