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Mia Oct 2012
The enchantress has got me
under her soft illusionary spell
only her my eyes see
as angelic as the monalisa.
Me don't mind being a pet
My senses so aroused
tuned to her every need.
My heart beating in time
to her spirit's pulse
Me walks where she does
skipping along the path
she has lain with flowers
Me drinks from her essence
overflowing with power
pretty as the universe
me don't mind this spell.
Mia Jan 2013
I wish I could be
With you all the time.
Just drink you in
Like a dose of drugs
Addictive pleasurable drugs.
And have you plant on me
Little butterfly kisses .
In your arms I am taken
To paradise.
I miss you
So much my love.
Mia Aug 2013
He is frozen in time,
At a place where everything moves slowly,
Snow flakes falling round his heart.
He doesn't move to stop the pattern,
Stuck between past and future
There is a place where it all makes sense,
Somewhere he lost himself.
He borrowed my heart years ago then left, and then he came back and am not sure he will ever return it
Mia Jul 2021
Isn't it funny?
How quickly forever turns to never?

How sweet nothings
Blossom to bitter somethings.

Each I love you,
A burning coal of regret.

The promise to always fight for you
Forget amidst the next one's legs.

And all your hopes
Wither to ashes.

The dreams you shared.
Become a waking nightmare.

You long for oblivion.
But remember each forgotten moment with clarity.

How many times can your heart break?
Before it ceases to mend.

Is there a place where wrongs can be right?
And the right one who will never leave lives?

Take me back to before we met.
Where i was me not this shell who survived losing you.

Can our love be upside down
The right side up someday.
Regrets Lancelot
Mia Feb 2013
You drew me in
Like a deep dark secret
Encircling me with your tentacles
******* out my voice.
I couldn't speak what I felt
Like a vortex you wiped out
my thoughts.
I was empty and nothing
Without a voice or thought.
You wiped me out
Like a tidal storm
Brutal, violent, harsh.
With ruthless intent
you erased my every hope.
I was alone
Oh so alone.
Crumbling on the inside
folding in on myself.
Can anyone hear me?
My cries to get out.
Pain. Pure hot agony
searing my bones and mind
                    Help.
           Get me out!!
Falling deep into an abyss
Of nothingness and loneliness
nothing but space and time.
They have become my prison.
Mia Jan 2013
You know I will wait here
On the breath of promises
That you made to me
In the cold night air.

         I will wait for you
     On a thousand wings
         Keeping me afloat
    Among the angel voices.

This is a virtual reality here
Where we meet as we please
Each time you choose a different avatar
Adonis, Achilles, Apollo.
Always Virile and breathtaking
You are worth it all and more.

Someday you will return to me
Like summer or winter
For you are my soulmate
Bound to me in truth and hope
one day time will be ours.
Mia May 2013
I don't remember leaving my story.
I woke up and I was a part of yours.
I thought we could share space,
Co exist in love and harmony.
For a while you smiled,
The pied piper smile that led me by string into your life.
I was happy and carefree.
Throwing away my worries and pain.
Somehow I gave up pieces of me,
So you and I could fit better together.
I lie around waiting for a hug,
It's the only way I come alive.
Even though you wrote me out,
I keep waiting here for you,
To remind me what it's like,
To live, love and smile.
Sometimes you come alive for me.
Mia Mar 2013
I was wondering if you think of me
It could have been different,you know
We were both pig headed.
If only i had shut up and you listened
Walked away and you stopped me.
I half hoped you would follow
Tell me we would be okay.
But am afraid your angry words
And my broken heart
Have dug their nails into holds
Forcing us apart.
I can't cross the chasm without you
been wiped out of sanity by pain
If ever you change your mind
I will be by the bridge
Waiting for a kiss.
If not, then i will have given up
On love and such things.
Mia Oct 2012
its pretty hard to watch the light go out
someone disappointed in you
who once thought the world of you.

no one is perfect
you put me on a pedestal
can't you see am human?
walking on the ground.

let me be me
a diamond rough round the edges
taking my time
getting where I belong.
Mia Apr 2013
I can't tell if we are friends,
I can't tell if we are more.
You hold my hand and walk me home.
You don't hug or kiss me goodnight.
the hours build up to a crescendo
Where am with you.
I long to be with you more.
You text me goodnight,
And it stretches out to hours.
Where none wants to let go.
I study you when you're not looking.
Does he secretly want more?
Should i cross the threshold?
But you go on taking midnight walks with me,
And talking into the wee hours.
You keep your distance,
Nothing fazes you.
You asked me today,
What i wanted in a guy.
Am still rewriting that.
Mia Dec 2012
I keep watching you with her
Fingers entwined intimately
In the way that lovers do.
Completing each others lines
It makes me yearn for you
In ways I thought I was over
To feel your arms on me
Your lips covering me in kisses
your loving embrace once more
We gave all that up before
when it wasn't working for us
Now I think we were hasty
I still love you, you know.
I want you to come back
into my loving arms.
Mia Nov 2012
you used to be mine
and now you're not
I see you look at her
the way you used to look at me
with a twinkle in your eye
a light only she brings.

I hate this girl you're seeing
kinda makes it sink in
we are never getting
back together.
I miss knowing you're mine
to cuddle and hold.
to call at a quarter past one
and sing how i need you now.

You were all I wanted
till i changed my mind
and now she is all over you
and I want you back.
not to have and to hold
but so that she can't have you
yes am selfish,
but I want that look back.
Mia Mar 2014
What if I told you I was going to hurt you so bad you couldn't bear to live?
That I would creep into your heart,
Make myself a home there,
Then walk out on you one day.
Would it make it easier if you knew I was going to leave?
Or would it just hurt you more knowing this wasn't real.

What if I told you I loved you so much I couldn't bear to let you go?
But I trampled on you and left you bruised.
So bad- you couldn't heal.
Would you forgive me for not being able to love you the way you deserve?
Or would it take out the candle burning for me?

What if I told you that this was all wrong?
You loving me, me loving you.
That it wouldn't last past a moment.
If that moment was all we had,
Would you love me more or less?
Tell me something a little nicer,
Or push me farther away?

What if we could make this work?
What if you didnt make me cry myself to sleep everynight?
What if this was all a bad dream and we could wake up married with kids?
I wish fate was a coin I could spin and get happily ever after.
Mia Jun 2013
Is love the ache I get when you're far away?
The smile that breaks upon my face when I catch
you looking at me.
The urge I get to kiss you when you meet my eye and catch your teeth between your lips.
I want to love you with my eyes, lips, body and soul.
Love you so you forget everyone that loved you before.
Take you on a trip you won't forget and tell you this is it, the beginning of forever.
To wake up next to you and watch you sleep.
To hold your hand when we have nothing to say and its enough.
I want to be with you everyday and know that I chose to be here.
Mia Mar 2013
I draw a picture
Of the sun, the moon.
You see the light rays colliding with colors red and blue
Such beautiful sparks to light your way.

I sing a song of love
Enduring and full of promise.
You waltz to the swing in my voice
And lead me on a merry chase.
Together we watch sound and light collide.
Mia May 2013
We wear prices to work,
The cost of being a success or failure.
The confident strut to the sixth floor,
In Jimmy choos and Hermes.
You pass by her, cowering at the elevator door.
In thin soled Bidcos and patched lesu.
The tea lady you don't really notice.
Her pale skin matched the dust on the window panes.
Brought on from watching the world pass by in a blur.
She pushed the button for the ground floor and watched the walking label go to the top.

We wear prices to church.
Our bible and hymn book easily preserved from the top shelf.
Unworn from weekly visits to the Holy place.
The priest wants a new house,
Your neighbor needs a car,
You need to eat more.

We wear prices to a match.
Will our country qualify this time round? Or is it just a farce?
Buy a ticket, buy a drink.
This establishment must see many a buck.

We let prices define us,
We are bought for a song and sell each other out.
Mother said set the right price,
And so i stand at the streets,
waiting for someone to pay my worth.
Mia Jan 2013
I told you to ask for anything
Whatever you wanted
And you blew me away
Said I had given everything
You could ever wish for
Now am wondering what to do
For I really need to get you
Something to remember
Mia Mar 2013
If you ever love another
Out of respect to me,
Do not bring her
To the house you bought for you and I.
If she should make it to our home
Do not carry her over the threshold
like you did me.
If you carry her into our home
Do not place her on our bed.
The one where you made love to me
where we dreamed of making life
A daughter for you to spoil
A son for me to be proud of.
If you make love to her in our bed,
Turn the light's off
That she may not see my soul
Screaming in agony
That she may not see my pictures
Still hanging on the wall
That she may not know i live
In your heart even though am gone.
Mia Jun 2013
I found more,
When I walked out of the warmth of your arms into the freezing cold.
I looked beyond you and me,
There were so many other little things to fill up the space.
I tested the boundaries of our love to see if they were real.
I found addiction and obsession, things more powerful than your indifference.
I wanted to be loved singlemindedly, you gave me tolerance.
I lost myself along with you.
In half thought decisions and hasty actions.
I told myself you didn't care.
But why do you look at me with disappointment?
I wanted more but instead I lost you,
You could be everything.
Mia Feb 2013
I want to know what you feel
when you hold me
At night under the stars.
Does your heart beat fast?
Like a bass drum?
Or like a clickety clack train engine?
Do you catch your breath
In silken webs of time
And hold on to you and I.
Does it feel like magic?
Everytime our fingers intertwine
It's everything beautiful
That comes alive
When you and I collide.
Mia Apr 2013
Its that time of the day
Where my heart aches again.
For more.
More of you.
More memories.
More time together.
But instead am alone,
So horribly alone.
Wishing you were here,
To kiss the pain away.
It feels like  breaking each bone,
And breaking them some more.
I want to scream from the agony,
Of knowing you might not want me.
I cry and writhe and mourn,
The sanity escaping my mind.
And deep down i know,
I won't be ok until you return.
Mia Jan 2013
I hate it when you leave
at night after being with me
Your side of my bed remains
Wrinkled and cold.
I can trace the shape of you
and see your imprint.
It emphasizes that you're gone
When I need you all night
To hold me close and kiss me
when I don't expect it.
The worst part when you go
Is the emptiness I feel
I want to beg you to return
And just hold me through the night.
Mia Jul 2013
I think of you, everytime I open my eyes.
I see your face in the shadows watching me.
You look worried for me.
Do you think I have changed too much?
Am not the same carefree girl who fell in love.
The pain pushed me to leave,
I couldn't take it anymore.
Being dismissed as easily as everyone else.
You let me fall when you weren't willing to be there with me.
You broke me to pieces when you left without saying goodbye.
Now I see your face in every curve,
I hear your voice in the echos of your absence.
I want you with every tear.
I need you.
Mia Jan 2013
You carry my heart on a whim
I wear yours on my sleeve
But what I really do want;
Is you.
To whisper in my ear
And hug me tight
In the cold chilly night.
As we walk to the forked road
There you take the left path
And I remain still
Watching, wondering
do I go with him or away?
one thing is for sure
It's hard to watch you leave
I want all night with you.
To kiss you all over
and make sweet promises.
Be your sensual siren
Lure you in with my beauty
I want a willing slave
Just say yes and take me.
Mia Apr 2013
'Time is so strange here,It goes slower.'Said the pale ghostly boy.He slowly trudged next to me,feet seeming to shuffle forward step by slow step.His feet barely touched the ground. He was roughly seventeen or eighteen. His face had no trace of human emotion, as if waned by the afterlife. His voice seemed unconnected to him, it was disembodied and all around us. He came to a stop infront on me. 'We don't get visitors often,' he said. I replied, ' I sort of ended up here accidentally.' He smiled then, a sad all knowing chilly smile. It sent a surge of fear through me. He said, ' There are no mistakes. You are here for a purpose.' I was lost and disillusioned. I still expected to wake up and find that i was merely dreaming. I would give anything to be in my warm comforting bed right now. Instead, i was in a damp dungeon talking to a ghostly form. I asked him, ' Are you dead?' He seemed puzzled by my question. He replied, ' This is not the end, if to you death is an end. It is merely a gateway to a more static existence. I still exist.' My spirits sank when i heard this. If he was not a figment of my imagination, maybe i was dead too. I would never see Lulu and Bito again. Tears trickled down my cheeks as i let the pain i had been shutting out come flooding it. It was truely over, the existence i had abused and abhorred. I wished for another chance, maybe it would end separately.
Mia May 2013
I used to be that girl,
With a spring in my step.
And not a hair out of place.
She danced with flames and fire
yet somehow kept her cool.

I am that strong branch,
That sways with the wind and yet remains unchanged.
I bow and bend without breaking.
Becoming one with the world that's shaking,
I am everything and nothing.
Mia Feb 2014
The only thing worse than being alone,
is being with you.
Coz I spend all day telling myself you're busy,
And all night convincing myself you aren't busy.
Either way I never see you.

How hard is it to pick up the phone and say 'babe I miss you.'
But you can call to ask where am at? Who am with?
What are you, my parole officer?

I try so hard to be what you want,
Tripping over my feelings so as not to tread on yours.
But you humiliate me,
Insult me and ignore me.

It hurts!!!!
I cry myself to sleep at night holding out for a hug that won't come.
I long for you to put aside your animosity and tell
me you need me.
I tremble when I get the shakes from withdrawal cause am hooked on your love.
I wish you could just put yourself in my shoes and tell me,
Would you stay or leave?

I look at you and see someone I have never met.
You could walk away and wipe my name off your heart.
I reach out and touch empty space,
Cause you aren't here.
You act like you are but you aren't.
Tell me, do you still love me?
Mia Feb 2013
Pushing shards of hurt
Deeper into my heart.
Spreading searing pain
through every scar that remains.
It's not supposed to hurt
like there is no end to this
will you ever stop?
I still love you
Need you to hold me.
Won't you be my partner,
Lover and friend?
Am not ready to lose you
See you make it all better
won't you look in your heart
Find a place for you and I.
Why
Mia Dec 2012
Why
When you call me over
I come rushing to see you
And then you treat me like crap

Not fair cause I care
What you say and do
Why can't you love me
The way I yearn for
Instead of acting like am crap
And not worth total love

I know I deserve to be loved
the question is do you?
Cause when you break my heart
I Lose myself in pain.
Mia Nov 2012
You break my heart
you slit my wrists
I lose hope, I lose control.

You trample me
you suffocate me.
Am losing it, am dying here.

You give me up
you shut me out
Stupid me refuses to let go.
Mia Dec 2012
If only I could say goodbye
And totally let go
It would save me damages
In heartbreaks and pain.
Instead I say my farewell
Hoping you will stop me
And say that you need me.
If only life were a landscape
You would be the mural
I paint on the wall.
Mia Oct 2012
I take you in
on the breath of a kiss
your warm hard body cradling mine
your gentle hands holding me
closer and closer each second
cupping the back of my head
caressing my hair.

Yes,I inhale you
on a breeze in the cold night
watching the moonlight
lying side by side in silence
listening to the rhythm
of bonded heartbeats.

I can perceive your thoughts
just as though they were mine
memories of yesterday
wishes of forever
in this moment you are all I want
and we belong in the now.
Mia Oct 2012
It takes baby steps
to fall out of love
yet falling in love is fast
like a rollercoaster ride
going with the waves
up and down.

you can't unknow someone
whose very essence is burned
into the depths of your soul
can't forget the one
who fills your every waking thought.

I want to unlearn every lesson
forget the bad memories
learn to let go of the pain
discover who I am and who I can be without you.
Mia Mar 2014
It's day 67 and I don't have you.
But am not falling apart.
Cause 279 days ago you swept me off my feet.
I thought I had found my soulmate,
The person I would spend my life with.
Instead you turned out to be a fluke.
You abused me and used me,
Spun me a web of destruction and pushed me off the edge.
You turned me into someone I regret.
Someone i look into the mirror and cringe from.
I don't want to be the girl who forces you to be in my life,
Or the girl who makes you leave.
You give me no choice.
I have to push you or be hurt.
I choose me.
Mia Oct 2012
I wanna sit with you
be alive with you
watch the sun come out with you
everyday I watch you smile
at a joke I said
or watch you reach out
hold my hand and live
it is with me that you wake
see the light
and love.
Mia Dec 2012
I was there when it started
This pact between the sexes
The ceasefire and marriage
a union blessed by the heavens.

I walked the path
Well trodden by man
faithfully followed by woman.
He promised to protect,
She promised to support.

What was left unsaid
was she expected to be loved
He needed to feel strong
She wanted a romance
he thought he would be obeyed.

That's where we got it wrong
We all need the same thing
Someone that can listen,
in different ways.
We were meant to live
Together in peaceful union.
Mia Jan 2013
A part of me wonders
Do you really love me?
If you had to choose
Between what you want
And what you need
Would I even surface?
Or am I a repressed need?
Something you only get
Cause it's in your face.
If I walked away for a day
For a while, eternity
Would you follow me?
Look for me to the end?
Or would you realize the truth
that it was just a dream
You love everything else more.
I don't want to be second best
I deserve more, you know that
So take your time, think
but when you're done I will be gone.
Mia Feb 2013
Why won't you try
To give this everything
And make it work.
Somedays I cry my heart out
Waiting for you to see me
And understand what I feel.
You hurt me with your indifference
cold hearted nonchalance.
Like whether I leave or not
Life goes on.
I ask myself
Does he even care?
or am I simply too available
A means to a starving end.
I need you to show me
You're human too
Be vulnerable and open up
I don't want to hurt you, just love you
But you won't even let me.
Mia Sep 2013
You have become an illusion,
Weaving round my senses like smoke,
Curling and drifting, teasing my memories.
Was it real when you laced your fingers through mine?
Squeezed mine as if to reassure me.

I want to bleed out all the things I felt.
Trickles of darkness and hope,
That it would get better.
The days it did get better and i thought it was over.
But we remained in a rut,
Trapped, broken, hurting.

I wish I could push my hand through your chest,
Hammer your heart till you feel again.
Tie you to your favorite memories,
Until you remember what we had.
But forcing you to remember scalds,
Leaving wounds I can't heal.

So am going to write you away,
With words and verse and prose.
Write you to infinity and beyond.
Trap you between pages of a book,
seal your essence in something beyond you.
So I can purge myself of you.
Mia Feb 2013
I can't read you
It's like trying to fly
Or see through concrete.
Cause you are confusing
Sending signals here and there
Today you want me
Tomorrow let's be friends.
You miss me
You wanna be friends.
You ***** with my head
Make me scream.
Just face the truth
You want me not over you.
Pretty selfish you know.
You
Mia Oct 2012
You
there is something about you
that makes me smile
your eyes maybe
or just your face
i just look at you and smile.

your voice lulls me to sleep
or even to feel secure
that you will hold me
and keep me safe.

the way you hold me
makes me feel like am home
right where i belong
in your arms,with you.
You
Mia Jul 2014
You
The walls breathe out memories of
you,
From when you were last here.
They sigh the words you never said,
They moan from touches remembered
How come you don't touch me like
you used to?
Did I change or did you change?
it was moments like this which built
us,
Stolen kisses and hours when we couldnt spare time.
Regrets over ugly words said.
I guess what am trying to say is this;
I miss you.
My bed feels so large without you.
I need you.
Somehow my heart cant beat without you.
I love you.
Won't you make an honest woman out of me?
You
Mia Jul 2013
You
I come awake at 2 am each day,
My body yearning for yours.
But am always alone. So alone.
I check my messages hoping you are awake.
I long to read that you're thinking of me too.
Whatsapp has become a painful poke,
That you were up and not thinking of me.
I wonder if you think of some other girl, like I do of you.

I try to get back to sleep,
But all I dream are pictures of you.
Taking me away from pain.
Loving me the way I want you to.
Even my dreams don't go right.
My sub conscious senses it isn't you.

I sink to the depths of sorrow.
I wallow in tears and self pity.
Is this love?
This pain when you hurt me,
that drives a knife through my chest?
This constant delusion that you didn't mean to.
The fixation on you alone.
Is it you or the idea of you that pleases me?
You break me into a million pieces,
And still I wait for you to fix me.
YOU
Mia May 2013
YOU
You said you would always love me,
Joke's on me
I believed in love,
and believed in you.

You promised to never leave my side.
Never is a long time.
I should have taken out insurance,
on loneliness and solitude.

You weaved your way into my web,
now we are all tangled up.
I can't live with you,
can't live without you.
Am a dripping mess of tears.

You took over my heart and filled it up,
with beautiful lies and silent promises.
I assumed too much when you said it was something,
I should never have listened to my soul,
when it whispered your name.
Mia Oct 2012
come to me
with arms wide open
heart fast beating
spirit eager to find its kindred.

lie with me
under the starry night sky
wishing for forever
no regrets whatsoever.

Be my lover and friend
to share and care
hold my hand through it all
and i'll hold yours.
Mia Jun 2013
I keep thinking of you and me,
Me and you.
You say you love me,
I say I need you.
I should have told you instead that at night when am all alone,
I long for you to hold me.
I want to tell you that you're all I think about, but you won't believe me.
You think am using you as a lifeline to get through the pain.
You can't see that my every need is tied to you.
Loving you,
Being with you.
Making you mine.
I am a wreck without you.

I want to sob into your chest, tell you my hopes and dreams.
Have you next to me as I face my fears.
I draw my strength from you.
I want you to yearn to be with me, as much as am dying to be with you.
I am crazy about you, why can't you see that?

I want to sink into your embrace,
Kiss my breath, past and pain into you,
Draw in your history, pain and life,
share myself with you.
It's only you for whom I cry,
It's you my heart beats faster for.
Mia Mar 2013
I feel like i can see
after a moment of sightlessness.
Delighting in the little things
Like an unexpected smile
An all encompassing hug.
It fills me up and i float
On a cloud of meaning,
A little less that i don't know.
If nothing makes sense anymore
At least i can muster a smile.

I want to listen to the wind sing
Dance as it blows the figs and leaves.
I want to fly,
I could almost step off a ledge.
Drawing on strength from within
Absorbing pain from without.

I shudder from the pain of the oppressed
Unable to step out of jail
Shackled to hopelessness
Stuck in a third rate jail.

You hold the key to Destiny
If only you could cut loose your fears
Of failure, rejection and doom.
You need a friend to believe in you,
Share your dreams.
Go out to the highest point you can find
Rage at the world.
I am here! I belong!
Mia Jan 2013
I love you, I do.
But you just keep hurting me
In ways seemingly unthought of
It's like you take the time
To think up a unique way.

I want you, you know that
but you don't want me back
If you did you would be here
By my side taking my breath away
Tasting life's pleasures together.

I need you, can't you see that?
You make the pain go away
Hold me in a warm embrace
With you I end up in a place
where there is no tomorrow or yesterday
Just the time in which we are
And it's ours to use.

Me and you have always been
Like fire and ice
Your passion to my coolness
my enthusiasm to your indifference
And yet somehow the pieces fit together.
Sometimes all I can think about is how much I love you and the other times I just regret ever meeting you. Bound to you in more ways than one whether in pleasure or pain
Mia Nov 2012
He makes me smile
with the little things he does.
The thoughtful gestures
and compromises for me
In trying to make me happy.

I know he is the one
Cause my heart flutters
when he says he loves me.
I long for his embrace
His heated hands on my flesh
I want to be branded by him
And become one.
Mia Jun 2013
With each whisper, you draw me out of my shell.
The words that lull me to let my guard down so you can reach me.
You let me know there is something you see,
The reason why you keep trying to get in.
I sting you with my words and insecurities.
You soothe me with words formed of love.
Even when I push you away, you come back and hold me.
That is exactly what I need.
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