Mia - Hello Poetry

Mia Jul 2013

I think of you, everytime I open my eyes.
I see your face in the shadows watching me.
You look worried for me.
Do you think I have changed too much?
Am not the same carefree girl who fell in love.
The pain pushed me to leave,
I couldn't take it anymore.
Being dismissed as easily as everyone else.
You let me fall when you weren't willing to be there with me.
You broke me to pieces when you left without saying goodbye.
Now I see your face in every curve,
I hear your voice in the echos of your absence.
I want you with every tear.
I need you.

Mia Jul 2013

A little time

When you said you loved me,
I didn't think you meant it.
But now I see the little things you do for me.
I know you think am heartless,
Leaving you out in the cold.
I just don't know how to love you,
It's been a painful many years.
Am trying not to push you away,
I can't let you close.
Don't you see am broken?
I need some time and space.
I'm trying not to love you.
I can't trust my own heart.
I need you to hold my hand,
Am doing my best here.

Mia Jul 2013

You

I come awake at 2 am each day,
My body yearning for yours.
But am always alone. So alone.
I check my messages hoping you are awake.
I long to read that you're thinking of me too.
Whatsapp has become a painful poke,
That you were up and not thinking of me.
I wonder if you think of some other girl, like I do of you.

I try to get back to sleep,
But all I dream are pictures of you.
Taking me away from pain.
Loving me the way I want you to.
Even my dreams don't go right.
My sub conscious senses it isn't you.

I sink to the depths of sorrow.
I wallow in tears and self pity.
Is this love?
This pain when you hurt me,
that drives a knife through my chest?
This constant delusion that you didn't mean to.
The fixation on you alone.
Is it you or the idea of you that pleases me?
You break me into a million pieces,
And still I wait for you to fix me.

Mia Jul 2013

You invade my every pore

You're in my songs,
You're in my dreams.
Every memory reminds me why I need you.
But I don't want to be wrapped up in you.
You consume me,
Filling me with images of you.
I hate how your face fills up my thoughts,
The way you look at me.
I am lost when you hold me.
I say I won't let you get close.
But when you say my name,
I run into your arms.
You make me give up my illusions
Of what love is.
Being with you immerses me in a bubble,
You're all that exists for me.
You invade my memories,
I can't remember life before you.
You lead me down a narrow road,
Where all I see and hear is you.
I only feel when you touch me.
I don't know how to go on without you.
I don't want to start if you're not here.

Mia Jul 2013

Broken promises

He said he would leave her,
She was always nagging him,
Besides; he loved me more.
He wanted to be with me, he said.
Poor little fool I was, I ate it all up.
Like vanilla icecream with a scoop.
I wanted to be with him.
Instead, I was lost in his lies and promises.
He could not leave,
He was invested in her.

Mia Jul 2013

Stuck

I want to walk away,
But each time I take a step away,
find myself even closer to you.
You pull me in with those moments you let me see into your heart,
That am nestled there together with your fondest memories.
You whisper promises I can't resist.
I turn my back and you hold me close,
Your arms around my waist.
I lose my resolve to leave and hold you back.
I love you even as I try to stop,
My heart beats faster when you take my hand.
I can't leave you yet I have to go.
Am stuck on you.

Mia Jul 2013

Anything

Today your smile was a little stronger,
A little less brittle than before.
Your hug a little tighter,
Arms encircling my heart.
Your pulse steadier,
Beating to no worries at the time.
I lean in to hear your voice,
Unwavering as you ask me to stay.
I can feel the resolve in your words,
You are firmer in your request.
I long to sink in your embrace,
Bury my face in your neck and let go.
But instead I cling to the past,
The smoky tendrils of doubts I had about your love.
I hold your hand tighter,
Can you feel this thing we have between us?
My body trembles as you take your hand,
I need you so much.
Ask me again, my dear.
I will do anything for you.