If only I could say goodbye
And totally let go
It would save me damages
In heartbreaks and pain.
Instead I say my farewell
Hoping you will stop me
And say that you need me.
If only life were a landscape
You would be the mural
I paint on the wall.

It's raining
And all I want is
Clarity.
In what you feel.
Love.
In the gaze as you look into my eyes
Support.
When you hold me.

Am trying to keep warm
Dying to be strong
but I just can't be alone.
All my fears come creeping in
My inhibitions magnified
Am not the person I should be
So promise you will always be
The one that loves me still.

You used to love me once
When the magic was just born
Given to everyone of our land
You had powers to do good
Instead you plundered
A heart that was willing
To serve you in every way.

The magic moved away
As people stopped caring
You see it was fueled
By a fire of eternal love.

Now we are mortals
Sworn to protect our hearts
for without eternal love
There is a wealth of hurt
Betrayal and confusion.
We lost the magic and reason.

Tell me your secrets
Deep ***** streams of truth
Flowing down the same way.
Let me in
Look into your eyes
Hoping to see my vision
Cause I need to matter
More than your own  space.

Am at that point where you see
Everything is not as it seems
things that used to be fun
Aren't as good as they were.
Even fun might be spelt fan.

You carried me away on wings
Your long was strong enough
to keep us both afloat.
Now am sinking under the weight
of loneliness I never expected
my solitude works against
My hopes, wishes and dreams
and all that remains is nothing
no remnants of years gone by.

I ask a question

The answer I wanna hear

More than anything,hopelessly

Instead, you say something noncommittal.

I watch you fade away
Like a wish on a shining star.
Everything I hope for
Nothing within my means.

If I could just hold you
Everything would be alright.
But you keep fading
Faster than a setting sun.

This Time around show me
That it can be more than tonight
Cause all we have are moments
all wrapped in a dream.

You call my name
in the throes of passion
could it be you have learned
It's me you want?
You lay bare your soul
For me to see the emptiness
You want that bond
That only seems to exist round me
In the hour that you take
Your final and last breath
You call for me and I am gone.

Find me in the wilderness
As I walk around the earth
Haunt our favorite hangouts
You might find me sitting
Under our tree waiting
or in the middle of the bridge
watching life pass round me
And through me.
Life goes on.

Walk with me in the afterlife
like you never did alive
May death Lower your inhibition
once you conquer death
There is nothing more to fear
So love me more than you thought
and honor my memory.

I hate that you make me
Turn off my humanity.
how can I be with you
And not be all over you.
Love you and not show
that you're my everything.
You never let it slip
How much you care
Wearing your mask as a crown
for all to see
Hurting me by indifference
I have to while away the hours
So I don't miss you so.
I hate what you're doing
This poker face game.

Sometimes I like to get you gifts
Just to see your face light up
In pure complete joy
That eclipses every tear
you have ever shed.

Sometimes I like to peek
As we lie side by side
Cause only when am with you
Can I see the way you feel
When everything fades and dims
In light of being together.

I like to hold your hand as we walk
and show that he really cares
Watch you watching my steps
And leading the way.
I am truely protected
When I walk with you.

You indulge my fantasies
Subdue my unrest
Give me purpose and direction
with you am right in the middle
of where I want to stay.

I thought it would pass
This enchantment am under.
longing for you everyday
Yearning for something out of my reach.

I drowned it out with music
loud brash beats
Somehow became a melody
slow haunting and nostalgic.
I cried myself to sleep.

How do you live alone
Knowing you can't have love
Cause it's a shameless flirt
Dancing out of arm's reach
Wearing a coy hard to get smile.

I am besieged
by the pain of emptiness
Troubled by the despair of loneliness
for it's you I want
and yet you only appear in dreams
making me wake in a hollow symphony
More alone with the knowledge
Of you're surreal parting.

Even in the silence
In the stillness of night
I feel you near like a ghost
Hovering and watching
Waiting for me to pick up the phone
maybe I will, maybe I won't.

In the dawn of a new day
I feel the echo of your touch
a light caress on my arm
Pulling me closer
I love to snuggle in your embrace
Especially in the cold air.

In this crowded room I lose you
You're not for me to share
For I had you and held you
And now all that remains
are shadows of what you were
Light and unreal and cold
The silence chills me to the bone
I can feel it in your resolve
you're not mine to keep
in the warmth of my heart.

You know I've always wanted
To run my fingers through your hair
it's an open invitation
To indulge myself in you
Let myself go and watch you unwind.

I want to sit next to you
In an open car and feel the wind
Blow our senses away
Your intoxicating laugh
and come hither smile.

Carry me away on a whim
To a land far far away
To steal my sweet kisses
and share my company with no one
Lost in a web span by ages
Of loving you and I.

I  promise that I will always love you.
I will try not to take out on you my issues
push you away cause am hurting from anything else.
I will try to remain the girl you fell in love with.
I will fight with you but wont let you sleep angry
Will offer you solace when you're sad
I promise to spoil you and be silly with you
To be that pain you like
get you addicted to me
You know you want to be
Be your lover and friend.
Cause I belong with you
You belong with me
Forever and a day more
Get you lovey dovey
make you another person
the one you need to be.
Support your dreams
lift you up when you're defeated
But most of all I will always be there when you need a friend
Or just want to talk.

Make wanton love to me
With your fingers and lips
Drive me insane like only you can
I want you to take me on the tables
And the walls
In the tub and under the shower
Can't you see I want you
To turn me into an animal
A raging feeling beast
that ravages and wants to be
Taken everywhere and everyway

You promised to love me
Forever and for always
But you didn't, couldn't?
was I so hard to love?

Said you would be there
I never had to be alone
why am I spending nights alone
in our bed all alone!

I see you here but you're not
Atleast not completely
Get the feeling you would rather
Be somewhere else doing something else.

What happened to forever?
the dreams we shared
And promises made in our talks
Long phone conversations late at night
And cuddles where we held on
And wouldn't let go.

Could it be that we have changed
And don't want the same things anymore
or have you found her
The one you were looking for.

Forever for us
Started one normal day
I sent you a text and you replied
didn't know a simple fascination
would grow into a deep love.
We talked and texted everyday
flirting a little more
Testing the waters.
We got to the deep end
You wouldn't admit you wanted more.

I tried to leave with my heart
You reached out and held my hand
You couldn't bare to see me hurt
Told me you loved me too
Wanted to jump off a cliff after
were scared you couldn't love
But here we are growing in love
We fight and sulk
Kiss and make up
You say am cute when angry
I smile a little.

Maybe deep down I needed this
Someone to make me laugh at myself when am serious
I can never stay mad at you
you're a bundle of silliness
But only you makes me melt
Drives me to that point
where every nerve wants you
And am screaming your name.
we are bound in more ways than one, soulmate.

You say am complicated
why can't you see the real me?
the girl that's easy to please
All I really need is your love;
A hug for when am down
A kiss for when I feel alone
Passion for the cold nights
when I come all the way there
A cuddle to get in my head.
Baby the world stops for a bit
When am in your arms
And time slows down.
Won't you please tell me
All the sweet nothing's I need
To hear you whisper
in the stillness as you hold me.
And I will be yours.

All I wanted was one night
Oops, didn't mean to let that slip
But instead I ended up here
A series of days and months
getting our lives entwined
it was too fast and too soon
Never had a chance to discover
Exactly what I wanted
Something that was missing.
I didn't get a chance to live
Without your shadow hovering
and now am all thinking
Maybe you're not the one
What if I got the signs wrong?

Loved you once
Liked you twice
turned your back
Three four times
watched you laugh
Walk out on this
News flash love am over that.

When it hurts you cry
and make those promises
Not to let it hurt again
The next time it happens
You wonder why you didn't
stand up to yourself more
Be strong and say no.
The little girl wants it all
The big girl knows there is a price
One paid in tears and pain
Most of all you learn
life isn't fair in anyway.

You know I want you
It's useless to play hard to get
Cause you can see right through me
The coy indirect answers
Seem not to deter you
You hear what my heart says
And sweep me off my feet
Enchanting me beyond belief
Occupying my every thought
Possessing me beyond comprehension
Everything revolves around you
You amaze me constantly
am so into you.

There is a little place that I go
When I want to be alone
Pretty, open and cozy
But only I can get in
Cause it's in my head.
Blissful silence like a breeze
No pressure or expectations
All I have to do is close my eyes
And just keep breathing.

Everything you touch
Turns to dust
Golden dust
Cause it all starts from ashes
And develops into beauty.
Touch me
that I may become your muse

I watch your life fall apart
Amidst the clutter of everyday
If only you walked slowly
you might not trip
Over the mistakes you made
Yesterday before u changed
Or when the day grabbed you
And threw you around.
the wind knocked out your sails
And I watched you flutter
and hit rock bottom.

Here I stand again
At the beginning of everything
Not sure which way to go
Whether to step forward
Or retrace my steps to the end
I did not finish what I started
Had no idea what I wanted
it was all black and blue
Maybe I needed white.

I am suspended in limbo
Between where I should be
And where I wanna be
Thinking it over day by day
What I want out of this.
Maybe in the end it will be
Worth everything to me
To just see you
Hold you
Love you.

I remember falling in love
you were passionate and kind
You were honourable in every way
Talked late to me on phone
Found me when I was lost
Held me when I couldn't stand
you were my crutch and I fell.

What I don't remember
Is falling out of love with you
Maybe it is when you stopped
Caring what I felt
Being there when I needed you
Became caught up in your life
pushed me out of the center.

I will always love you
But I will not give myself up
To please you
I will not be someone else
even for your sake
Will not smile as you hurt me
I will walk away even if I stumble
for I am not meant to stay.

You're a murderer
That's what you are
Took what little life I had
And squeezed it out
Cut my heart out with broken glass
I hate you, I hate you.

I hope that you fall down the stairs
and don't die!
That way you can feel the pain
of what you did to me.

I loved you more than life
I needed you more than air
You just wanted a crutch
To help you walk easy.
You didn't care for me
That I lived to please you
Guess it wasn't enough.

You killed me in cold blood
Watched my life source go out
Made no move to help
Just walked away
I hope I haunt you
Every single day you live
The girl you killed
oh I hate you.

Cold and alone in my bed
hoping to see you come by
Warm and loving as always
***** to be alone.
You know I don't like to
Be alone at all.
My thoughts crashing in on me
Suffocating me, strangling me
Creeping in on me
Like Jack the reaper
When am alone is when I see
an empty vessel with nothing.

She always wanted to know
Someone loved her the way she was
Whether slim or overweight
That he would be her mirror
only see what she wanted
And needed to see.

She found him one day
He seemed too good to be true
He knew the right things to say
and exactly what to do.

She lost sight of reality
he built an alternate universe
She only lived in her head
Where he made it safe
She didn't have to venture out
Where anyone would criticize.

It's not healthy to stay too long
In your head where you can do no wrong
her angel was an angel of doom
he led her to her final end
By giving all she asked for.

He says he will leave her
His wife of ten years
and mother of his sons.
That it isn't working anymore
he would rather be with me.

I believe him.

Maybe am young and naive
Or just plain desperate
but I want this man
the one that wants me back.
I said I couldn't share
He said he wouldn't dare
His lawyer would see to it
That I would be the heir.

He lied.

Today I saw them together
Hand in hand on the streets
You don't kiss your ex in public
Or grab her ***,
Am no fool nor am I gullible
He just wanted two for one special.

Am mad.

He has to pay for this
making me think I had him
Luring me into his web
Now am wiser and meaner
With a plan up my sleeve
walked up to her and said
I know about the tattoo
The one on his ***.
Her eyes went ice cold,
A marriage over.

Am proud.

I saw him walking alone
Desolate and inconsolable
his house off limits to him
No dignity left
no debauchery
I brought him to his knees.

Can't help falling under your spell
The more I get the more I want
You're awesome and great
I admit it's pointless to fight
This attraction I feel
Sinking into the warmth
Of your embrace willingly.
Losing myself in all that's you
You're good at weaving this web,
am trapped in your place

Let me meet your inner man
The cave man whose desire
Is to conquer, capture and plunder
The one who takes what he wants
and makes his own.

Don't rough me up
Just carry me to your den
Place me on your floor
and light a fire
In that special way you know how
Make me steak
Meet my basic needs.

You don't have to talk
just listen and understand.
Wipe my tears and pledge
your protection and love.
We won't have to argue
You want to please your maiden.

The caveman is the gentlest of spirits
For he is pure and without guile
He lives to dominate
But also to pleasure
with the simplest of needs
All he needs is a maiden to please.

Is it worth it to love someone that doesn't love you,
to let someone in that is only going to wreck u,
do u blame urself or just let go?
Should u let go if you love?
Love is complicated and hurts
makes you want to cry
Is the person that hurts you
Supposed to hold you?
Or just watch you break?
It's an enigma, a myth
Because how could fate be cruel
Send Cupid to play matchmaker
For beauty and the ogre.
Are we just destined to love
The people that won't love us back?
or is that a sick twist
The joker has in mind.
Trying to walk away
And ending up back at your door
Do I sink into the abyss
that is calling out my name
or do I fly away on broken wings, broken spirit that somehow you make whole.
Let me go if you can't love me
Don't let me go if you want to hurt me
You are my Achilles heel
And will be the death of me.

In the stillness of the night
I heard echoes of your voice
in the throes of passion
Screaming out for me
Telling me you wanted me.

I saw your face in the water
Smiling up at me
You looked up at me
And asked me to stay.
Gladly I will follow your lead
Just don't leave me.

I used to love you
Then you turned it around
Made me hate myself
for loving you.
Now am traumatised
Scarred for life.
Took the only thing that mattered
and ruined it for me.
The worst part is I still do
Love you after all that.

I love how you're in control
Got me under your spell
Making me feel like you can
Carry me all the way home.

Perfect mix of cocky and ego
You're so **** that way.
Visions of you holding me
Closer than should be legal.

You're invading my mind
a little more than usual
oh yes please am dying
to have you with me.

After a while
Even hate grows cold
Pain dulls and numbs
Sorrow gets replaced
And we let go.

There were chains
Cold metal chains
I broke them, I cut through
I picked the cuffs
Or maybe I had a key.

Tired of being in jail
For a crime I didn't commit
Hating you was inevitable,
You drove me to it.
And now am stuck at this
It's a full time job.

Am taking a day off
Heck am quitting,
sick leave, with pay
Be sure I'll Sue for benefits
But am done here.
Served my time with grace
Let me go.