Me in the far future,
Thinking about my younger years,
Knowing it's a platonic relationship,
'Cause I would never want to go back,
Constantly feeling I'm on the wrong track.

Everything is more peaceful now,
I've let go of the painful nights,
But I still want to miss it,
Just not getting too close to it,
'Cause I don't want to be young anymore,
I wish I wasn't young anymore.

There are screams in my ear,
Telling me to leave You,
Voices I've left behind,
I don't want to hear from You.

I don't want to feel the space,
The place in my heart,
The hole in my soul,
Where You left Your part.

I wish I had never met You,
'Cause I thought I had everything,
But now I have to admit,
I do not own a single thing.

Cold steel,
In your chest,
So deep,
It's touching your heart,

Left me in the dark,
All alone,
Outside,
In the park.

Self-abuse or homicide,
Like the thoughts in your head,
We will never know
How, you died

What you think
And how you write,
My blood dotted questions
Like you, on the floor they lie.

People think I'm crazy,
And they are mostly right,
Living my life knowing,
You are only an apparition in the sky.

Most people despise You,
The villain, the liar, the scout,
But I really truly trust You,
The devil in disguise.

So instead of not looking up,
Ever in this life,
I just lay back and admire You,
The apparition in the clouds.