The dangerous thing for me is that I would die and excruciating death a thousand times just to make them smile once
And then I'll apologize if my screams from getting burned alive disrupted their sleep

And as soon as the door closes
I collapse on the floor
Gasping for air
What is wrong with me?

I am so much
I am too much
Too much everything
Clingy
Intense
Quiet
Loud
And I’m simultaneously somehow
Still not enough

this black feeling won't go away
it never leaves, wants to stay
oozes out of everything I do
and the sad part is, it's made of you
it tells me to hurt, says I deserve pain
it leaves its mark, an ugly stain
I can't even cry
and I don't know why
I want to
I really do
this black mark can only be erased by you

Where is the key
you locked me here, for what reason?
let me go, I want to be free
tell me tell me what is the key
is it truth? would you like me to say
yes, I know I'm awful, ugly, liar, betrayer
is that the key?
is admitting these things what will set me free?
you locked me here
where is the key
please
I need the **** key
I just want to be free

i'm just tired
and I don't want to be
i'm just hurting
and I want to be happy