I am torn in two
One part of me loves you
The other fears the beast in you
It's hard to chose between the two
I miss what we had before the new you
The hurt that comes forth now from being with you
Has me torn in two
The laughter I shared in the beginning with you
My heart aches at the loss of the old you
The love I hold has me torn in two
I don't know how to tell you
I gave my all to you
For you to tear me in two
I don't love the new you
I love the old you

I hide my happiness in the dark.
To protect from prying eyes.
For if he sees the happiness in me
He will strip it away with his negativity.
My hope is concealed.
Covered by the clouds in my eyes.
For if he sees the hope in me
He will crush it thoroughly.
I hide my love in the shadows
From the torturous nature in him
For if he sees my love
He will know he owns all of me
I lock myself away from prying eyes
To protect my happiness
To conceal my hope
To hide my love
From the monster in him.

The dark is my friend
That helps hide my scars
The ones I don’t want known
Ones you gave me not to long ago
The wounds run deep
Deeper than the night sky
That house a billion stars
Hoping one day a star
Will shine it’s light on me
Healing the scars
You gave me not to long ago
That I hide in the dark.

Reaching beyond galaxies searching
Loves fire ever the allusive star  
How far do I need to go to find my super nova?
Yearning for the explosive bliss only my star can bring.
Wishing on every one I find hoping that's the one to light my fire.
Awakening the passion hidden in my galaxy of a starless sky.
The center of my world my sun, my moon and the only star in my universe.

Stick with the insanity it's more gratifying on the crazy train of life.

Nothing is useless you just have to know how to use it.

Blame me
Scorn me
Hate me
Lie to me
Yell at me
Devalue me
Degrade me
Belittle me
Cheat on me
Never once did you
Cherish me
Value me
Praise me
Embrace me
Trust me
Choose me
Love me
So I let my love for you go to
Save me.