The words flowing
easily from my brain
tonight
are everything I ever wanted to say
to you
too much
you say
a bit insane
yet still
my words flow easy
flow easy
for the first time
from the inside of my brain
insane
you say
maybe
you’re right

Your love
makes me feel safe
enough to sleep
every night
without
locking
the world out

Last one to leave
switch the lights off
one thing for.sure
it will never
be
me

You know I love you
probably always will
but just not
today
Is that okay?

There is no love
like your son’s  love
it is there
to rise you high
and catch you
on the low
your little boy’s arms
are now strong enough
to hold you
and heal you
What joy!

I could talk
all night
yet still
barely
erase
my lie

My love
was always worth
more
and a little more respect
than the
end
of us

to be near you
sometimes
scares me

No one wants  to stand out
or stand alone
no one.is brave enough
so we all just faff about
and then
wander home
except
my son

Honesty
I have never been this close
to this amount of pain
and survived

I ask you to say something
anything will do
throw me a bone
but I suspect
your words
are torn
like your life
autumnal leaves
scattered
and torn

There is probably
not much
I wouldn’t do
except
perhaps
say goodbye
to you

There is no one here
but me
what a scary place
to be

Even here
in the midst of our decay
I still have words
left to say

I walk in in
as you walk out
I speak loud
as you fade out

You left tiny pieces of yourself
on the dance floor last night
I only noticed because
when I began to sweep
they were still shining
bright

I don’t know how to say the words
I want to say
so I offer you
these three million
that I should never say

Let the dust settle
in our heads
let the words
go unsaid
tomorrow
we will meet
again

I will say goodnight
but
with a smile
that tells you
it could have been
worthwhile

Look up . he said
when I could barely look anywhere
life burdens the innocents
and lays their lair bare

Has anyone ever written
an unforgettable poem
a truly unforgettable poem
I can’t remember
can you?

I was happy
deep in my heart
the first night I knew you
the knew of you
still
flows
effortlessly
all over me

I think you know me
more than I know me
so I’m going to let you
do all the talking

Can you honestly
still love me
when you don’t quite get the point
of me
anymore

I wish it was simple
I wish a word
could make it all go
away

I know I see things
differently
I live in a paler shade
of grey
where it’s not quite so important
what you have to say

Everything
is exactly the same
as it has as always been
except
for the blame

In all truth
I know my life started with you
no one else
has ever made sense of me
quite the way
I needed them
to

And then
the words all got muddled
meshed into a life
deeply troubled
we became unsettled
slightly unfettled
like untamed horses
running wild
manes to the wind
galloping
uncontrollably
terribly and unknowingly
into gale force winds

Read my words
and know
in the simplicity
and confusion
of them
you
have a chance
to know me

My tears are rooted
in my mother
and
my father
no apologies
needed

Let me be the youngest
and say
somehow
we went astray
but there is no rulebook
that says
we have to stay
this  way.

Woke up early
and tripped over all the unkind words
left scattered on the floor
from last night
binned them
before either of us
have to claim them

I love you
more than I have words for
so I will hush now
let silence
take the lead
for once.

Nobody asked
so nobody told
instead
we threw our heads back
and laughed
out loud
me too

Night is closing in
I see that
yet I have ten thousand words sill
inside my head
what do I do with them?

Your heart
my friend
is the purest thing
in my lifetime
I will ever see

The stillness owns me
now
I sold myself easy
succumbed
without  persuasion
surrendered
without conversion

I am closed
after being
open all hours
24/7
for twenty years
and more
I am closed
now
Permanently

My love for you
flows endlessly
through my fingertips
hold my hand

I just didn’t expect
the tears
at least not mine
I was ready for everything else
or so
I thought
I just didn’t expect the pain
or to be asked to explain
I just didn’t expect the blame
or to be asked to explain

When the lights
go out
is there any doubt
where we both
should  be?

Let the first one
amongst us
without sin
Throw the first stone
My god
Look at the queue!

You know
I don’t know
and revel in the not knowing
because the pain of knowing
would mean growing
into someone
I believe is
not worth the knowing

There are three thousand miles
between us
three thousand reasons
not to believe that
this love
could be real

You have all the best lines
but no melody.

I would like to give you tomorrow
fresh and fragrant
wrapped up in a bow
I would like to give you yesterday
rosy and pink
without any foe
I would like to give you today
smiling and new
I would like to give you forever
If only I knew

You left last night
in a hurry
but you left tiny bits of yourself
scattered
in a bit of a flurry
not sure what to do with them now
seems wrong to sweep them away
still
you were the one who left last night
in a bit of a hurry

This is not about
you and me
but more about
who
we think we should
be

Some sixties songster once said
I will lay me down
I will say the same
right here
right now
in the middle of this
one horse town.