I smell your hair soft and near,

Skin so warm my love lives here,

Memories I hear so loud,

As they send you six feet down,

Your lips once more I wish to kiss,

So much this bullet shall not miss...

I must clear this blood smeared window,

It won't wipe clean,

For Hell I've seen,

Listen, hear my pain's crescendo?


Cold and bleak alone I shall shriek,

To hate today,

Life go away,

I chose to be this weeping freak,


The price of sin is paid with hope,

Take all my dreams,

And self-esteem,

Up high my sickness ties the rope,


They all just laugh and put me down,

For most death comes without a sound.

Is mom making her iced tea?

Dad's at work I guarantee,

But now I wake from my dream,

With tears for how they abandoned me.

Please come back your love I need!

His cause of death was suffering.

As you lay now down to sleep,

In my shell I hide and weep,

I live for you just to bleed,

Given deathly thoughts to comfort me.

A black sick wraith,

Dissolving faith,

Haunts my mind,

As it decides,

How dark today shall be for me,



Endless is this misery,

Constant curses whispering,

Through my broke and tortured being,

Flows this Hell that no ones seeing,

Now silently the grave I crave,



Foulness may corrode beliefs,

As inside I fight for peace,

But my dreams shall not be burned,

Drowning in this agony I've learned,

If today I breathe I still believe,



And all my demons trapped within?

We shall rot together in the end.