The girl I loved is dead.

Yet your body still wanders these streets.

This reality I’m living appears so surreal
The dreams that pass by have no real appeal
There are no clean methods that may conceal
The shards of my heart that may never heal

To face what I feel, I’ll have to do
What you have accomplished quite out of the blue
So overnight I’m forced to face what’s true
And let go of the life I’ve built with
                                                                ­                                                 you.

On a warm summer’s day
I looked at your smile
Curly brown hair dancing in the wind
Your eyes reflecting the warmth of the sun
I could hear my heart sing a song
Of how I hadn’t felt so content in a while

You walked over and gave me a hug
I felt safe and at home
And then I opened my eyes
And realized
How nothing changed
And I was still all alone.

What if
                    you hadn't forgotten
                                                       ­            the love
                                                                                           you felt for me.
Would we
                                 be happy
                                                           ­     or feel
                                                            ­                                 trapped.

The longest week of my life
Every day passed like a dreadful crawl
I look down and I see vast clouds
I look around and I see masked crowds
And I fly above it all

The butterflies in my chest
They do their best to escape
They claw and press against my ribs
Until it’s all been crushed to bits
And I become one with fate

I keep the flame lit
Because otherwise there just isn’t enough
You’re the girl who showed me the world
You’re the girl who makes my stomach curl

But most importantly

You’re the girl who forgot how to love.

I met someone new today
Perhaps I shouldn’t have done it
Perhaps it’s exactly what I needed
You hurt me so
And just for tonight
I found comfort in the arms of the girl with the yellow coat