Best friends are angels
That God sent along.
They always stay beside you
Whenever things go wrong.

I'm glad that God blessed me,
With a good friend such as you.
A person to be there,
A person to get me through.

Never turn away from me.
I can't bear to be apart.
All the pain and suffering
Will be too much for my heart.

You are my best friend,
The one who brightens my day.
The one who cheers me up,
The one who's here to stay.

we are a fire;
we are flaming with red-hot passion
and we burn
and burn
and burn

we are a fire;
and it only took a spark
for us to light a wildfire
and we burn
and burn
and burn

we are a fire;
we need oxygen to live
but we are too close to breathe
and we burn
and burn
and burn
out.
-C.H

They say
Life is a gift
That you should cherish it
Because you only get one life
One chance
Life will give you gifts
Like a family
Friends
God
Day
Night
Air
Love
Happiness
But not all gifts are good
Life will throw curves at you
Like school
Money
Fights
Rain
Divorces
Heartbreaks
Broken promises
Deaths
Responsibilities
Anger
Sadness
With each person
Is a life
With different thoughts
Different beliefs
Different families
Different feelings
A different way to view things
Like challenges
Love
And life
Some might love life
They see the good in life
They see it as a gift
They love others
They love the journey
They smile
They laugh
Their sweet
Their kind
These people are on a boat
Floating
Floating ahead to see where they will go
But where they are now
They celebrate
That’s how to view their life
Then you have the others
They see life as a curse
They see the bad in life
They don’t talk to others
They hate the journey
They cry
They scream
They’re shy
They’re broken
These people are in the water
Drowning
Drowning in their sadness
The water in their tears
No matter how hard they try to swim up for air
A wave of their guilt
Brings them back down
But isn't that just life?

it’s been awhile  since i’ve felt

felt anything

felt anything strong enough to write

but here i am, wanting to restart

restart my life

restart my feelings

it’s been while,

hopefully it will be no more

I am coming.
I am coming of a lot of things.
Of age,
of beauty.
I am comig
to a point where I don't need your love.
Where I can embrace my scars
and stretchmarks,
and love them.
Like you loved me,
way back when.

no matter how long it’s been
or
how far apart we are
i always find my way back to you

The other day, Someone told me that I changed over summer,
I said that I didn't. They're crazy, I'm just the same.
I guess they were right,
I have changed after all.
I am Independent,
I am strong,
I don't need anyone.
I'm not holding anyone in my life anymore,
nor do I plan on it.
I can handle myself,
for I am not a child anymore.
I guess that he was right.
I have changed,
maybe for the best,
maybe for the worst.
I dont know yet.
But I'll find out soon enough.
So here's to the future,
and the new me.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
I know it's hard,
but you'll make it through
with your head up high,
and friends by your side
ready to hold you
whenever you cry.
You have so much left,
so much to do.
That alone is a motive
for you to fight through.
The roses are still red,
and violets are blue.
They'll be here a while,
and so should you.

You asked me the other day
if I loved you.
I didn't know, so I quietly told you so
I've been thinking,
whenever you're around, I can't think straight
I love being around you, I think of you 25/8
Is that what you call Love?
Because, if it is,
yes, I do love you.
I love you so much more than I thought I would at first.
I Love You more than I love most other people
But Is this love?

1.9.19

The clock tells me it's past midnight
when I first realize the feeling
of unspoken sentences itching beneath my skin,
prickling up my arms like goosebumps;
it's just past midnight when
the dams burst behind my eyes, unexpectedly;
it's just past midnight when I begin to think of
all the sunrises I've slept through
all the highways my tires may never travel,
just past midnight when I realize
our concept of "love" is caused by chemicals
in our brains,
that my existence might never have happened,
except it did.

I begin to smile
at half past midnight -
I have come into this world
riding the high of my forefathers' hopes and dreams,
I have bled for this life;
I am the thunder that splits your eardrums
right before the rain -
I am the flash right before you realize
We are all birthed in the light of impermanence,
and my life is just a flicker in the dark
next to yours,
And we are beautiful.

Call me a name,
**** me with words,
Forget about me,
You say it's what I deserve.

I've had my pain,
all from you,
Now I'm done.

I've moved on,
though you still haven't.
I really don't care.

Love will remember
everything...
.
From start to finish,
beginning to end
.

I watch,
and rewatch the video from that day.
The one where we were all happy.
The day of our first kiss. We were smiling and laughing.
I still have the pictures that our friends took.
The ones that you helped me hang up, they haven't moved.
I rewatch,
and I stare at the picures,
as I lie in bed, unable to sleep again.
Hoping,
Wishing,
That you'd come back.
But I know you won't,
for you were forbidden to speak to me.
I never knew why,
All I knew was that you started ignoring me.
Your friend was the one to tell me,
and the one to pass on my words to you
"I miss you. Come back when you can, Please
I love you"

I saw a poem
a few moments ago

asking people to pray for her death.

I have come to say, that I will not.

I will pray that she finds someone
who loves her, adn cares for her, and
prays that she gets better, as will I.

To that poet: I hope you are better, as it has been a while.

We all love you here at HP.
We are here for you to talk to, as we all have our own struggles.

"This too shall pass"

But will it?

Will the pain of losing a loved one
really ever truly pass?

Will it go away just like a scraped knee,
or a broken heart.

I think not..

-November 20, 2016-
                                   "Hey"
                                   It began with you
-November 20, 2018-
                                  Goodbye
                 ­                 This is me, ending it.
Today,
Here,
Now.

I am done

She's my best friend
Till the very end.
She makes me smile,
All the while.
When she goes away,
I miss her every day.
She cheers me up when I have a frown,
And turns that frown upside down.
She's always the one who knows what to say.
I promise you I'm here to stay.
We have so many memories
That are going to stay with me.
We've had so much fun,
And more to come,
You're my one and only trophy

I wish I could see myself through your eyes
and convince myself I'm beautiful

Why are titles
so important?

Can't we all just be nameless?

Grown Up is all she wanted to do
to be a big girl was  going to be a dream come true.
Well she grew up and reality hit.
"Yes i can go on a roller coaster by myself"
"yes I can have a phone"
...
I get all these privileges.
But Im not a little girl.
I don't have the sweet innocence of a child.
I don't have the mind of a child that doesn't care what people think because I care.
I don't want to but I keep going back.
Now the big girl wants to backwards and be a little girl.
A happy girl  
A free girl.

The love that should've been,
was actually the opposite.

Never destined to work out,
never destined to last.

You asked if I ate tody,
I said yes, of course.
I lied.

You asked if I've cut recently,
I said no.
I lied.

You asked if I was ok,
I said yeah, I'm fine.
I lied

You asked me if I was happy,
I said yes, knowing it would make you happy.
I lied.

Everything was simple
Everything was fine
I knew I couldn't have you
And I knew why

I tried to move on
I dated other guys
But then when we'd hang out
I knew I had lied to myself

You noticed me drifting
You said, "Please explain"
But I didn't want to loose you
So, I tried to deal with the pain

It's hard to be with you
It gets harder each day
When I look into your eyes
I feel my body floating away

I miss the way it used to be
You don't feel the change
You don't know I really love you
I'm sure to you; it's just a game

As I close my eyes tonight
I'll pray as I was taught to do
I'll pray that you realize that
I love you, but I can't have you.

The past is the past for a reason.
That is where it is supposed to stay,
But some cannot let it go.
In their heads it eats away

Until all their focus becomes
The person they used to be,
The mistakes they made in their life.
Oh, if only they could see

That you cannot change what happened,
No matter how hard you try,
No matter how much you think about it,
No matter how much you cry.

What happens in your lifetime
Happens for reasons unknown,
So you have to let the cards unfold
Let your story be shown.

Don't get wrapped up in the negative.
Be happy with what you have been given.
Live for today not tomorrow.
Get up, get out, and start living,

Because the past is the past for a reason.
It's been, and now it is gone,
So stop trying to think of ways to fix it.
It's done, it's unchangeable, move on.

She screamed,
but nobody listened.
Because she didn't have a pretty face,
to match her pretty mind

You led her on,
Made her believe that you loved her,
Made her believe you cared,
Made her trust you and open that door she had closed so tight.
She let you in,
And you let her down.
She fell for you hard,
You said you would catch her,
So why did she hit the ground?
She believed in you,
When no one else had,
And this is how you repay her?
This is so sad...
You led her here,
With words of love
And acts of romance,
Just to leave her there,
Her heart torn in two,
To fend for herself,
And find someone new.

they say a dream
can have a meaning.
That recurring dreams
try to send you a message.
But what if the dream
happens to be nightmare?
What does that mean?

Maybe it was meant,
to end this way.
Me, head over heels, while you are just fine,
But I can't help but think,
Maybe it wasn't,
Maybe I am giving up, all too easy,
Is that what it is?

Unfortunately I:
[] Fall to fast
[] Crash too hard
[] Care too much
[] Forgive too easy
[] Wait too long
[] Miss people I shouldn't
[] Worry over nothing
[] Overthink everything
[] Am too complicated to be loved
[x] All of the above

In this day and time,
sad poems are everywhere.
Maybe that is why,
young people think its 'cool'
to harm oneself or drink away the pain.
Maybe this is why,
Happy poems are so hard to find.
Maybe this is why,
anytime I look for poems
I get put into my feels,
and it's so hard to get out of that hole.
My solution:
Lets make a challenge,
because everyone loves challenges.
My challenge is to Make more happy poems.

your past does not define you. yesterday’s mistakes are not today’s. we can always be better.

2. be humble. do not boast in how you look or how you dress. do not brag in your talents or your skills. you can be proud, but do not become prideful. always stay kind.

3. do not let someone else define your worth, talent or value because of what they do or do not give you.

4. be patient. all good things come in time and never stop working hard in what you’re striving to achieve.

5. words and music connect us. don’t ever stop telling stories, always keep writing, always keep sharing.

6. love your friends and family hard. appreciate them everyday and never give up on them.

7. you are cherished even if you feel like you’re not seen. when you don’t think your parts matter, widen your perspective and look at the bigger picture. they can’t make it happen without you.

8. you are more than just a body or face. your heart and soul is more beautiful than any outward appearance could ever be. don’t let first impresses be limited to only physical.

9. it’s okay to show affection to those that you love. let them know how you feel, and don’t be afraid to love big.

10. hard work and determination always pay off, even if it takes a while. you will get to where you’re going if you’re diligent and passionate. don’t wait to follow your dreams.

11. laugh loud. don’t worry about what others may think of you, happiness isn’t to be confined, you’re meant to express it.

12. let yourself be loved by others. you can’t give until you’ve been filled, always let others pour into you with adorations and affections so you can do the same.

13. don’t let people look down on you because you are young, don’t let them limit your potential because of your age. your young age does mean you’re any less talented, wise or valued than those older than you.

14. be confident in who you are. there is no one else on Earth like you, be proud of the progress you’ve made.

15. being quiet is okay, being reserved does not mean you’re lacking anything. there is beauty in the silence.

16. always express yourself. express your feelings and your love. don’t repress them.

17. don’t let a set back keep you down forever. rest, recover and jump right back where you left off. work hard, practice hard.

18. love yourself and love your friends more. never stop learning and always keep growing.

You are ever changing.
But I am never changing.
Inevitable.
The change is inevitable.
No matter how hard one tries.
The world is ever changing