Know this
if you know nothing
I was always
on the right side
of real

I am drowning in your
laughter
saturated by your
love
amazed by your joie de vivre
enchanted by your
dance
impressed by your last
stance
weakened
by your glance

I’m not so impressed with
the big parts of you
but I am totally and completely
in love
with the little bits of you
the crumbs of you
left scattered on the ground
when the world
decides
it is done with you

There are not enough words
in the dictionary
that could make sense of
how much
you mean
to me
trust me
I have tried.

I’m sorry
that
I love
out loud
Are you?

Nothing
let’s just sit here
and talk about
nothing

Let my weakness
make you
strong

I love you
whatever that means.

Difficult
doesn’t even go anywhere near
where we find ourselves
tonight
gasping for breath
nothing clear
except which one of us
orders the next
beer

The fine cobweb threads
that bind your heart to mine
are old now
difficult to define
I rarely move
these days
for fear of their decline

Permission
granted
To forget all about me
As you were
Soldier
Stand down.

I know what you mean
I know what you are saying
I am not crazy
I am not insane
I just
honestly
don’t think
the same.

There’s a whole lot of nothing
happening in this house
Tonight

I had to listen
a little harder
to hear you
but still
you never raised
your voice

If this car would just start
you know
I would be off
careering
full throttle
down the highway
chasing freedom
miles away
from the  road stops
of my heart

Come on now
you said you would sweep me off my feet
that was the deal
on a  late night New York City street
so why am I still standing here
feet firmly planted
right here
on 127 West 88th Street?

I never thought I would end up here
with someone
like you
someone
almost too good to be true
Who knew?

Sisters
Always
Balance

I wondered what we'd do
when the words ran out
now it’s  run out
almost on cue
I wondered what we’d do
when the light began to fade
now it’s dark in here
makes me afraid
I wondered what we’d do
when we couldn’t rise
now we’re sinking
like a stone in the muir
I wondered what we’d do
when we couldn’t smile
now it’s looking
now it’s looking
like we need another
mile

Two hundred people boarded the boat
set sail for paradise
About one hundred fell to the side
about fifty dried up and cried
twenty five turned away and died
Fifteen never replied
nine ran away to hide
just one of us
disembarked
disillusioned
dishevelled
delirious
downhearted
drowned
but still alive.

I would rather wait
for you
all night long
than
take the first man home

Every time we say
goodbye
a little bit inside. each
of us
becomes
totally
useless

I don’t know anyone
who is seventy
and thanks be to ****
neither do you !

I miss you
every night
everyday
I have spent all night
last night
and most of today
trying to find the right script to slay
no words present themselves
they know how much is at play
I miss you
every night
everyday

Oddly I breathe
a little better
smile a little better
wake up a little better
behave a lot less better
am myself a little better
when I am at home
doing better better things
with you

we laugh
the loudest
and fall the loudest
and hurt the loudest
and rise the loudest
of anyone I know

You burn me
not so much that anyone can see the
scorch
on my palm
my hand
my face
my soul
pain that leaves no mark
is a true artist’s
greatest work

There is a hole
right there
in the middle bit of me
like a Russian doll
a life within a life
barely breathing
don’t come too close
you could fall right in
deeply
into the empty of me
Others have.
Save yourself
Walk away..,,..

I trust my words
and I trust me
if only I knew someone
who  felt the same way

If I could choose
a dazzlingly bright everyday sun
I would choose you
my dazzlingly bright everyday
April son

Everyone loves you
your light shines on everyone
except
me

You wash over me
with your wisdom
you silence me
with your voice
you know me
with your love

I
wish
I
could write
a poem
about you

I have such a million words
inside my head tonight
forgive me if I just throw them
on a page tonight
I can’t make sense of them
tonight
I can’t make them fly
like they deserve
tonight

Here is a truth I know
I was never quite good enough for you
I will never say it out loud
and nor will you
we will just laugh outloud
and pretend
it’s not true

I have missed
the very best parts
of you

Tomorrow is such a different
world
away
from me
and you
tonight

You already live your life
out loud
don’t stop
it will save you

You know what
we could have made it
we only had the last two steps
to climb
you fell back
and we collapsed

Here’s what I know
for sure
I know that I know
nothing
Are you okay
knowing that you know
nothing
too?

You make me laugh
when I’don’t want to laugh
you make me cry
when I don’t want to cry
you make me listen
when I don’t want to hear
you make it clear
when you’re not even here
you make it right
in the dead of the night

I will write a word
if you write one too
I will right a wrong
if you right one too

I am laughing out loud
this much is true
Please know
I am dying inside

I am swimming in a  sea of you
I am drowning in too much of you
I am climbing the Everest of you
I am delving into the deep of you
I am inhaling the worst of you
I am crying for the loss
and the best of you

Please forgive me if
I know longer  
know
the right thing to say

I know how you feel
I feel exactly the
same

I have had a missing person alert
out for you
for most of my life
so don’t show up all shiny
this late
without a decent
excuse

You will always be
the missing piece
in our weird
little
three piece family
jigsaw

I have a gift
a superpower if you will
I can cry
without tears.