She says she tripped
She always says she did
Down the stairs
Knocked her head against the door
Even when we call her bluff
She sticks to the story.
It's the only way she knows
To cope with the pain
He hits her everyday
It's sad to watch her cry.

She thinks it's too late
No one can ever help
Not strong enough to testify
Besides who would believe?
an upstanding citizen to be a wifebeater?
He threatens to take away
The little ones if she ever tells
She cowers in a corner
Fearing for her life.
She loves her kids.

He's got her brainwashed
that he dragged her out of hell
She should be grateful
no one ever will love her.
She believes him
No sense of self worth
She thinks she is lucky
She must defend him
He only wants to make her
Happy as can be.
And so she lies everyday.

Am afraid of the dark
I guess it's the monsters
That peer in the dark
And ****** the innocence
Of the waking souls.
I don't want to sleep
Because I don't want to dream
The haunted vicious kind
Running from something
I can't even see
Feeling it gaining on me
Losing options to escape
From the snaring beast
I want a fear free night
From beasts and nightmares
All I want is light in the dark.

I want to believe this badly
That you are meant for me
But each time I see you
You seem more out of my league
A charming prince in a castle
To my isolated tower
Am a little girl in deep waters
Waiting for you to help me out
One day I might get you
And then it will be alright.

When you call my name
It's an echo of longing
You want me closer
you need to feel me.
Maybe it gets better,or not
I just want to feel needed
In the throes of your passion.
lose your mind with me.

I can make you beg
For more of this
You know you want it
It will always be
Stronger than before
you want to breathe me
I intoxicate your senses
just inhale and am yours.

It's 12 am
I can't sleep
I would rather be outside
in the nice cold air
Watching the stars
Cuddling with you.
The shivers from your kisses
Would eclipse those from cold
You would ask me to stay
I would love being up all night.

We go back and forth
Traveling the same paths
Visiting conversations already had
Looking for another ending
different interpretations
Seeing things from a fresh view
Maybe we will discover
A way to dance round this
Find peace among shards
Maybe there is love
Or we are holding on too long.

Dont want to say goodbye
When it's you I want
To spend my life with.
If it's sorrow and pain in our way
The fates must be wrong
We are so right together.
Take my mind by storm
Satisfy me as I ****** you
It's an enchantment on us
One with every design
To give us a good time.
You know I love you
Even though you don't believe
that this could ever be.

I want to look into your heart
And find myself
Nestled in a corner
Wrapped around all the space
lingering with a warmth
Vibrating with life.
Taking tours to the mind
Totally at home with you
When you love me.

I would call you up
Just to hear your voice.
Snuggle closer as you sleep.
Hug you for no apparent reason
take long walks hand in hand
Give you all my love
Make you happy.

Am tired of fighting
and all the lies.
You either love me or not.
If you thought about me;
You would call or text
Not be caught up with things
Are they more important than me?
If this isn't what you want
Let me go please
Breaking my heart
Is all you are doing now.

I came to see you today
In a nice cream dress
Belted at the waist.
You took one look at me
Smiled and got up.
Hugged me and held me
Told me I looked beautiful,
kissed me and pushed me
Against the wall as you touched me
Took my breath away.
You pulled away and said
You just couldn't help it.
I had a silly smile on my face
You walked me home,
Hand in hand.
We took the scenic route
You didn't want the day to end
Fingers entwined
you kissed me goodbye.
Am wearing the smile now
That you left me with.

A box is all I have left
Of the things you gave to me
And the ones you left behind
Memories we shared
Photographs of holidays
Paintings we bought
The clothes I wore for dates
Every other reminder.
Am placing all those in
Going to dig deep and bury
Beneath the soil
Under a glass cover.
So that time and again I peer
Am sure when I heal
Nothing but soil will remain.

I have always been her
That girl
the one that draws attention
Artistically, intrinsically
you just have to see her.
Everything you have dreamed
and yet nothing like she seems
She is surreal and yet real.

And now
That was then, before
now there is another girl
Whom all girls watch with green
guys strive to impress
She has charisma and poise
Elegance and pride
She is the new me
A better improved version.

I fell for you so easily
like rain drops on a cloudy day
My fears ceased to matter
I was cool as cucumber
Thought you had got it
This thing we had going.

But nothing lasts forever
everyone says that
I should have prepared better
Maybe shut you out first
packed your love in a case
And returned it to you.

What am I supposed to do
Without a heart?
All my ideals crushed
I was truly naive to believe
in love with all it's forms.
Guile is the most common
Should have seen through you.

I was but a wisp of a child
When the fairies played
Tag at my bedside.
Even then they glowed
like fireflies in the night.
soon they took me out
On adventures as the house slept
To see princesses and knights
enchantments and spells.
They told me not to open
the book of fairy tales
For the stories therein
would ruin my imagination.
One rainy night I was bored
my mother came to sit by me
She read me a story
once upon a time.
The fairies hated the rain you know
but I never saw them again.

I miss you
And how it used to be.
Long night walks
Tender brief  shy embraces
On the porch in the moonlight
calls that go on and on
Where we say nothing
and yet it means everything.
holding hands as we talk
sharing sweet kisses
Intoxicating in their feel.
we were so happy
It was surreal.
Those were the days I believed in love.

Kiss me
The way you usually do
Hold me
Tighter than before.
Hug me
Close so I can feel you
Listen to your heartbeat.
Touch me
In ways that make me moan
It's only you that can
For we are bound, you and I
Make love to me
Every single day.

It was a classic deception
One that wasn't easy to tell
You see the lines were blurry
Between truth and lies.
I fell for the velvety feel
Of perfection just how I needed it.
He knew what I needed
and delivered it dressed up
Just the way I liked it.
Classy,  irresistible, perfect.
I thought this was it
The beginning of the end
Everything exactly as it should
until the layers began to Peel
Coat after coat of trickery
Beguiling my senses.
The mist began to thin
And I could see
Exactly what you were
A serpent of exceptional skill
You led me on a merry chase.

I have liked you for so long
But you seemed aloof
out of my league.
And now by a random twist
You fall into my life again
like prearranged cards
Fitting in their place.
Suave and sure.
Today you called me beautiful
And I just want to run to you
With all I have.
Let you hold me tight
Kiss me as I fit my body close
And enjoy now with you.

I waited
Through the stormy weather
I waited
as the grass grew and became greener
You can't argue with that,
I did wait.

You wanted
a rug to wipe your shoes
You wanted
A punching bag
You wanted
Unconditional obedience.
All those things you wanted I will never be.

I loved.
You with all my heart
You never
Showed me you cared.
I loved.
Even though it broke my heart
You never
Held me when I needed you.
I loved.
Being the girl you had.
You never
Called me your own.

I cant stop thinking about you
Maybe in another life
It could have been different.
You and I
Walking hand in hand
Inch by agonizing inch
Along the tightrope twined
With space for only two.
Watching glorious sunsets
Minding nothing but time
Counting how long we have
Wanting so much more.

In another life you would be
Mine as I am yours.
Kiss your lips in the moonlight
Hold you close when we hug
Whisper seductive secrets
in your ear when we aren't alone.
I would give you everything
and love you tenfold too.
Maybe you would share my bed
Give me all of you
And be my forever together.

A part of me wonders
Do you really love me?
If you had to choose
Between what you want
And what you need
Would I even surface?
Or am I a repressed need?
Something you only get
Cause it's in your face.
If I walked away for a day
For a while, eternity
Would you follow me?
Look for me to the end?
Or would you realize the truth
that it was just a dream
You love everything else more.
I don't want to be second best
I deserve more, you know that
So take your time, think
but when you're done I will be gone.

Today I stand at the brink
With nothing but my ink.
And peer down at the masses
Doing all forms of dances.
Swarming as they  wait
For the actual date.
For me to reach my peak.
Something that kept them meek
One day they will believe
After putting me through the sieve
that I will become greatness.

I remember falling in love
It was magical,
It was quick,
I was helpless.
You blew me away
Like a storm on a dark cloud
I was lost from the start.
Like a little wandering child.
I don't remember falling out
It was slow and gradual,
Maybe the jealousy
Or the way you didn't care
But either way I lost it.
The desire to be with you
It's truely gone
You weren't who I wanted
You changed too much.

I was counting on you
How could I not when I loved you?
In my own way I surely did
You swept me off my feet
Were my biggest fan
Built up a surreal world with me
Where all our dreams came to
I couldn't help myself
Couldn't resist you're lure
You called to me like a siren
I was doomed from the start.
I was superficial for you
You only saw what you wanted
Not knowing it was pure and true
I was waiting for you here
By the door of the house
we had planned to live in.
Then you didn't call or text
you simply never showed.
***** you and your ego
In the end that's what it was
Self gratification.
You made me see what I needed
you walked out anyway
how could you forget our plans?
how could you?

You broke my heart
Actually pulled it out
Looked at and felt it
Warm and quivering in your palms
And squeezed with all your might
Till nothing was left.
I thought you cared
Was lost in your spell
Until you broke it into ashes
I will forever be broken
Unwholesome,unfinished
Because you're so cold
You destroyed me in a flash
You abused my heart
You annihilated me.

I sit by myself at the road
looking in all directions
Hoping for a sign.
No idea what I'll find.
A man passes by
'What are you waiting for? '
He asks.
'Am not sure, ' I reply.
He shakes his head and goes.
I watch the sun travel round
marking it's territory
finding it's comfort zone.
The sun sets and still I wait
My gaze set on the fading blaze
Twilight dances into moonlight
And then you come by
Walking your dog.
A light comes on in my head
I run into your arms and hug you
'Do I know you? ' you ask.
I smile delightedly and replied,
'You will.'
You hold my hand and we walk
Through the night to the dawn
No wasted words or chatter
As the sun rises we realize
This is exactly what we need
It's everything meant to be.

I would give up my smile
just to have you here
On my lap
Legs spread out.
Head back as you moan
In the ecstasy my fingers bring
you're so passionate when you're wet.

I would give up my freedom
To become your slave
Bringing you to the brink
Each and everyday
Staring into your liquid eyes
As you scream my name.
Knowing you want me
Is worth these chains.

Once again I asked the question
the one I have been hanging on to
Hoping the answer is right
So it can all be worth it.
I worded it round a ring
In spirals and mazes
You won't get it before you get me
That way I can be sure
This is it.

I keep watching you with her
Fingers entwined intimately
In the way that lovers do.
Completing each others lines
It makes me yearn for you
In ways I thought I was over
To feel your arms on me
Your lips covering me in kisses
your loving embrace once more
We gave all that up before
when it wasn't working for us
Now I think we were hasty
I still love you, you know.
I want you to come back
into my loving arms.

When you kiss me
Time stops for a while
For I am drawn to you
Like a moth to the flame
The passion builds in us
You hold me tighter
And take fewer breaths.
Hands wandering over me
Inhaling the scent of me
Lost in the spell
Only you and I can Weave
I want you in that moment
To hold me closer than before
have as much of me as you like
I want to give myself to you.

You built a wall
Between you and I
At first with paper and string
And later with bricks
Severing our connection
Leaving not even a trace.
You shut me out of your life
Wrote me out of your story
with grim determination.
I loved you once
A mistake I won't make again.

Broken promises
hung upon dreams
Of you and me.
Things you said you would do
Memories we were to share
Terminating in regrets,
Sorrowful goodbyes
Where we can't reconcile
Our differences and pain.
Sometimes love isn't enough
when you walk alone
On separate sides of a road
And all forms of bridges
Collapse in defeat.

I hate how you make fun of me
When am angry at you
As if you're having a private joke
amused that I can be so mad
Saying that am so hot angry
Only makes me want to punch
Your chest with my fists
Even if it will hurt them more.
I want you to placate me
Pacify me and indulge me
Tell me you don't want me mad
Cause am yearning for affection
funny thing is it's you
That can take away the rage
I love it when you shut me up,
With a kiss.
Or hold me as I cry
(I wish)
Instead you watch me and say
What is it this time?
I just love you for loving me.

I like to kiss your lips
As I eat my icecream
Feel it melting in your mouth
As you bring me closer for more
I could lie next to you forever
as I taste you and you taste me
I know It's going to be okay
As long as we love icecream.

I stand alone at the door
waiting anxiously for you
I hold on to a voice
Sounding in my head
One that urges me on
When no one else does.
The view that I watch changes
basing on my thoughts.
Bright and dull ones,
many a foe are perplexed.
But most of all I feel
That I can see the rebels
Before they cross my threshold
Those that wouldn't let me
Direct their waking moments
They undermine my orders
like a couple of pesky kids
So crush them I will.
With my every thought.