Dolores

Dolores Oct 2022

Pink was her sky,
It shines all around,
It warms up a cold heart,
She takes me on long walks,

Pink was her cheek,
Painted by breeze,
The colors surround her,
She lives in a dream,

Pink was her smile,
Which She never hides,
Wayward by nature,
Still everyone praise her.

Dolores Oct 2022

March

It’s two past midnight and I sit in my orange place,
The tiniest that I call home,
I share a bathroom.
In this little town, it’s not my own
But that is the beauty in it
That I got to share it with you
Even if at times I didn’t even know.
I walked those streets all alone
And I still do
But now in a different way
Since now you are gone
For good
And I can let go
I have to let go
Finally(?)

Dolores Oct 2022

*Transport*

And I bathe the Moon in the Stars,
She keeps my secrets and travels far,
As She looks up, Her eyes light up,
Pours Her Stars into my heart.

Dolores Oct 2022

Sunflower

I’ll pretend that it’s not there
The shirt I chose for the dinner
I turn away when I see the tower
Like on my night walks if I see a spider

I plug my ears if I hear guitars
Because I know it’s not you singing,
I know it’s not you in the church
In silence, with me, sitting

Flowers, dresses, vivid colors,
Happiness surrounds you,
Roses exchanged they’re still my favorites
And Sunflowers are all about you.

I have lost a lot of things
Sometimes they just disappear
And no one warns me or says goodbye
They just leave, but some turn around.

Dolores Sep 2022

Not today

We’re so not alike
But with you I feel so alive
Like I have chances, choices
But to you I think I’ve never told this

That you turned around
When I watched you leave
Your coffee mug that you let me keep
Give me time to let me heal.

Memories left to relive,
And now when I need to walk those streets
I get overwhelmed by all those feels
Of emptiness, my salty tears.

One day you'll be coming back
And I'll be here, stay if I can
And gather all we left behind
Sources of a different kind.

Dolores Sep 2022

Beige

I looked around
You were standing there,
He is not like anyone
I've ever seen I swear

Everything I love is in you
When you speak
Your words feel so true
Your world seems so blue

Even though it dressed you in brown
Even though it gave you no clouds
Only drought and sand in wind
Tiny planes, walls with hieroglyphics,

It also gave you space to thrive
I'm sure you were the golden child
And you gave your all, never waste a night
***** of fire burns your life.

Dolores Sep 2022

I stole Her from You

I still stop by that street at night
And stare into the abyss
I left a part of my past there
In shadows, secrets I reminisce

The cat you gave me
He died last year
I lost you too
Although, you are still quite near

It's all the things
I won't get back
All the words
That I left unsaid

And you still remember
The day that I was born
The date I hate
When I stole Her from You

Just imagine the life
You could have lived
Drummers, dancers, motors
She could have gotten all of it

And now she has untidy rooms
Where are all the colors, lovely books?
Just impatience and 'Hurry up!'s
'Why didn’t you fix them up's

Want to run but it’s only walls
And time doesn’t heal
You’ve tried that one
Too responsible for a runaway car.