Autumn
is closing in now
have you seen the leaves ?
the sun is lower now
do you feel relief?

I loved you
yesterday
or at least
I tried
but you were you
yesterday
or at least
you tried

I live
with the person
I aspire to
be

I have no plan
neither do you
at our age
everyone has a plan
it’s  the least we can do
to prove
it was worth
the laughter and the pain
and yet
we have no plan
what’s going on
tricky to explain
for god’s  sake
someone
anyone
make a ****** plan!

I cannot find
the right words
and nor can you
so we choose
silence.

I was born
yesterday
but I do my best
to live
today

Can someone  teach me
how to be
the woman
my mother always said
I should be?