I could ask you to stay,
But there's really nothing left to say.

This breakup has been emotional and long,
But I know I'm strong.

I guess we naturally grew apart,
But it still hurts in my heart.

We went days without speaking or sending a text,
And I could only wonder what was next.

There were times we couldn't look each other in the eye.
How did we get this far, and why did something so special have to die?

As I write this, memories flood me.
They remind of all we used to be.

Even when things were bad, I never thought this relationship would end.
Our broken hearts I thought we could mend.

Now you've left without a goodbye.
I've got no energy to even cry.

I knew it was over when we started doing things on our own.
You got so distant and I was alone.

I tried getting you to notice that I was still there,
But you made up your mind and didn't care.

There are many nights when you're all that's on my mind.
I hope happiness is what you find.

There are days when I just can't get out of bed.
But "try" is what you always said.

So every day I try to put on a smile.
Even if it's not a real one for a while.

We were together for so many years, so do you ever shed tears?
I know I've got to let you go,

And someday I will,
But mixed emotions are what I feel.

We both made our fair share of mistakes.
It feels like I'm drowning in sadness, anger, and resentment, all in different lakes.

I honestly wish you nothing but the best
As my strength and endurance is put to the test.

My name
is No Name

No Name,
because I dont want to be remembered by
what I was born with.

I want to be remembered,
by the things I've done.
Who I've helped.

I want to be remembered
by when I was alive.
I want my generation
to be looked upon
as the 'Golden Gen'
The Generation that
changed it all.

Innocent girl,
afraid of the world.
They have no idea what goes on in your mind.

They can't see the cuts.
They can't hear your thoughts.
They can't see you're at war with yourself.

"You're too good."
"You'd never do wrong."
"You're so innocent."

They can't see you're dying.
They can't hearing your crying.
They can't hear you screaming for help.

Innocent girl,
when will you tell the world,
about the pain you feel.

They don't believe you could hurt,
They don't believe you could bleed,
They are sickened by your "perfection".

"You've never been depressed."
"You're mind is so clear."
"You've never known struggle."

Innocent girl,
when will you show the world,
the scars you have from losing your mind.

You are the sun to my day
You are the moon that creates the waves in my ocean
You are the flowers in my bouquet
You are the whimsy of my notions
You are the smile that brightens my day
And the thought of you sets it all in motion

As thanksgiving approaches,
I count my blessing
1 by 1,
2 by 2,
so on and so forth...

But when it comes to you,
I find myself counting you as both a blessing,
and a curse..

Roses aren't always red
And violets aren't exactly blue.
The society we live in
doesn't always speak the truth.

Smiles aren't always happy,
and frowns aren't always sad.
People judge to quickly,
and our feeling are too easy to forget.

Roses are red, Violets are blue,
Sugar is sweet, perhaps so are you.
The roses are wiltes, the vilets now dead.
The sugars bowl's empty, your wrists stained red.
The sun isn't shining, the sky's not clear.
There is no silver lining, because you're no longer here.
Rain keeps pourings, with no end in sight.
You're lying there frozen, too far from the light.
Your beauty was unreal, your smile was the sun.
But time can't be turned, your actions undone.
The words that you wrote, that only I read.
"I love you so much. Please don't cry when I'm dead"
A bond we formed, a love that ran deep.
A pain that we shared, a friend I could keep.
I wanted to hold you, wipe the tears from your eyes.
Been there the moment you said your goodbyes.
I want to forget, but most times I don't.
I want to let go, but I know that I won't.
Tears on my face, memories in my head.
The roses have wilted, The violets are dead

Fires ablaze within my eyes,
A smile concealing all my lies,
Screaming, begging, calling out,
A final, frantic, desperate, shout.

Scarlet tears drip from each vein,
A vehement covet to end this pain,
This silver blade, stays by my side,
Because all hope inside has died.

As each day ends, and darkness draws,
The devil toys, with all my flaws,
I'm helpless, alone, a worthless mess,
A broken child, he must address.

I'm tempted when he calls my name,
A way out, an escape, an end to shame,
To make it feel a lot less real,
A deal with the Devil, in blood must I seal.

They'll say I died of suicide,
But no one knows how much they've lied,
It wasn't a rope, a blade, or pills,
That broke my soul, and gave me chills.

I died inside so long before,
To live each day, an endless chore,
Pills could not **** what was already dead,
A twisted soul, an empty head.

In darkness I wait, in silence, alone,
Rose-tinted nostalgia, all around me has grown,
I beckon the devil, with the key of self-harm,
And I open the door for him, with the blood of my arm.

The Universe has a cellar,
A back room with heavy doors
And muffled voices.
It abuses the
Weak and young
While setting suns
Escape from guns.

It's happening now, You know?
Somebody is torn,
Somebody is taken,
Right now.
And even though we know
That it will never really get us:
It will always get us.
Just like the sun sets
Just like the Big Bangs

Galaxies shine but hidden inside
Their silhouettes,
Gritting threats.

The girl I used to be
was happy and free
But the darkness came and took it away
What happened to the girl who was once joyful and bright?
The one who used to hold so much light?

Nobody knows it's empty,
The smile that I wear.
The real one is left behind in the past
Because I left you there...

Nobody knows I am crying.
They won't even see my tears.
When they think I am laughing,
I wish you were here...

Nobody knows it's painful.
They think that I am strong.
They say it won't **** me,
But I wonder if they are wrong...

Nobody knows I miss you.
They think I am all set free,
But I feel like I am bound with chains,
Trapped in the mystery...

Nobody knows I need you.
They think I can do it on my own,
But they don't know I am crying
When I am all alone...

The floors
you walked are cold
I'm missing your footsteps.
The doors
you opened are closed
I'm hiding you there.
The air
you exhaled  still lingers
I inhale so deeply.
The words
you spoke freely....
Are now a memory inked.

I believe in the ever after
I believe in the here and now
I believe that you and I
Will make it through somehow

I believe what I do
And what I do not see
But mostly what I believe
Is what I believe

I believe there is good
In the heart of man
But I believe in an instant
We can let the evil in

I believe if we aren't careful
All this will come undone
And if we don't let love dry long enough
It will begin to run

I believe there's an answer
If you look hard enough
Which one you come up with
Is a matter of the heart

I believe if yours is beating
To the rhythm that love makes
There's not a thing that you won't do
To give that love away

I believe in the power
That a hug can hold
And I believe you can achieve anything
If negativity is let go

I believe there's a ring
That holds a special key
And once you open that door up
Then you too will believe
All that I believe

Winston-Salem, North Carolina
Italy, Texas
Benton, Kentucky
Philedelphia
Los Angeles
Oxon Hill, Maryland
Nashville, Tennesssee
Parkland, Florida...

Why is the U.S like this...
Why have there been 8 shootings this year,
and we're only 2 months in.
Why do people have the urge to hurt others.

I pray for the grieving families..
I hope that God is with them in these hard times.

A threat came to my school,
it was not fun.
I pray for the ones who's threat, turned into reality.

A rose in the grass,
plucked from the bush.
It'll die soon.
They all do.

A butterfly on the swing,
on a cool summer evening.
It just came out of the cacoon.
Some don't make it this far.

A little girl,
on the top of the slide.
Smileing from ear to ear.
Don't you wish we were all that happy?

Freeze time and all is beautiful.
There is no pain.
There is no hurting.

Freeze time and all is well.
The frowns are smiles,
The tears are dried.

Freeze time,
but it must resume sometime.

I come with no wrapping or pretty pink bows.
I am who I am, from my head to my toes.
I tend to get loud when speaking my mind.
Even a little crazy some of the time.
I'm not a size 5 and don't care to be.
You can be you and I can be me.
I try to stay strong when pain knocks me down.
And the times that I cry are when no one's around.
To error is human or so that's what they say.
Well, tell me who's perfect anyway.

i use a fake smile
I hide in stories and poems
I get sad easily.
if you think i'm gonna change for you
you're WRONG
Im. Not. Like. Them.

Blades of smoke pass through my hair,
Cutting; oxidising; as the smoke is slowly rising
through the tower of my power as I vainly gasp for air.

Cyanide, it seems, can comfort me a while,
as I'm breathing; screaming and repeating
smoky words into the floor's mute bathroom tile.

But my power is all gone; all wrong.
Oxidise: Cyanide.
Once more into my lungs.

The girl has been here all along.
Cant't you hear her sing her song?
The darkness can't hide
The light's too strong
It retreates back
to where it belongs
The girl
Is here
Happy and free
To say she's gone
The darkness took her
You were wrong
The laugh she gives, makes her stronger
Listen again to her song
Let your heart feel the words, and seep into your skin
Once again, feel the light She'll have lifelong

As the seconds pass...
We look back...
Of what our lives have held...
As the minutes pass...
We see what fell through the cracks...
Parts of our lives we withheld...
As the hours pass...
We think of what we learned...
What we have taught...
What we have forgot...
As the days pass...
We wish a lot could be returned...
We wish we would of never fought...
You hope they forget-me not...
As years pass...
You stand alone...
They have all grown...
Married and gone...
Or on their own...
As your life passes...
You stand proud...
Looking how well they raise their own...
You did well...
Live on...

You are filled,
with so many mysteries.
Yet, I am drawn to you,
more and more each day.

I done it for the millionth time
I thought about you,
and happened to pour those thoughts into a poem..

Whoops..
I pressed save..
Now the whole world can see my thoughts,
and maybe understand my struggle
as I try to
forget
you

once and for all

If at times you feel you want to cry.
And life seems such a trial.
Above the clouds there's a bright blue sky
So make your tears a smile.

As you travel on life's way
With its many ups and downs
Remember it's quite true to say
One smile is worth a dozen frowns.

Among the worlds expensive things
A smile is very cheap
And when you give a smile away,
You get one back to keep.

Happiness comes at times to all
But sadness comes unbidden
And sometimes a few tears must fall
Among the laughter hidden.

So when friends have sadness on their face
And troubles round them piled
The world will seem a better place
And all because you smiled

I
am
forgotten.

I once was this beautiful bright flower,
then he came along and plucked me from my spot.
He stuck me in a vase,
watered me,
nurtured me.
Then forgot me.

I
am
forgotten

I was the blue sky,
and he was the red sky.
We could not stay away.
Then he bled into me,
and I turned to purple.
He decided, purple wasn't for him.
Then he forgot me.

I
am
forgotten

I think of all out memories
The good,
The bad,
The pretty,
The ugly.

I remember every single thing you said,
my responses.

I remember the very last words you said to me,
"I love you, but I'm sorry"

Funny, because you don't seem very sorry
for all that you did to me..